Discussion How Being A POC Has Brought You To SS

[RedEther]

I haven't been good at writing out long string of thoughts since leaving school, and theres...alot on my mind right now. I think i just wanted to start the conversation to see if there was any other POC on here in the stuggle

 

[Deleted member 8975]

What's POC?

 

[Mr2005]

I'm not sure what it is. I thought you meant piece of shit which I am. I also can't piece together my thoughts into structured posts so I just dish out a few odds and ends. This is despite doing well in English at school. All that's gone. Fortunately I can often nail things in a couple of words. I haven't managed it this time

 

[insipixiecat]

What's POC?

Person of color.

 

[RedEther]

No where is safe. Not even your own communities. No matter where you go, who you are with you will be judged. The weight of your entire race is on your shoulders. You do anything wrong, from a bad grade, to murder its own EVERYONE. As soon as your seen small judgments are placed upon you. You cant even 100% blame them, because you do it too, to an extent. Growing up in the gettoh you learn to trust noone, and none trust you. The world teaches you that you are not to be trusted. That you are not normal, are ugly, dirty, misshapen. Not using those words flat out, but when things are not made for you it becomes clear. Clothing dont fit you unless you go to a special store, simple things like soap and shampoo harm more than help unless you pay more for the special stuff. Everything default looks like everything but you. Things are harder and its Your fault. You grew up in the same place time as your other friends. Had the same opportunities. Hell you could have worked harder. Never skipped classes and ALWAYs did your homework cause mama dont play with education cause she knows how hard it can be out there. And yet, you dont make it anywhere close to any of your friends. And some how its all your fault, and the world will let you know it. The gaslighting is strong and you start to believe it. Hating yourself. Even if you dont you see what happens to the ones that keep trying. Working themselves to death. Constantly being past over for people who dont deserve it for one excuse for another. Maybe youll be lucky and make it to a good spot. Maybe you wont. But that disadvantage that is constantly being pretended that doesn't exist is not only annoying but harmful.

This is not a prefect recap of it all of course. Not of everyone's problems or even just mine. But its definitely a part of it. Making it through more then 4 years of collage (dropping out due to lack of money) and doing everything i can to survive with Autism, Anxiety and dyslexia, but costately being cast aside because One look at me and my situation and Immediately seen as a Illiterate welfare queen with no ambition in life that just wants to feed off the government and chill on my couch. Its been 10 years since I left collage and Im tired. I cant get disability, I cant get hired for a job, and with all this work to last this long mostly on my own, im lead to be belived im lazy. Im TIRED! Im Tired and done. There are definitely stronger pocs out there that this country can keep leaching off of but i cant keep up.

 

[Makko]

I'm an asian in Northern Europe, not sure if that counts.

I'm not from a mass emigration country so I'm not negatively stereotyped as much because people don't meet my type often and don't really know what to expect. For best results I pretend I'm assimilated. Although Northern Europeans are generally not racist they are very "culturist". There are deeply rooted traditions of order and it doesn't mix with cultural pluralism that politicians praise so much. Order requires homogenity. If you don't fit the mold very neatly people will want nothing to do with you because they don't want to risk upsetting their everyday harmony. All things equal they will choose their own over a foreigner. Oftentimes, even when it's materially irrational, they will choose their own over a foreigner anyway, simply for the comfort of familiarity.

You'd think it should be human nature but there are strong regional differences. Northern Europe + Germany is extremely order-loving, and the country I'm originally from is also extremely order-loving. As a contrast, I've been to South America, and there nobody gives a crap about order, people seem to set no expectations and just do whatever. You could be a two-headed blue smurf and people won't be compelled to avoid you, because everything is already chaos and there's no harmony that you could possibly disturb. Eastern Europe is somewhere in the middle.

The odd conclusion is that being a foreigner is best in a chaotic culture where being exotic isn't seen as a negative factor.

 

[CaliCatCharlie]

Yeah, I struggle a lot being a POC and because of that I want to CTB (and a lot of other things) because people always make me feel less than.

 

[WrongPlaceWrongTime]

If you meant "Piece Of Crap", that would be self-explanatory for my being here

 

[RedEther]

I'm an asian in Northern Europe, not sure if that counts.

I'm not from a mass emigration country so I'm not negatively stereotyped as much because people don't meet my type often and don't really know what to expect. For best results I pretend I'm assimilated. Although Northern Europeans are generally not racist they are very "culturist". There are deeply rooted traditions of order and it doesn't mix with cultural pluralism that politicians praise so much. Order requires homogenity. If you don't fit the mold very neatly people will want nothing to do with you because they don't want to risk upsetting their everyday harmony. All things equal they will choose their own over a foreigner. Oftentimes, even when it's materially irrational, they will choose their own over a foreigner anyway, simply for the comfort of familiarity.

You'd think it should be human nature but there are strong regional differences. Northern Europe + Germany is extremely order-loving, and the country I'm originally from is also extremely order-loving. As a contrast, I've been to South America, and there nobody gives a crap about order, people seem to set no expectations and just do whatever. You could be a two-headed blue smurf and people won't be compelled to avoid you, because everything is already chaos and there's no harmony that you could possibly disturb. Eastern Europe is somewhere in the middle.

The odd conclusion is that being a foreigner is best in a chaotic culture where being exotic isn't seen as a negative factor.

Fitting in to the norm seems to be a common thread I seem to run in to a lot. Everyone is so afraid to stand out. Its a natural feeling that roots all the way back to prehistoric days. The crazy thing is that we are so past such a neathathoric concept that we cant even agree what fitting in or standing out entails. As long as it makes me look better I sapose?

 

[noaccount]

I am not but if it is ok I wanted to share the resource "surviving race" and since you mentioned autism, "all the weight of our dreams." Welcome and sorry you're here (on a suicide site), as they say.

 

[StevieNixs]

I haven't been good at writing out long string of thoughts since leaving school, and theres...alot on my mind right now. I think i just wanted to start the conversation to see if there was any other POC on here ...

Does this article resonate with you?

 

[L-L]

Reading this thread is utterly, completely heart breaking. I feel ashamed on behalf of humanity.

 

[Bird up]

biracial here . I don't understand why all people pro create but especially when it comes to poc or biracial people's the chance of you suffering is just so great that it seems that almost all are created as capitalism fodder

 

[UnemployedMD]

I'm so sorry to hear you are going through this. I think there would be a lot less racism if people were to truly understand some of the disadvantages you brought up. Is leaving your community and moving somewhere else an option?

 

[RedEther]

I'm so sorry to hear you are going through this. I think there would be a lot less racism if people were to truly understand some of the disadvantages you brought up. Is leaving your community and moving somewhere else an option?

Its not the kinda thing one can move from. Some places may be better than others, but its ingrained in to pretty much everything everywhere

 

[motel rooms]

You can always....wait for it....GO BACK HOME!!!!

Where is home for a non-white UK citizen?

 

[RedEther]

I and my family where born here. I kinda remember hearing story's of some of my older family members wanting to go back to where they where originally from but they where being forced to stay here for some reason. Ah well we here now, treated like shit and I wanna die

 

[mandyjohnuk]

It's called life. Sadly we have to deal with it. There will always be small narrow minded people who think it's OK to judge and name call. At the end of the day we are all POC. Just different POC.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

You can always....wait for it....GO BACK HOME!!!!

Why would you say such a thing on THIS forum of all places? Not trying to be contentious, but I thought this was the one place we could all feel safe sharing why we're so depressed and suicidal. Did I missed something?

 

[Makko]

You can always....wait for it....GO BACK HOME!!!!

Fine

 

[Pluto]

I recall reading about a study in which it was concluded that African Americans of low socioeconomic status are capable of overcoming the lack of quality tuition and education and achieving success in the workplace, but then they tend to experience so much burnout that they often have major health problems in their 30s and 40s. The conclusion was that they seem to be better off accepting that they are set up to fail.

It's also worth noting that autism could be a much bigger barrier than colour, given that it afflicts people of all ethnicities. But having a combination of factors definitely makes it ridiculously hard to live any sort of healthy life.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

Fine

LOL

 

[ClairyFairy]

You can always....wait for it....GO BACK HOME!!!!

I feel ashamed of you and of my race!! Our ancestors not only stole antiquities we stole people from their homes, men from their wives and children and women from their mothers and fathers. Only to be shipped half way across the world so that we could work these stolen people to death for us. These people you're telling to go home built our infrastructure back in the day and their ancestors built the architecture of our countries that the world marvel at. Now in my book that makes them more worthy to be here than say me whose ancestry is from Ireland but nobody tells me to go home even though my roots aren't as deep as many people of colour. Why's that? Because I'm white so people think I belong her. Well I'm not a ginge so sadly I'm not of this isle. Can you truly say you are?? And if you're a white American why not only did your ancestors build your country off the back of slaves they also killed most of the native population. So why don't those white pieces of shit....wait for it....GO BACK HOME?

 

[Arnar]

These people you're telling to go home built our infrastructure back in the

You're likening blacks to mules. They built because they were made to build by their white masters

 

[StevieNixs]

You can always....wait for it....GO BACK HOME!!!!

I did not write this article - but what a horrid individual you are - better suited to the Stormfront website. Is that why are you on the SS website?So full of hatred towards non white people that you blame them for your predicament? I am surprised you have not been banned given the hatred you have also spouted against Jewish and other people. Yes I have read your posts and the thumbs up from "fans" of your comments. You are not even a tiny bit ashamed of your racism. You relish in it.
These are just SOME of the sum of your works

Where is home for a non-white UK citizen?

Bet he does not tell white Australians, New Zealanders, South Africans, Canadians and Americans the same thing. Horrid person who really taints this site. How is his rhetoric allowed - I thought this site was supposed to welcome all people and stop this sort of thing?

 

[ClairyFairy]

You're likening blacks to mules. They built because they were made to build by their white masters

And mules do the work because they want to? Mules were treated better than the black people. Slaves were cheaper and easier to come by so what did it natter working them to death on the job. If you're going to say something at least engage your braincell

by their white masters

THE WHITES?

 

[hʚll]

reading this thread makes me so angry and sad . it hurts, the suffering we inflict each other.
i think all life should die. only that could bring us closer to an idea of "fairness"

 

[RedEther]

I recall reading about a study in which it was concluded that African Americans of low socioeconomic status are capable of overcoming the lack of quality tuition and education and achieving success in the workplace, but then they tend to experience so much burnout that they often have major health problems in their 30s and 40s. The conclusion was that they seem to be better off accepting that they are set up to fail.

It's also worth noting that autism could be a much bigger barrier than colour, given that it afflicts people of all ethnicities. But having a combination of factors definitely makes it ridiculously hard to live any sort of healthy life.

It shouldn't take a study to show that, "Yes black people can live just like us if they also had basic equal rights!"
But I guess people need math to see that just saying "fuck it" is better for your health

 

[lv-gras]

You can always....wait for it....GO BACK HOME!!!!

w t f

that's a pretty fucked up thing to bring onto her thread. op, wishing you the best.

 

[motel rooms]

Most came from the Caribbean or Africa.

All UK citizens belong in the UK, no matter what color their skin is. The UK is not Nazi Germany. Are you saying that African & Latin American US citizens don't belong in the US, that they all need to go back home to Africa & Latin America? Your ancestors came from somewhere in Europe, does that mean you need to go back home too?

Re the Star of David, I carry one in my wallet. My late wife was Jewish,it was hers. I noted the star on that poor suicide girl out of sympathy, as it reminded me of my life.

You're probably shamelessly lying about your wife to make yourself look like a victim. You did not note the Star of David out of sympathy, you are definitely an anti-Semite (& a racist):

America is a insane POS! We have a drooling child molester as pretend president,a dumb whore as VP,a rotten filthy corrupt old mafia hag S speaker. The govt is at war with the American people. We have this shit critical race theory shoved down our throats,crime increasing,housing going the fuck up,up,up,more third world invaders with their hands out,more stupid wars coming,Biden's top ten cabinet picks all speak Hebrew, don't know if this vax is to help us or kill us.

( https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/ctb-deserting-your-countrymen.71046/ )

I am not a fan of the Democrats, they are hypocrites & the lesser of two evils, but why is Kamala Harris a dumb whore? Because the "person" you believe is still the President called her that & she's not white? Should she go back home too?

But yes,I hate immigration. It is the destruction of our nations.

Your nation was built on immigration, you willingly ignorant bigot.

And,yes,you are a dude. J/k you are surely a woman! Not two brain cells to rub together.

Yes, please add misogyny to the list