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wren-briar

wrenbriar.gitlab.io
Jul 1, 2024
223
Hello how can I talk with someone?

fwiw: I'm hopefully going to bed momentarily, and more hopefully will get a solid 8 hrs of consecutive sleep (😆 that's absurdly unlikely)

But I would stronhly suggest you start a new thread, including any details you're comfortable sharing. E.g. you're having a crappy day because..., you're thinking about catching the bus because..., you've "survived"/" failed to CTB" and now you ....
 
sugarb

sugarb

thief of silent dreams
Jun 14, 2024
794
It's been bleh to meg. Maybe 4-5/10. There was a 6-7/10 moment by the lake with the wind but it was just a moment

6.5 - Watched 4-5 episodes of House, then browsed this site. I'm on a day pass from the psych ward.
 
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wren-briar

wrenbriar.gitlab.io
Jul 1, 2024
223
It's been a relatively good day, but I'm still counting down the days until I CTB, so ultimately still a 10.
 
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pandorasactor

pandorasactor

dead inside
Sep 23, 2024
128
I'd say a 5 it a 6. Like I feel worthlessness, suicidal, and feeling exhausted, but thus is one of my better days. My better days meaning that I don't attempt to get me rope and hang myself to get to the point of passing out (ig you can call that self harming??)

I do find my self having mood swings often and I'm currently on the high end of the curve, so that's why I feel a 6.
 
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Aura

Aura

Member
Mar 22, 2023
38
8, Another day where I brought myself further down. Similar to others but every time I deny myself the chance for happiness out of fear it hurts more.
 
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thatsall

thatsall

carys
Mar 18, 2024
9
10. got doxxed and exposed to my parents from people i had never done anything to. i even told them i was ending my life when they were taunting me and they still went ahead with it. i was bawling my eyes out in cabelas asking for bullets for my gun so i could shoot myself. worst fucking day of my life.
 
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NoPoint2Life

NoPoint2Life

Why is this so hard?
Aug 31, 2024
872
10. got doxxed and exposed to my parents from people i had never done anything to. i even told them i was ending my life when they were taunting me and they still went ahead with it. i was bawling my eyes out in cabelas asking for bullets for my gun so i could shoot myself. worst fucking day of my life.
Omg I am so sorry. How common is it to be doxxed here? I am always afraid.
 
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Dai

Member
Aug 15, 2024
58
I have covid on top of severe mental issues. Can't stop coughing, sore throat, nauseous, headache, fatigued, can't sleep. Existence truly is meaningless hell filled with unnecessary suffering.
 
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wristcutangel

wristcutangel

What value is there to a life that wants to end?
Jul 5, 2023
167
a solid 10 and the day just started.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,795
My day barely started but, so far, I'd actually give it a 3. I got lucky today as my mum didn't wake me up super early in the morning meaning that I finally got proper sleep. This is only the start though and my day will quickly go to a 10
 
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justkatie

Member
Aug 25, 2024
85
Today has been fine actually. I only have minimal pain and I feel slightly on the positive side for the first time in a long time.
 
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memoriesofyesterday

memoriesofyesterday

Member
Sep 24, 2024
94
I cried in the shower and on the toilet.

But I do everyday. And it is embarrassing.

I live in the states and did watch the VP debate and since I like politics that kind of took me away for a bit.
 
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wren-briar

wrenbriar.gitlab.io
Jul 1, 2024
223
I live in the states and did watch the VP debate and since I like politics that kind of took me away for a bit.

I always felt obligated to stay up to date with politics, but since being made actively suicidal, I no longer feel that obligation. So, I didn't even know there was a debate, but am grateful not to have watched it. (Such things always reminded me of how shitty this world is and how little I felt I could do to affect positive change in that particular part of our current hell.)
 
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ebg

ebg

LOVE !
Sep 30, 2024
134
3 -- I made great progress today towards preparing for CBT. I found DMC yesterday, rented a post office box today and then ordered 200g of SN. Also I got my psychiatrist to prescribe me Olanzapine.
 
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zuksmth

Member
Sep 25, 2024
21
On a scale of 1 to 10 how bad is/was today? I saw a similar thread of 1 to 10 but turned out to be a different question. Anyways, 10 being so bad I just want to be dead like right now and 1 being...well, much better, where you at? My day was a 10, it usually is. Sometimes I get blessed with good days, ig I should be grateful for that, but these past few days wasn't it.
hm 7 ive had worse days almost died this is nothing just a bit more push towards doing it
 
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derpyderpins

derpyderpins

:( as ugly as Sidney Sweeney :(
Sep 19, 2023
2,180
Omg I am so sorry. How common is it to be doxxed here? I am always afraid.
Hopefully not too often, but there will always be bad actors, unfortunately. Humans are imperfect and there's a lot of us, so some outliers are scum. People have been doxxed by users here on other sites where they joke about pushing them towards suicide. I hate that I shared some not-too-personal but still "maybe open a rabbit hole" info that could have gotten into such a person's hands who has done it to others.

But, there are people I do trust, too. I won't let it change my general optimism about people.
 
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L'absent

L'absent

Banned
Aug 18, 2024
1,391
10, it's always 10. Life always sucks and I wish Darwinian biology would become extinct soon.
 
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Thisisme373

Thisisme373

Arcanist
Feb 16, 2019
418
9. I just wanna be dead so bad. I feel trapped.
 
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identity0

identity0

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Sep 25, 2024
388
Half of the day was 10, was crying loud and writhing in bed like a dying animal for hours. Then i took a benzo and it has since dropped down to a 5 maybe. I dont know how to make an overall number since there were two such distinct phases.
10. got doxxed and exposed to my parents from people i had never done anything to. i even told them i was ending my life when they were taunting me and they still went ahead with it. i was bawling my eyes out in cabelas asking for bullets for my gun so i could shoot myself. worst fucking day of my life.
wow, what the fuck, im so sorry.
 
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Warlord's Pulse

Warlord's Pulse

Time to end this endless war
May 27, 2024
241
8
Very uneventful day overall, and failed almost all my obligations
 
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fallingleaves

fallingleaves

Soy un perdedor! I'm a loser, baby.
Nov 21, 2024
226
9. I'm so close to the end of my rope but I'm also tired and mentally not all here.
 
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