Discussion Hospital visits

[metothemoon]

Have you eve visited the hospital after SH or an attempt? How many times? And why?

I have never and it makes me feel less valid. As if it should get worse before I deserve help.
I always somehow know how to fix myself. After selfharming I always manage to stop the bleeding, can apply pressure dressing etc… After a SA, I just pretend nothing happened and go on with life, without telling anyone.

Some part of me wants the help, but I just feel like people think I am an attention seeker and that's not what I want…

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Do you know why your SH/attempt? That is the key to the answer if you intend to stop it. If not it's also your own choice.

You're not and attention seeker but I would say you have some hope left - but what is it? Do you have an idea that could change it but it's unattainable? What must change?

You don't have to answer in public if you don't want to. But imo that's the key so a possible solution.

 

[NonEssential]

Nah, I want to make sure my first attempt would be my last too. I've woken up a couple times in an ambulance because of seizures though.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Nah, I want to make sure my first attempt would be my last too. I've woken up a couple times in an ambulance because of seizures though.

Exactly. A 100% serious attempt is the first and last attempt everything else would only cause more personal suffering let alone the shame of failing - that's my opinion.

But there's that - failing is just natural bc dying upon request is such a difficult task.

 

[bananaolympus]

I busted my legs and jaw by jumping, my jaw and femurs took the most damage, bedbound/wheelchair for over more than 3 years in that time frame lots of hospital visits and ambulance rides i lost count and oh boy a lot of doctors and stretcher bearers wanted to know how i fell the only one who didn't ask that was the oral surgeon, i really wanted to tell them it was a suicide attempt to see their reactions but a lawyer told me to always say it was an accident and i don't remember any details if they asked me for more because of the health insurance will use that information to not pay to things that haven't nothing to do with my attempt

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

Feeling less valid... I really relate to that here. I've never even been to a therapist or anything and I feel guilty being on this site. If and when I go, it will be totally unexpected and hopefully will look like an accident or natural causes.

 

[kagebunshin]

I've been inpatient gen psych for fifteen months since failing a suicide attempt last year at age 29. Before that, I had never been in hospital despite being severely depressed all my life. If I had have died last year, I would never have gotten hospital/ward care. It doesn't make your suffering any less valid.