how do you come to terms about, how your gonna leave your loving family?

[Secrets1]

I cast judgement on no one for their decisions pertaining to suicide. Along with it I don't seek to invalidate anyones personal experience or feelings. I also have plenty of mental illness diagnosis and related physical injury in my brain.

Simply sharing my thoughts with OP. It's something I've researched ad nauseam. I've begged loved ones to let me go and they tell me it'll ruin their lives. I know it would give some PTSD. The average suicide personally impacts 130 people. I live somewhat isolated, don't have 130 people in my life, yet I can see how my CTB would have a similar ripple effect. Do I feel support from 130 people? hell no. I do recognize the reality and for now am willing to eat the pain to spare others. I also have my limits, a breaking point and method at my fingertips. Didn't revisit SS bc I'm in a good mood or anything.

To you personally, I wish you peace however it may come

 

[HopefulButPrepared]

Good idea
Thanks!

I am in no way encouraging you to CTB though, just playing with ways to think about death in general

 

[theboy]

I am in no way encouraging you to CTB though, just playing with ways to think about death in general

Don't worry.