How bad is/was today?

[rozeske]

On a scale of 1 to 10 how bad is/was today? I saw a similar thread of 1 to 10 but turned out to be a different question. Anyways, 10 being so bad I just want to be dead like right now and 1 being...well, much better, where you at? My day was a 10, it usually is. Sometimes I get blessed with good days, ig I should be grateful for that, but these past few days wasn't it.

 

[falling_snow]

Pretty mild, 6

 

[StaticCryBabye]

5 over here. Nothing much going on just the same boring and lifeless day as usual.

 

[ebg]

6.5 - Watched 4-5 episodes of House, then browsed this site. I'm on a day pass from the psych ward.

 

[apearl]

7 but im calling my friend tonight so there is a chance it will get better.

 

[mapleboy]

So far it's a 6. Have quite a bit of anxiety and existential dread swirling around but I have plans with my partner this evening so hopefully things will improve.

 

[divinemistress36]

7 no reason why my brain is just an asshole

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing will always be so dreadful to me no matter what, I'm so tired of suffering in this existence, personally I'd never wish for the cruel and torturous burden of having to exist. Simply just being awake causes me to suffer and it's something I only want peace from, I only wish and hope for death to take away all the suffering, I only wish to never exist again, I suffer so much from how I cannot just fall into an eternal dreamless sleep to escape from the torment of existing.

 

[willitpass]

6. I'm in a limbo right now as I wait for the pharmacy to refill my last prescription in my cardiac cocktail. That one little bottle of pills is my exit ticket. If the pharmacy hadn't delayed I would have been gone yesterday. I'm trying to allow the anger to fuel me to get it done as soon as it's ready as opposed to frustrate me to the point of defeat. I haven't done anything today but lay around.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

Absolute 10. I'm stuck in an isolated natural disaster devastated area and I'm running out of supplies and medication.

 

[coolgal82]

no idea tbh it varies throughout the day but every day is like around an 8 atleast idfk. i went for a walk in the morning cus i wanted to die then i became really fucking happy and then i wanted to die again and slept for most of the day

 

[LittleJem]

spent day on phone to suicide hotlines, agitated, suicidal.....then 2 x lorazepam is helping just a little.
a bitch of a day. just torture. Till the 2x

 

[NeoN0va]

Woke up and was a 5, and just 2 hours later instantly turned into a 10. Came back home and somehow turned into 11. Fuck me, haha.

 

[identity0]

9. Chest pains from anxiety. Several pieces of unexpected bad news. Scheduled doctor appointment for later this week

 

[DoneWithThisLife]

7. Can't understand why people I loved can be so cruel & evil. Mega panic attack earlier today so have spent most of the day in bed ruminating.

 

[Username1359751]

10. Always a 10.

 

[imdonewithallofthis]

It's only two pm and I would say it's been a solid 8 so far

 

[-nobodyknows-]

This morning was really bad; probably a 9 or so. Kind of drained/tired now though, so maybe a 6 I guess

 

[NoHalfMeasures]

Some days better than others, but today's been pretty good, all things considered. 3/10

 

[kunikuzushi]

10. I slept until 4pm because I can't handle being conscious. And now I'm just waiting for another day to be over for no reason. I should be dead.

 

[twolegs]

About a 5. I had a hard time getting out of bed today

 

[Hanaga]

10. There was a time in my life when it was always 1/10, but now almost all of my days are 10/10 filled with anxiety and tears because of one very cruel person

 

[Lexy99]

Hello how can I talk with someone?

 

[CatLove56]

On a scale of 1 to 10 how bad is/was today? I saw a similar thread of 1 to 10 but turned out to be a different question. Anyways, 10 being so bad I just want to be dead like right now and 1 being...well, much better, where you at? My day was a 10, it usually is. Sometimes I get blessed with good days, ig I should be grateful for that, but these past few days wasn't it.

same here my guy. 10 is to nice. I'd say 20. Unbelievable shit I deal with.

 

[iloveloving]

7.

 

[Liamm]

7. Its so difficult to keep up the act of being a happy little human when all i feel is seething rage, constant chronic pain, and all other stuff i gotta deal with. Urgh.

 

[CrazyDiamond04]

10. Today was fucking awful.

 

[Liamm]

10. I slept until 4pm because I can't handle being conscious. And now I'm just waiting for another day to be over for no reason. I should be dead.

I feel that. Sleep is the closest thing to death/ peace.

 

[sunnysidedown]

6.5 - Watched 4-5 episodes of House, then browsed this site. I'm on a day pass from the psych ward.

House M.D? I just started watching that show and I love it. House's pessimistic view towards life is one of the few things that can make me laugh these days

 

[pyx]

6. currently recovering from a cold, which, compounded with my headaches, does slightly worsen my circumstances, if only for the moment. though in terms of the way i live my life, not much has changed. i still bedrot all hours of the day, feeling like an insecure midwit unable to conjure up any articulate, well-formed thought. also i'm sleep-deprived, but i can't breathe very well so i'm forced to stay awake for the moment