ecmnesia
the only thing humans are equal in is death
- Aug 30, 2020
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I choose a method, made up my mind and strating tomorrow will acquire the stuff I need.
I've reflected a lot on the matter and although I wish I could prevent my loved ones pain, as much as I don't want them to suffer, I cannot avoid and postpone cbt anymore.
I'm aware that it is impossible to not hurt them in the process, but I'd like to do as much as I can to minimize their pain. What can I do in order to make them understand my decision without blaming themselves? What and how should I address them on the farewell notes?
I already decided that I will travel with them one last time next week, and that I'm going to make this family trip as joyful as possible for them to keep good memories. Also I'm putting up my best mask to sound happy and better these last few days, so I won't raise any flags.
I know it doesn't make up for my selfish decision, but I've made peace with it. I will be selfish, i suck, but that's ok. Unfortunately, their pain is something I'm willing to sacrifice so I don't have to endure this hell anymore.
I will do it in a hotel room, so that my brothers/parents don't find my body, but what else can I do for them?
I've reflected a lot on the matter and although I wish I could prevent my loved ones pain, as much as I don't want them to suffer, I cannot avoid and postpone cbt anymore.
I'm aware that it is impossible to not hurt them in the process, but I'd like to do as much as I can to minimize their pain. What can I do in order to make them understand my decision without blaming themselves? What and how should I address them on the farewell notes?
I already decided that I will travel with them one last time next week, and that I'm going to make this family trip as joyful as possible for them to keep good memories. Also I'm putting up my best mask to sound happy and better these last few days, so I won't raise any flags.
I know it doesn't make up for my selfish decision, but I've made peace with it. I will be selfish, i suck, but that's ok. Unfortunately, their pain is something I'm willing to sacrifice so I don't have to endure this hell anymore.
I will do it in a hotel room, so that my brothers/parents don't find my body, but what else can I do for them?