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outrider567
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- Apr 5, 2022
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Please when you post translate to English then post.Também escuto música. Além disso, eu falo com o meu melhor amigo e uso a internet em geral. Infelizmente, não melhora muito porque eu sei que deveria estar fazendo algo mais importante, então eu meio que só me sinto um merda mesmo. Só piora quando tô tendo algum ataque de pânico. Nessas horas eu não consigo pensar em nem uma linha de raciocínio, então eu só fico indo de distração pra distração, nada tendo um grande efeito.
I do this with video I only hear the sound. Something like this videoTry to go to sleep with something on the tv (having it on zero light) that doesn't requires neurons to comprehend (probably because it's a show I've watched multiple time).
I do the carotid thing too if its night and nothing's working. It really works.Videogames until I feel like I'm dissociating enough to not feel anything. Marijuana if I have a free day to recover from the effects.
If I'm in a pinch, I press against the carotid arteries until I feel like I'm about to pass out. My mind gets fuzzy and somehow it makes me stop thinking for a crisp 30 seconds, then the general emotional agony hurts a lot less.
I don't recommend it. I can't stop because it works so well and hasn't left any physical scars. It's better then CTBing, but it's not healthy at all.
I do this with video I only hear the sound. Something like this video
And watch crime stories like this
You can watch this oneVideogames were always a good distraction for me, lately been bingeing ww2 vehicle documentaries on YT.
that's true, that's why people think I am lazy. Because I am in bad mental situation all the time.this is just what's easiest and when I'm in a bad state I'm simply less likely to do something that takes more effort.
everything you said is downright trueWhen I was younger, it was reading books. I mainly love fantasy and science fiction. Hours and hours, and like every day.
When I got my first computer, I discovered chat rooms, and, craving positive human connection, launched into that heavily.
Then it was computer games, mostly MMORPGs, also hours on end.
Currently it's just reading stuff from the internet, anything, this forum, research papers on psychiatric meds, psychiatric treatment guidelines, articles about different mental illnesses, med leaflets, anything else I stumble upon and find interesting, crime cases, problem solving, philosophy, I don't even know anymore.
If I stop engaging my brain for too long, my feelings will seep in, and I will fall down into a very very dark hole and somewhere along the way will start crying and start to feel immense and overwhelming pain. I'm not even trying to see if it still happens that way now, like, today, if I stop(*), I just keep going until I'm so tired that I start having trouble to keep my eyes open and concentrate. Insomnia is so bad atm, I have been lying in bed for up to like 6 hours, arrived at the triple initial dose of sleep meds and not even that is working anymore and I'm fighting to keep a semblance of a circadian rhythm.
How curious, I just now, in this moment, realize just how intensely I've been using distraction all along since forever. Idk if that's so healthy ... I think not. I mean it works, but there's something serious that I can't sufficiently contain or process anymore. Also today I'm still agitated and a bit uncollected after waking up to the police at my door. My faut, but very unsettling and disturbing the remnants of illusions of safety. It's not. It's not safe. I'm not safe. Nowhere is truly safe. People still possess my keys. The lock can be lockpicked by a professional. The door can be torn down by the fire department. My home is not safe, my thoughts are not comforting, my feelings are not calming, and no treatment brought lasting relief, and human connections are downright destruction. I don't want to be here anymore and I'm sick and tired of the stream of struggle and loss.
(*) Definitely still happening.
lately nothing helps me, i literally just have to ride out the feelingsHow do you manage to comfort yourself or distract yourself when you are at your worst? Or just distract yourself to avoid thoughts, things like that.
I listen to music when this happens and it doesn't always help, now tell me your methods!