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CocaCola

New Member
Jun 10, 2025
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I'm going through something unbearably painful and it's caused every single minute of my day to be nothing but suffering, anxiety, despair and wishing I could just be gone. It's gotten to the point where I can't even distract myself anymore, every single moment I spend awake is a moment that I desperately wish I wasn't conscious because it's agonizing. What can I do to stop that? Drugs, alcohol, anything? What can I do to make this stop? I want to try whatever there is before I make the final call.
 
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timf

Enlightened
Mar 26, 2020
1,685
If this is a single event driven condition (such as overwhelming grief), time may allow it to fade. If this is a sudden increase of an existing condition, it might require a medication adjustment. If you are dealing with the internal response to an external situation, you may have to take control of your environment and make some changes. If this is an internal condition distinct from any external situation, you might want to see a psychiatrist for medication. There are experiments that can be done with vitamins, supplements, and nutrition. Sleep schedule and exercise are also possible candidates for experimentation.

There are supplements that can effect neuro transmitters like GABA that can help reduce agitation. If your situation is so intense that you are not able to takes the days and weeks for experimentation, you might want to make an appointment with a doctor right away. You might even try the emergency room of a hospital that has a psychiatrist n call.
 
lemonandcapers

lemonandcapers

I Wanna End Me (she/her)
Jun 7, 2025
109
I'm going through something unbearably painful and it's caused every single minute of my day to be nothing but suffering, anxiety, despair and wishing I could just be gone. It's gotten to the point where I can't even distract myself anymore, every single moment I spend awake is a moment that I desperately wish I wasn't conscious because it's agonizing. What can I do to stop that? Drugs, alcohol, anything? What can I do to make this stop? I want to try whatever there is before I make the final call.
I went through something similar two months ago. Is there something that is triggering these thoughts, or did they come on their own?
 
Ch4in3dcr0w

Ch4in3dcr0w

The crow of hopelessness and despair
Jun 21, 2025
382
ont turn your to alcohol or drugs for the answer its just going to make u dependant on them. Recovery is hard and this feelings wont go away fully all u can do is learn how to manage them. All i can suggest is getting help from a professional and maybe getting that can u help overcome those unbearable feelings. Im so sorry life threw at u such hard things to overcome but it can be even if a little better :D
 

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