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Sadbanana

God doesn't care
Aug 20, 2024
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I want to die asap. I hate every fucking second of being alive :) But unfortunately I'm too stupid and too coward to find a good method to kill myself. I was thinking about smoking and drinking. I don't know if being unhealthy is actually going to reduce my life span or just make it more painful though. Is there some way I can make sure to die quicker, that won't be agonizing?
 
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black money boys

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Apr 18, 2025
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i think the best way to do that is to become a hardcore drug abuser … that way you can feel good as you're doing it
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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I think most unhealthy things we may subject our bodies too simply put it at greater risk of things like heart disease, cancer, stroke, diabetes etc. I suppose certain things could potentially kill quickly. A couple of my relatives went via a heart attack. Here one minute, gone the next. Probably still painful though. But, I imagine there are loads of variables and not many ways of controlling the outcome.

Maybe taking up a dangerous hobby could put us at more risk of a death by misadventure but again- it may not necessarily be a clean death. It's all so risky really- waiting on a more natural death. My fear is, I'll leave it too long to be able to suicide and then, the choice won't be mine to make.
 
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HansaNull

HansaNull

the last color turning gray
Dec 4, 2025
35
Well, drinking is absolutely not the way to go. I've been drinking for 2 years (sober now) and it gave me nothing but an unhealthy body, BAD sleep and a lot of pain. Being a drug addict may be the most reliable way, but it sure seems agonizing.
 
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unluckysadness

Enlightened
Jul 9, 2025
1,158
Keith Richards tried to CTB with this method since more than 60 years lol... He's 81 and still alive. Not a reliable method...
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
2,516
Keith Richards tried to CTB with this method since more than 60 years lol... He's 81 and still alive. Not a reliable method...
He isn't human, tho...
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
2,516
Please excuse my stupidity … what is CTB?
 
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Sadbanana

God doesn't care
Aug 20, 2024
238
Keith Richards tried to CTB with this method since more than 60 years lol... He's 81 and still alive. Not a reliable method...
I kind of fear it too, with my luck I will survive everything :(
Well, drinking is absolutely not the way to go. I've been drinking for 2 years (sober now) and it gave me nothing but an unhealthy body, BAD sleep and a lot of pain. Being a drug addict may be the most reliable way, but it sure seems agonizing.
I feel the same way about smoking. When I did, I had this constantly obnoxious heaviness on my lungs, it's just not worth it living a few less years.
 
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Sadbanana

God doesn't care
Aug 20, 2024
238
I think most unhealthy things we may subject our bodies too simply put it at greater risk of things like heart disease, cancer, stroke, diabetes etc. I suppose certain things could potentially kill quickly. A couple of my relatives went via a heart attack. Here one minute, gone the next. Probably still painful though. But, I imagine there are loads of variables and not many ways of controlling the outcome.

Maybe taking up a dangerous hobby could put us at more risk of a death by misadventure but again- it may not necessarily be a clean death. It's all so risky really- waiting on a more natural death. My fear is, I'll leave it too long to be able to suicide and then, the choice won't be mine to make.
Dangerous hobby sounds cool. But I'm sort of the bed bound type of depressed. I'm happy if I make it to my computer to play for a while, even that feels like a chore most of the time. I can't imagine doing some extreme sport, plus I don't have no money :(

But its not bad idea at all, if I ever get a chance, I will try bungee jumping out of a cliff. Maybe even without a rope.
I think most unhealthy things we may subject our bodies too simply put it at greater risk of things like heart disease, cancer, stroke, diabetes etc. I suppose certain things could potentially kill quickly. A couple of my relatives went via a heart attack. Here one minute, gone the next. Probably still painful though. But, I imagine there are loads of variables and not many ways of controlling the outcome.

Maybe taking up a dangerous hobby could put us at more risk of a death by misadventure but again- it may not necessarily be a clean death. It's all so risky really- waiting on a more natural death. My fear is, I'll leave it too long to be able to suicide and then, the choice won't be mine to make.
Dangerous hobby sounds cool. But I'm sort of the bed bound type of depressed. I'm happy if I make it to my computer to play for a while, even that feels like a chore most of the time. I can't imagine doing some extreme sport, plus I don't have no money :(

But its not bad idea at all, if I ever get a chance, I will try bungee jumping out of a cliff. Maybe even without a rope.
 
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WrathfulGloom32

WrathfulGloom32

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Oct 12, 2024
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Fast and painful? drugs probably

slow and painful? normalized drugs probably (sugar, cigarettes, alcohol)

or you can choose not to self harm this way.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,327
Dangerous hobby sounds cool. But I'm sort of the bed bound type of depressed. I'm happy if I make it to my computer to play for a while, even that feels like a chore most of the time. I can't imagine doing some extreme sport, plus I don't have no money :(

But its not bad idea at all, if I ever get a chance, I will try bungee jumping out of a cliff. Maybe even without a rope.

Dangerous hobby sounds cool. But I'm sort of the bed bound type of depressed. I'm happy if I make it to my computer to play for a while, even that feels like a chore most of the time. I can't imagine doing some extreme sport, plus I don't have no money :(

But its not bad idea at all, if I ever get a chance, I will try bungee jumping out of a cliff. Maybe even without a rope.

That's me too. I'm too much of a hermit and too unfit for anything sporty. There was a woman recently in the UK who suicided while sky diving. Pretty traumatic I imagine for everyone to witness. Plus, must have taken will power not to pull the chute.
 
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n/a_n/a

Member
Nov 29, 2025
14
Get just enough H to OD
You'll fly, from what I've heard
 
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Sadbanana

God doesn't care
Aug 20, 2024
238
Hone
That's me too. I'm too much of a hermit and too unfit for anything sporty. There was a woman recently in the UK who suicided while sky diving. Pretty traumatic I imagine for everyone to witness. Plus, must have taken will power not to pull the chute.
Honesty that sounds like I plan for me. I just make sure to jump alone and won't pull the chute too, there aren't many high places in my location, but this will surely kill me.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,327
Hone

Honesty that sounds like I plan for me. I just make sure to jump alone and won't pull the chute too, there aren't many high places in my location, but this will surely kill me.

It would take tremendous guts. Not sure I could do it. I imagine it would be expensive too. Probably, quite a few accompanied dives before they feel confident to let people jump alone.

It's got to be pretty devastating for them to to watch in horror. I imagine they have to investigate fully that it wasn't equipment failure. Although, I guess people leave notes.
 
Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒恄薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
Drinking a lot , doing hard-core drugs and ummm smoking might do something too.
 
IDontKnowEverything

IDontKnowEverything

Please stop it
Mar 2, 2025
121
Please excuse my stupidity … what is CTB?
Catch the bus (sometimes followed by stuff like "where's my ticket", "I need my ticket" or whatever else referencing CTB planning and such), close the book, cease to breathe, cross the bridge/bar, cease to be... aka CTB is an acronym for whatever word combination you want it to be, just, when used on this webside the context usually implies termination of oneself.
 
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