Discussion How bad is your situation?

[telemark05]

I wanna hear people who have it worse than me and how it's like. I know there are people here that are just dealing with having nothing and I wanna hear how it's like. I also want to be reminded and be grateful for what I have. Please share your stories :)

 

[Kiwi’sSub5]

I'm not in a bad situation honestly, I mean I live in a beautiful country, I have a family that loves me, friends, let's say I don't lack anything. despite this I want to kill myself, I hate myself deeply, both aesthetically and character-wise, I feel such a deep hatred towards myself that I struggle to see myself in the mirror, every now and then when I think that I am actually myself I feel bad. I just want to die, my life seen from the outside may seem like a beautiful life, but lived in first person it is a nightmare, I can't take it anymore

 

[DivineSpark]

My situation is kinda unique. I cannot really talk about it without being branded as crazy, but I dont think it is wise to compare yourself to others. Everyone got their own struggle and problems.

 

[Unbearable Mr. Bear]

Eh, I'm alright, despite living in a slum on a 3rd world country. We make do with a lot of makeshift and self thaught stuff.

 

[gonesoon!]

I put myself in this situation. I was suicidal years ago and i still am. I don't think it will ever go anywhere. My family provides everything for me so I can't complain about that part. I just know I'll never be able to make it up to them. I need the courage to finally die.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's always very bad, no matter what it'll always be so terrible and dreadful to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake and I find it so unbearable how a human can suffer for so long just to be tortured in agony from age, I really do always suffer so much as a result of this existence and I just find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all causing all this harm and suffering as a result with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

I always suffer so much from being trapped in this horrific anti-suicide world where I cannot just have the option to die painlessly in an guaranteed way with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what instead, I just wish I never suffered more than anything, as long as I exist I'll only hope for non-existence, only non-existence is positive for me and is just all that can bring me the peace and relief I search for.

 

[karakoltriste]

I have various traumas: family abuse, bullying, rape, domestic violence... and well right now I have no money (only that of my partner which is not much) because I can't work because the emotional and physical pain incapacitates me, I hate the place where I live, I hate myself, I hate capitalism, I have 3 pending trials for my climate activism (once I met Greta Thunberg lol) and I could end up in jail. It's a summary, there's more.

 

[LeavingEarly]

$700 left then homeless. Gf stabbed me last week could go to jail 1-10 years... bought charcoal grill today for CO CTB

 

[SuicideKitty]

Literally. Homeless.

 

[JohnnySack]

i have family and friends that love me, so i am very fortunate in that aspect. but death really does feel like a release from all the pressures of being alive, i will welcome it when the time comes.

 

[ForsakenEcho]

I wouldn't say my situation is bad… but it's been a few years now where I just can't seem to stop feeling sad most of the time.

It bothers me sometimes — especially when I stop and think that I should be grateful for where I am in life… but I just can't shake this constant feeling of sadness, of being not enough, and incapable.

 

[LeavingEarly]

Literally. Homeless.

Been there it is horrible. Will be back if CO charcoal doesn't work

 

[mourningyesterday]

i have multiple health conditions, the worse one visual snow syndrome. i haven't watched tv or played a video game in 2 years. left the house a handful of timea during the day in that time too because it causes horrible sensitivty to light and gives you lsd type visuals.

 

[darksouls]

my health is very poor
my life consists only of pain
if my health worsens
I will be forced to ctb

 

[StupidCat]

I'm poor and retarded.

 

[Pluto]

 

[SuicideKitty]

Been there it is horrible. Will be back if CO charcoal doesn't work

Yep. And I have no money. If I'm gonna miss my last opportunity I will pour my SN into water from sink.
Consider SN homeless-friendly method because all you need is starving lol

 

[yowai]

I'm living with my parents and get disability check and have no job or real life friends, basically I'm a shut in since I started being homeschooled at 12 and maybe some people would be jealous of not having to go to work to survive and having this much free time but it's only making me worse. I'm autistic and a drug addict and had depression for a very long time, what's bad about my situation is me being unable to deal with my brain and get help or motivation to change radically. I've been like this for so long I feel like Id never be able to survive and function on my own like other normal people

 

[Alexandra0]

I am very sick. My illness drives me crazy, it causes me physical suffering, there are a couple of other reasons why I just can't stay in this world any longer

 

[dontletthembribeyou]

It's weird, because on paper, my life is enviable. I live in a developed country, my family is not that bad, I have a loving partner, a few friends, a decent financial safety net, and there are no immediate threats to my safety. I think that's why a lot of people couldn't sympathize with me when I used to be more open about being suicidal. It's just that I've always been too weak and defective to handle life, even with all the privileges I have. It's even worse now that I have chronic pain and decades' worth of shameful experiences. I'm also very worried about the future because pretty soon my family will stop supporting me financially and I'm too sick to work full time