How are you really doing? Where on the Emmengard Suicide Scale are you?

[NZkiwi]

credit to user @Gild-Holm-'Ur for mentioning it on another thread

I guess we are all here cause we are a little suicidal, some want to recover, others want to ctb and everything im between.

Its hard to know how "suicidal" you are, sometimes you feel like a fraud.

On this scale, I was a 9/10 last week. ie started buying what i need

This week I am a 8/10 - im engaging with the public health menthal health so i we have agreed that I would not buy sn/straps/etc whats needed for me to kill myself. Not going to pickup what I have ordered. Daily phonecalls/messages and weekly appointments for now. Ergo im in the real world and not locked in a psych ward.

Curious to how SaSu is feeling.

As to not overload the group recovery thread ive posted here for a change

@ConfusedClouds
@Cloud Busting
@UltraAlter
@StarsAbove
@LRkin
@Meretlein
@never mind me
@ladybird jones drew
@ColorlessTrees

No obligation to reply
Have lovely week, no matter where you are on this

Source: https://emmengard.com/2019/05/07/suicide-scale/

 

[Lost in a Dream]

It's honestly surprising to me that lately I have been at a 4-5 on this scale, considering how many times I've been at a 9 or 10 in the past... I still have days where I get up to a 6 sometimes, but it isn't every day, and it probably only happens on occasion.

 

[LRkin]

Um... 6, I guess

 

[Set Real Goul]

I'd say around 4–5 for now, but if my sleep problems don't get any better by spring, I'll probably jump up to a 10

 

[homunculi]

i'd say 5 or 6 the past couple of days

 

[oilsaniok]

credit to user @Gild-Holm-'Ur for mentioning it on another thread

I guess we are all here cause we are a little suicidal, some want to recover, others want to ctb and everything im between.

Its hard to know how "suicidal" you are, sometimes you feel like a fraud.

On this scale, I was a 9/10 last week. ie started buying what i need

This week I am a 8/10 - im engaging with the public health menthal health so i we have agreed that I would not buy sn/straps/etc whats needed for me to kill myself. Not going to pickup what I have ordered. Daily phonecalls/messages and weekly appointments for now. Ergo im in the real world and not locked in a psych ward.

Curious to how SaSu is feeling.

As to not overload the group recovery thread ive posted here for a change

@ConfusedClouds
@Cloud Busting
@UltraAlter
@StarsAbove
@LRkin
@Meretlein
@never mind me
@ladybird jones drew
@ColorlessTrees

No obligation to reply
Have lovely week, no matter where you are on this

Source: https://emmengard.com/2019/05/07/suicide-scale/

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6.5

 

[t8129]

this scale doesnt really work for me somehow my thoughts dont really get consumed like this anymore

 

[never mind me]

For me this scale doens't fit I think. I don't do risky behaviours even if I am actively planning to end my life and due to SI and a wish to have control over what happens to me I still avoid harm from outside sources even if I am feeling suicidal.
Also I rarely have intrusive thoughts about suicide, but for the most part I actively engage in them.
And I can also be unhappy or stressed without considering suicide. That's where I am at the moment, although I can imagine myself change back to being suicidal, if my health problems get worse again/ don't improve further for a long time. But for now I am hopeful enough to not wish to die.

 

[unluckysadness]

8/10

 

[bagel12]

credit to user @Gild-Holm-'Ur for mentioning it on another thread

I guess we are all here cause we are a little suicidal, some want to recover, others want to ctb and everything im between.

Its hard to know how "suicidal" you are, sometimes you feel like a fraud.

On this scale, I was a 9/10 last week. ie started buying what i need

This week I am a 8/10 - im engaging with the public health menthal health so i we have agreed that I would not buy sn/straps/etc whats needed for me to kill myself. Not going to pickup what I have ordered. Daily phonecalls/messages and weekly appointments for now. Ergo im in the real world and not locked in a psych ward.

Curious to how SaSu is feeling.

As to not overload the group recovery thread ive posted here for a change

@ConfusedClouds
@Cloud Busting
@UltraAlter
@StarsAbove
@LRkin
@Meretlein
@never mind me
@ladybird jones drew
@ColorlessTrees

No obligation to reply
Have lovely week, no matter where you are on this

Source: https://emmengard.com/2019/05/07/suicide-scale/

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this is a helpful scale! it's more approachable and less clinical than typical ctb risk scales.

i have mostly been at 5-6 for the last couple months, with some better days. it is difficult to convince myself to seek help because it doesn't feel serious enough yet to be worth the effort. but it is impacting my life a lot, and i know it'll get worse if i don't seek help soon.

if i was the creator of this scale, one thing i would change is that it assumes the individual will make a plan. but a lot of ctbs are impulsive and unplanned. someone could go from 4 to 10 in a second, without warning signs like reckless behavior or saying goodbyes. this is what i worry about for myself.

@NZkiwi i wish you the best of luck with the mental health professionals

 

[Praestat_Mori]

It's a mix of 2, 3 and 4.
In the last couple of months I rarely had suicidal thoughts.

 

[NZkiwi]

without warning signs like reckless behavior or saying goodbyes. this is what i worry about for myself

when that happened to me they were often "failed" attempts eg. overdose, ending up in ED

I guess I "learned" my lesson and was planning a lot more carefully now (until i started engaging with the public mental health service)

@NZkiwi i wish you the best of luck with the mental health professionals

thank you
they're actually great people, and kind
i'm not sure if it will "Fix me" but i'll give it a try