How bad is/was today?

[wren-briar]

Hello how can I talk with someone?

fwiw: I'm hopefully going to bed momentarily, and more hopefully will get a solid 8 hrs of consecutive sleep ( that's absurdly unlikely)

But I would stronhly suggest you start a new thread, including any details you're comfortable sharing. E.g. you're having a crappy day because..., you're thinking about catching the bus because..., you've "survived"/" failed to CTB" and now you ....

 

[sugarb]

It's been bleh to meg. Maybe 4-5/10. There was a 6-7/10 moment by the lake with the wind but it was just a moment

6.5 - Watched 4-5 episodes of House, then browsed this site. I'm on a day pass from the psych ward.

 

[wren-briar]

It's been a relatively good day, but I'm still counting down the days until I CTB, so ultimately still a 10.

 

[pandorasactor]

I'd say a 5 it a 6. Like I feel worthlessness, suicidal, and feeling exhausted, but thus is one of my better days. My better days meaning that I don't attempt to get me rope and hang myself to get to the point of passing out (ig you can call that self harming??)

I do find my self having mood swings often and I'm currently on the high end of the curve, so that's why I feel a 6.

 

[Aura]

8, Another day where I brought myself further down. Similar to others but every time I deny myself the chance for happiness out of fear it hurts more.

 

[girlversuswar]

10. got doxxed and exposed to my parents from people i had never done anything to. i even told them i was ending my life when they were taunting me and they still went ahead with it. i was bawling my eyes out in cabelas asking for bullets for my gun so i could shoot myself. worst fucking day of my life.

 

[NoPoint2Life]

10. got doxxed and exposed to my parents from people i had never done anything to. i even told them i was ending my life when they were taunting me and they still went ahead with it. i was bawling my eyes out in cabelas asking for bullets for my gun so i could shoot myself. worst fucking day of my life.

Omg I am so sorry. How common is it to be doxxed here? I am always afraid.

 

[Final_Freedom]

8/10

 

[Dai]

I have covid on top of severe mental issues. Can't stop coughing, sore throat, nauseous, headache, fatigued, can't sleep. Existence truly is meaningless hell filled with unnecessary suffering.

 

[wristcutangel]

a solid 10 and the day just started.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

My day barely started but, so far, I'd actually give it a 3. I got lucky today as my mum didn't wake me up super early in the morning meaning that I finally got proper sleep. This is only the start though and my day will quickly go to a 10

 

[justkatie]

Today has been fine actually. I only have minimal pain and I feel slightly on the positive side for the first time in a long time.

 

[memoriesofyesterday]

I cried in the shower and on the toilet.

But I do everyday. And it is embarrassing.

I live in the states and did watch the VP debate and since I like politics that kind of took me away for a bit.

 

[wren-briar]

I live in the states and did watch the VP debate and since I like politics that kind of took me away for a bit.

I always felt obligated to stay up to date with politics, but since being made actively suicidal, I no longer feel that obligation. So, I didn't even know there was a debate, but am grateful not to have watched it. (Such things always reminded me of how shitty this world is and how little I felt I could do to affect positive change in that particular part of our current hell.)

 

[ebg]

3 -- I made great progress today towards preparing for CBT. I found DMC yesterday, rented a post office box today and then ordered 200g of SN. Also I got my psychiatrist to prescribe me Olanzapine.

 

[zuksmth]

On a scale of 1 to 10 how bad is/was today? I saw a similar thread of 1 to 10 but turned out to be a different question. Anyways, 10 being so bad I just want to be dead like right now and 1 being...well, much better, where you at? My day was a 10, it usually is. Sometimes I get blessed with good days, ig I should be grateful for that, but these past few days wasn't it.

hm 7 ive had worse days almost died this is nothing just a bit more push towards doing it

 

[derpyderpins]

Omg I am so sorry. How common is it to be doxxed here? I am always afraid.

Hopefully not too often, but there will always be bad actors, unfortunately. Humans are imperfect and there's a lot of us, so some outliers are scum. People have been doxxed by users here on other sites where they joke about pushing them towards suicide. I hate that I shared some not-too-personal but still "maybe open a rabbit hole" info that could have gotten into such a person's hands who has done it to others.

But, there are people I do trust, too. I won't let it change my general optimism about people.

 

[L'absent]

10, it's always 10. Life always sucks and I wish Darwinian biology would become extinct soon.

 

[Thisisme373]

9. I just wanna be dead so bad. I feel trapped.

 

[alienfreak]

Half of the day was 10, was crying loud and writhing in bed like a dying animal for hours. Then i took a benzo and it has since dropped down to a 5 maybe. I dont know how to make an overall number since there were two such distinct phases.

10. got doxxed and exposed to my parents from people i had never done anything to. i even told them i was ending my life when they were taunting me and they still went ahead with it. i was bawling my eyes out in cabelas asking for bullets for my gun so i could shoot myself. worst fucking day of my life.

wow, what the fuck, im so sorry.

 

[Warlord's Pulse]

8
Very uneventful day overall, and failed almost all my obligations

 

[fallingleaves]

9. I'm so close to the end of my rope but I'm also tired and mentally not all here.