First of all, I want to say that it's my first thread, maybe I don't write so well.
Be kind to me, please.
I want to share a little bit of my story with you
In 2023 I had a lot of problems at home, with my family, especially with my mother. And during this period I fell in love with a person, but it turned out that we didn't work out (because of me) and I was extremely bad. I was going to sleep crying every day, for months. And he put that together, plus the problems with my mother, my family thinking I had no future and I solved CTB by the end of the year. Unfortunately, the amount of medication I took was not enough to cause any serious damage.
It's been a while and today I find myself here, lost in life, not knowing what to do.
There was a girl (older than me) who accompanied me, helped me when I needed it, anyway. But last week she said she doesn't have the capacity to continue accompanying me. And like, am I that bad??
I don't see any more reasons to continue living, my family doesn't believe in me, I have no one to talk to, etc.
My dream is really CTB, but I live with my parents, I don't work, so it turns out that I can't buy anything to help me, like SN. For now I don't have any really effective method for a person on my terms.
I hope that someday I will have the courage to make this decision and really put an end to it.
Be kind to me, please.
I want to share a little bit of my story with you
In 2023 I had a lot of problems at home, with my family, especially with my mother. And during this period I fell in love with a person, but it turned out that we didn't work out (because of me) and I was extremely bad. I was going to sleep crying every day, for months. And he put that together, plus the problems with my mother, my family thinking I had no future and I solved CTB by the end of the year. Unfortunately, the amount of medication I took was not enough to cause any serious damage.
It's been a while and today I find myself here, lost in life, not knowing what to do.
There was a girl (older than me) who accompanied me, helped me when I needed it, anyway. But last week she said she doesn't have the capacity to continue accompanying me. And like, am I that bad??
I don't see any more reasons to continue living, my family doesn't believe in me, I have no one to talk to, etc.
My dream is really CTB, but I live with my parents, I don't work, so it turns out that I can't buy anything to help me, like SN. For now I don't have any really effective method for a person on my terms.
I hope that someday I will have the courage to make this decision and really put an end to it.
