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7 monthsWhy Nov?
Ah. I went by your April starting date. Why is Jan special if you don't mind?7 months
june = 7
july = 6
aug = 5
sept = 4
oct = 3
nov = 2
dic = 1
so... january!
because this is my last year. doing my final experiments to see if I recover from my issues.Ah. I went by your April starting date. Why is Jan special if you don't mind?
Your words hits hard. Darkness and sleep are my things.I don't or maybe I should say, I can't. I have terrible anxiety, and when it truly grips me, all I can do is crawl under my blankets and close my eyes. I don't sleep, I don't "meditate", I don't have any coping strategy. I just know it feels less terrible in the dark. When my mind just inevitably gets exhausted from the stress, I fall asleep. My stress levels go down... I wake up. Rinse and repeat. I've been on antidepressants which took much of my anxiety away, along with many sensations. Now, nothing is so interesting to me; video games, movies, books etc, they just have no joy to them. They used to be momentary distractions but the medications took even that away; not that they helped. Those few minutes of focus and separation from reality, inevitably fade into a droning sense of impending doom as it comes back to me; that I am alive, and how meaningless all my effort will be when I eventually ctb. How strange to live.
this is what he saidI fly out to somewhere near the orbit of Neptune in my imagination, and look back at earth. NASA once took a photo from there, and it showed earth as just a single pixel. Anything that is confined to just a single pixel - i.e. all human life and all human problems - can't be very important in the grand scheme of things.
sometimes i just have to convince myself not to take life seriously.
Thanks for starting this topic. I needed these info.How do you manage to comfort yourself or distract yourself when you are at your worst? Or just distract yourself to avoid thoughts, things like that.
I listen to music when this happens and it doesn't always help, now tell me your methods!
I can so relate.There is no comforting me at my worst. The agony brings me to my knees and I scream and shake and cry
My date : Day 18 Month 05 Year 2028My greatest source of comfort is that at 50, I am over the hill of it. I did one of those 'expected date of death' things, think it's called death clock, where you input your details and it gives you a date you can expect to die. So I have it as a count down on my phone. Seeing the days and hours count down regardless of what I do, is therapeutic. Makes me feel that with each breath I'm closer to end game.