How did you first hear about / find your way to SanctionedSuicide? (2nd poll)

[JoaoBye]

Tantacrul video while depressed. Things only got worse.

 

[plastic]

was looking for a partner or a group for suicide on Google, It was before long time ago...

 

[Foxcompany2nd3rd]

I felt very suicidal today, and something pulled me away from the edge, so I wanted to cope in my misery and searched up "suicide forum" on the internet and found this.

 

[ReadyToDie99]

I found it via a Yandex search since Google blocks anything helpful like this

 

[plan c]

There was a certain "lostallhope.com" or sth. that had a link to sasu. The original site isn't accessible any longer, tho i think there's some wayback machine or sth. I went looking for it when I was really depressed.

 

[fau840]

I find the site by yandex trying to search general suicide info

I will never find it with google, that give me lame and annoying results

So thanks to yandex that help me find some shit that is not listed on google

 

[XKZyn]

Tantacrul's video shined light on this place to me a year ago but I thought nothing of it while watching the video, just catalogued it in my mind for later.

 

[genie]

Back when the original subreddit was banned, a temporary one was made which linked to SaSu. That was a while back (late 2018 I think). Didn't post until last year because the site blocked proxies and I only had mobile web. Ironically I can only access this site through proxies and VPNs now

 

[IAm_AllofMe]

Was suicidal and was looking for methods.
Found this site and did some research.
Glad this site exists. Being around like-minded people helps a lot.

 

[Nobodi]

A vice article

 

[exitingtothevoid]

I was suicidal and doing research into methods on google when I found this site.

 

[Carrot]

I wish I remembered. Maybe old me even posted how I knew about this place, but I just don't remember.

 

[Lyn]

First time I've seen it as a subreddit, but didn't really lurk there too long.
Then I've seen this site mentioned on Reddit somewhere.

 

[Idealrope]

I found it via a Yandex search since Google blocks anything helpful like this

duckduckgo browser is useful,too

 

[cookiencream]

Venice AI lmaoooo

 

[Anonymousa]

First knew about the existence of site through Tantacrul's video and thought the site could be useful to me in my want to die and was curious if what he said about the site was true. As the video didn't give the full name of the site I couldn't find it straight away but I was able to find the name of it through the Wikipedia page on it.

 

[star.trip]

I remember looking for news about how people CTB, I found a news item where it was mentioned. I spent more than a year reading the forum until I signed up.

 

[JassieDusk]

I was looking at my dead friend's answers on tellonym (something like ngl) from years ago. Someone asked him if he has any website he'd like to recommend. That's how I ended up here xD
Thank you Koni, you gave me something to be happy about, even in death <3

 

[liquid jen]

I'm in the tcc (true crime community) so I spend fair amounts of time researching certain perps. I saw on Tumblr once somebody mention that Adam Lanza had supposedly used a "suicide forum" and I was intrigued. Idk if it was this one he specifically supposedly used, but i did some research into suicide forums as a whole and came here. Unfortunate associations/pathways here, but I'm glad I found it nonetheless.

 

[Irisse]

It was quite long ago, in 2018, when I stumbled across a reddit post with a link in it. Before that I found a site called Lostallhope and was looking for something similar. Then there was that link with the name Sanctioned Suicide and the rest is history.

 

[memento-mori]

i googled sorrow solution and saw the wikipedia article about sanctioned suicide
then i searched up sanctioned suicide on duckduckgo

 

[KristineMC]

The New York Times article lol. Was researching ways to ctb and came across the article, and ironically they actually helped me find this site.

 

[Kai64]

i heard of this website from a (now deleted) video of a brazillian youtuber i watch frequently

at that time i got shocked by this website and i was hoping the police or even the uk government would shut it down

however, as time passed by, i realized this website, in reality, is a great way to escape from my problems and it is absolutely perfect to discuss about suicide, the different methods and the best way to do it painless

i was trying to find this website for months as of late 2025, i only managed to find it after asking FreedomGPT for the link, since every single browser would block it, i hate this censorship the website receives from the searches

i learned how to love this website and it's concept, no matter what you are and what you did, everyone here is welcome and i appreciate that a lot

 

[bugbugbug]

I honestly just randomly found this when googling

 

[Topaz111]

I saw some youtube video about it, not Tentacrul one, it was someone else, but I don't remember who. Of course they framed the site as some "suicide cult" and such, but I saw someone in the comments saying the video is misrepresenting the website and that got me curious. The video didn't say the name of the website, but I found it by searching for "suicide forum" and found a wikipedia article and then found the site using duckduckgo since google blocks it.

 

[SpeedDemon]

I searched how to hang myself properly and die quickly on Google. It was on the first page.

I saw some youtube video about it, not Tentacrul one, it was someone else, but I don't remember who. Of course they framed the site as some "suicide cult" and such, but I saw someone in the comments saying the video is misrepresenting the website and that got me curious. The video didn't say the name of the website, but I found it by searching for "suicide forum" and found a wikipedia article and then found the site using duckduckgo since google blocks it.

I found it on Google.

 

[Sakura.]

My gf told me about it, don't even know why, and she's now mad at me for using this forum ://

Hi, willow368! Today is your birthday! Happy birthday!

 

[It'sMyLife]

Found by looking up info on inert gas. Probably found that method on lostallhope but not sure. The post I found was by an already inactive user onewayroad on his set up. I wish I could have messaged him but I think he'd already ctb. His tag line was a quote by Kevorkian - dying is not a crime.

 

[turned_to_one]

I'm surprised there aren't more ASHers here. Or maybe there are quite a few.

I used to idle on the alt.suicide.holiday boards as a kid, and came here after it went down for good. I here the usenet is still active, but likely overrun with pests like most usenet boards by now

 

[ZwartHartje]

By coincidence, I stumbled upon an article on Scientias.nl, a popular science site in Dutch language that I sometimes read, the title said something about a "common meat preservative causing suicides," and I thought, how's that possible? It turned out to be about SN, which I had never heard of, so I researched it and got to Wikipedia, and it was there that this forum was mentioned - and hyperlinked too, so I clicked on it, and there was the link to get here.