How do I CTB after already getting caught

[strawb12]

I was going to ctb a few months ago & I got caught. I was 5150'd & forced to go through a whole bunch of shit in the psych ward & rez. Now I'm back & still wanting to ctb but most of the methods I would use are extremely inconvenient. All my packages are checked which rules out a lot of options for me, & I have limited access to sharp knives. Does anyone have any ideas or do I just have to wait till people forget about everything so I can try again later.

 

[istheretrulyalife?]

I think your best bet is to wait until the heat dies down. Cutting is notoriously unreliable and could be pretty painful (i once accidentally snapled a pencil and it stabbed me, hurt like a bitch). You could do partial hanging but you would have to make sure no one does surprise check ins.

Neck ties aren't suspicious, and rope could be used for a bunch of stuff as well. You could hide it as well, I doubt people are doing thorough inspections of your house.

Hope you do what is right for you.

 

[FuneralCry]

After all it's up to you deciding what to do, but I think it sounds risky trying to ctb if other people are always watching as it could just lead to failure and anyway stabbing and cutting aren't really reliable suicide methods anyway, cutting has a less than 2% success rate while stabbing would just lead to injuries as the survival instinct would kick in. But anyway it sounds so horrible what you've been through and I hate how we exist in this hellish world where we cruelly cannot just choose to die in peace, I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for.