How did you first hear about / find your way to SanctionedSuicide? (2nd poll)

[AWeepingWidower]

After my partner passed away that fateful day I was driven to SI, in my grief I spent most of my bereavement planning and researching on how CTB in a way that I feel works for me. I'm still soul searching personally, but my mind is all but made up.

 

[SuicidalOrganism]

From the owner of this forum (Master)

 

[violethaze]

I remember watching tantacrul's YouTube video, and feeling unlike how he and the comments were saying. I felt like the view was unfair in some ways, overly critical where I felt like if I went, I might find some people who shared the same thoughts as I did. And I did go here then, but that was a couple of years ago, and my life went up more in smoke, so I decided to stop being a guest lurker.

 

[сет паслен]

I had never known a forum such as this existed. Over the years, I had been deeply depressed and have thought about different ways to CTB, mainly by use of herbs such as poison hemlock, which grows everywhere around here! during a "lets read" podcast I had heard of Sanctioned Suicide, and grateful to have found this supportive community! There is no other place like it.

 

[deathnoted]

I think I was looking for "painless ways" to ctb and ended up here, it was over two years ago though so it way not even be that way haha.

 

[pointblank]

I searched for N on a 4chan archive site and an anon mentioned SaSu.

 

[Gstreater]

It looks like Tantacrul's video had the opposite effect judging by the poll. I think that's a good thing since this place isn't bad it's either you get it or you don't.

 

[Overwhelmed52]

I think I heard about it in connection with the PPH. Being able to read and post here has helped me a lot and the people who are against the site don't understand what it is about.

 

[music]

fuck that tantacrul guy i never would have found this place or the knowledge which isn't ever escaping my head without that video. just liked him for some silly music stuff before. "lallalala leave rhe site then" will when i get a close fucking friend lol

 

[Cavalcade]

I think I'd initially heard about it in a Youtube video that used just the initials of the site. I really like forums, (though didn't grow up with them), and found this place while googling around for 'suicide forums' in hopes of finding somewhere where people who could relate might congregate, since the video tipped me off on the existence of such a spot somewhere on the internet.

 

[EternalShore]

I think I'd initially heard about it in a Youtube video that used just the initials of the site. I really like forums, (though didn't grow up with them), and found this place while googling around for 'suicide forums' in hopes of finding somewhere where people who could relate might congregate, since the video tipped me off on the existence of such a spot somewhere on the internet.

yup, that's the Tantracrul video! ^_^ It's ironic how he's directly responsible for 40% of the members here~ xD I hope you find comfort while you're here~ :)

 

[Cavalcade]

yup, that's the Tantracrul video! ^_^ It's ironic how he's directly responsible for 40% of the members here~ xD I hope you find comfort while you're here~ :)

Thanks, you as well. That's very kind of you to say. It is ironic, but also sort of pleasant, in a way, I think- that people who might've felt alone in grappling with their suicidality could find some sort of community, given how often ostracization and isolation feeds into ideation. Hopefully some of those ~40% who wandered on here from that lead can find similar comfort too.

 

[avalokitesvara]

I was reading and posting a little on r/suicidewatch but found it shallow and annoying, with stupid rules. I remembered reading a pro-choice forum with methods back in like the 00s and tried to find it by googling "pro-suicide forum". I don't think the site I was thinking of exists anymore but I found a bbc article which made it easy to google sasu so here I am.

 

[brittlemoth]

I was reading and posting a little on r/suicidewatch but found it shallow and annoying, with stupid rules. I remembered reading a pro-choice forum with methods back in like the 00s and tried to find it by googling "pro-suicide forum". I don't think the site I was thinking of exists anymore but I found a bbc article which made it easy to google sasu so here I am.

Similar experience here. I was so fed up with being unsupported by basically every suicide resource that I wanted to find a forum that was at least pro choice. I don't remember exactly what specifically gave me the sight name but given all of the negative media attention, I can't help but think one of those lovely articles led me to also googling 'sasu' and going down a rabbit hole into this lovely community. And it is a lovely community. Despite its many flaws, I feel safer here with some of my deeper thoughts than I do on pretty much any other resource. And especially more than the involuntarily hospitalizing suicide hotlines for whom trying to seek help for me was nearly equivalent to a form of self harm given how little I could trust them. How else was I supposed to respond? Suicidal people can smell uncaring pro-life bullshit from a mile away. I think it was quite reasonable for me to want to seek out the perspective of other suicidal people instead.

 

[cme-dme]

I frequented r/SuicideWatch and r/Depression pretty often before I found this forum. I found this forum by being very bored one day, clicking the "Random Site" button on an obscure search engine until I found a website that archived an old website related to alt.suicide.holiday (a.s.h). I went down a rabbit hole learning about a.s.h and found a link to this forum which was described as a more modern version of what a.s.h was.

 

[particularrodent]

after a long time of reading r/suicidewatch to cope and stuff someone linked lostallhope in the comments, and from there i found here

 

[ushina_mashi]

Asked chatGPT for sites where it was possible to find a suicide partner lol

 

[Dak]

I was looking for pro-ana sites and kept getting news articles about a banned website that helps people kill themselves in Canada. So I was like okay, I'll join. Took forever for me to find an actual journalist who mentioned the name of this site.

Seems like everyone mostly found out via YouTube (never heard of that guy). I literally had to search for like 2 hours.

 

[skybox]

I browsed r/SanctionedSuicide. It got banned, I forgot about it and found this forum from googling the name out of curiosity.

 

[LostLily]

Felt lonely and was looking for pro-choice suicide forums after Ash got closed down.

 

[Rymrgand]

I was reading articles in Wikipedia, I'm not sure which ones, and I found the SaSu one.

 

[Yonlux]

Tantacrul's video too lmao

 

[NonEssential]

At first when I was looking for methods, then I was reminded of this place from a youtube video,

 

[darksouls]

a user on GOREFLIX posted a link in 2023
thank you very much my friend for the information

 

[raindrops]

Google back in 2020 when I split from my ex, lost all motivation. Then he came back, motivation didn't I was still on this site

 

[UserFromNowhere]

Honestly, I don't remember how I first discovered this site. I remember hearing about it from somewhere a few years back, but I was fine at the time. Eventually, the depression started and I was tired of people just saying it will get better but not being able to tell them the extent of my issues, and I recalled the name of the site from memory. Typed it into search and browsed a bit before deciding to make an account, and now we're here.

 

[JesiBel]

Searching for methods, G00gle brought me here~

 

[SignatureRequired]

Literally searched for "suicide forum"

 

[Alexandra_]

My best internet friend gave me a link to this site about 2 years ago. Too bad we don't talk anymore

 

[bankai]

Found it on a sports forum where a user just posted a link to this site.

So casual but yeah thank god for that.