how are you? really?

[sorrytosay]

tell me about yourself, stranger.

 

[enough of this]

tell me about yourself, stranger.

I'm really unwell - more mentally than physically. Although, my physical struggles are painful, but not life threatening. Only life quality threatening. The physical and mental pain is certainly enough to die for.

 

[sorrytosay]

I'm really unwell - more mentally than physically. Although, my physical struggles are painful, but not life threatening. Only life quality threatening. The physical and mental pain is certainly enough to die for.

i get that, really. this place makes me feel less alone, though. i hope things can look up, i know thats not what anyone wants to hear but i really really hope the best for you. stranger to stranger

 

[Mxverick]

I'm good

 

[sorrytosay]

I'm good

i'm so happy to hear

 

[Square251]

Well I'm sick pretty badly right now but it's fine. I tend to take physical damage as a joke unlike psychological damage. I've had like 2 legit near death experiences where I was very lucky to be alive and I just found it hilarious. Mentally though? Excruciating loneliness is a pain ngl.

 

[Nirami]

Hey, I'm feeling really stressed right now. Actually, I've been feeling like this for the past 2 weeks. All. The. Fucking. Time. I have this knot in my stomach that just doesn't seem to go away. Recently I found out that my current boyfriend has been lying to me for almost 1 year. He told me that he lost feelings towards me, but he didn't want to upset me so he just lied about loving me. I love him so much so it was so so soo painful for me. After many talks we had, we're still together cuz after all, he still likes (oh my fucking god it hurts to even say it) me. I'm so anxious all the time when we're together (we work together, but we live separately, since I still live with my parents). I don't know how long I will be able to live with this.

 

[Celica45]

I'm okay enough to refuse to ctb but not okay enough to function properly. I'm just tried and sad most the day, and some days are really really hard. My emotions have been all over the place lately, im stressed and anxious, and even the smallest of things can push me over the edge and make me start crying.

 

[Ambivalent1]

I've suffered more than Jesus did.

 

[sorrytosay]

Hey, I'm feeling really stressed right now. Actually, I've been feeling like this for the past 2 weeks. All. The. Fucking. Time. I have this knot in my stomach that just doesn't seem to go away. Recently I found out that my current boyfriend has been lying to me for almost 1 year. He told me that he lost feelings towards me, but he didn't want to upset me so he just lied about loving me. I love him so much so it was so so soo painful for me. After many talks we had, we're still together cuz after all, he still likes (oh my fucking god it hurts to even say it) me. I'm so anxious all the time when we're together (we work together, but we live separately, since I still live with my parents). I don't know how long I will be able to live with this.

i get it, i've been through the same. do you want my opinion?

I'm okay enough to refuse to ctb but not okay enough to function properly. I'm just tried and sad most the day, and some days are really really hard. My emotions have been all over the place lately, im stressed and anxious, and even the smallest of things can push me over the edge and make me start crying.

i wish i could give you a big hug. you sound like you need it, poor thing

Well I'm sick pretty badly right now but it's fine. I tend to take physical damage as a joke unlike psychological damage. I've had like 2 legit near death experiences where I was very lucky to be alive and I just found it hilarious. Mentally though? Excruciating loneliness is a pain ngl.

im always here to talk, i know it's not really the same as really being there but i really enjoy hanging out and just talking. it helps.

I've suffered more than Jesus did.

youve lived to tell about it. i'm proud of you, stranger.

 

[F&Inside]

Hello stranger.
Well, I feel apathy towards myself. But I still have strong feelings towards others.
And how are you?

 

[BornByGhosts]

mixed bag really, happy about some things, sad about other things, still would rather not exist but hey say levee

 

[Nirami]

i get it, i've been through the same. do you want my opinion?

Yes please, that would be helpful..

 

[enough of this]

i get that, really. this place makes me feel less alone, though. i hope things can look up, i know thats not what anyone wants to hear but i really really hope the best for you. stranger to stranger

Thank you. I hope the best for you, as well.

 

[Amidaa]

Hehe, how long has it been that i have heard those words "are you oke ? like really ?" i don't really know how i have been feeling, really rought and tired of everything i guess. hope you been doing fine too @sorrytosay

 

[777cave]

I'm really unwell - more mentally than physically. Although, my physical struggles are painful, but not life threatening. Only life quality threatening. The physical and mental pain is certainly enough to die for.

Sorry. I'm right there with you. Not sure how I'll make it through today, the next hour.

 

[ManicNarcissus]

bouncing between mania and hypomania for almost 2 weeks? over 2 weeks? not really sure at this point.
regardless, i'd say i'm having a pretty okay time atm

 

[enough of this]

Sorry. I'm right there with you. Not sure how I'll make it through today, the next hour.

I'm sorry that's what's going on with you. I hope you'll find a way to survive the day. Unless, of course, you really are looking for a way out of this painful existence. In either case, I wish you the peace and relief you're looking for.

 

[777cave]

I'm sorry that's what's going on with you. I hope you'll find a way to survive the day. Unless, of course, you really are looking for a way out of this painful existence. In either case, I wish you the peace and relief you're looking for.

TY

 

[enough of this]

TY

YW

 

[Teleftaía Anapnoí]

I'm very bad, depressive crisis. I can't eat, at least I'm sleeping. Too bad it's too much, i slept 16 hours today.

 

[LSDXMT]

I think I am disgusting and unlikeable.

 

[themisfell]

drunk atm and i really wish i wasn't. friend fell asleep and i'm alone

 

[777cave]

I'm very bad, depressive crisis. I can't eat, at least I'm sleeping. Too bad it's too much, i slept 16 hours today.

Hugs. Hope your sleep is peaceful.

I think I am disgusting and unlikeable.

I'm sorry you feel this way. Wishing you peace.

 

[something_feels]

I don't really know actually. I feel like I don't know who I am anymore. I don't feel like CTB much anymore but I'm still not right. I don't really look at myself in the mirror as it was a coping-mechanism so I would force myself to not worry about what I looked like. It actually worked but now I don't know who I am anymore. I feel like I need to have multiple identities so I can live a normal life. I feel like I already screwed up before my career started and I can't make things right. I'm trying to stop any more screw ups by changing my personality (basically how I speak to people, especially my parents) but I just can't. It's slow progress, but sometimes I wonder when I can start thinking before I speak more. I have so many different persona's and personalities now that I'm just so overwhelmed. But things are starting to look up. I sh occasionally but I think things will work out eventually. I still fall into a depressive state once and while when I trigger myself accidentally or something, and it takes me a few days/weeks to get out of it. But hey, I'm still here, and a lot of struggling internet strangers are too. Love y'all. Take care.

 

[tora]

I'm not doing well :( I feel trapped in my current situation and the stress of my job and my financial issues is triggering some really bad BPD mood swings. I'm constantly switching between being ready to CTB to being terrified of it and wanting to stay alive. I'm just so overwhelmed with stress and anxiety and I wish I could just feel okay again.

 

[Artictart]

I've been really anxious, sad and out of it. Currently looking for a job but having no luck. I have almost no one to talk to right now so i feel alone and ive stayed up the past couple nights crying about past trauma. Everytime i close my eyes and try to clear my head old memories play on repeat. I was doing good for myself for a while so being down again is making me feel so guilty and anxious

 

[woh6]

I'm really worried one of my friends on sasu ctb'd

 

[Night_Crew]

I'm not doing too well. I distract myself where I can, via any means possible. Every few hours a sense of realisation, dread and hatred of myself kicks in. It has been like this for a few years now and I'm tired.

 

[stillunemployed]

posting in this thread and thinking about it