how bad do you want to ctb? what’s keeping you from doing it?

[prettynoose]

i just have to wait until i can get a gun because i'm a coward and all these other options seem scary. and also i've heard that maybe the world doesn't end when u turn a certain age so maybe i'll be okay. idk. i also wanna try some drugs and not be sober so shrug. just waiting to be older i guess

 

[Catch-22]

I don't have the supplies I need or I would be gone already. I think that is the issue with a lot of us.

 

[Callie102121]

I think I'm around 80%. I can't think of anyone who's genuinely better off because I'm still alive.

What's stopped me is fear:
- What if I mess up and die in drawn-out agony?
- I'm already going blind. What if I mess up and add another disability on top of that?
- I'm somewhere between agnostic and atheist. What if I'm wrong and there's a hell?

I'm also trying to figure out how. Ideally I'd like it to look like an accident… but I've yet to find a peaceful, certain method that achieves that.