How are you guys able to digest eternal nothingness?

[dreadpirateroberts69]

Our lives are just a tiny blip in a sea of nothingness, like a drop in the ocean or a single second in an entire day. When you think about it this way it starts to feel like that nothingness is everywhere and bleeds into existence. People are born and people die every second of every day, we are so small, our lives are meaningless. So to me death isn't really much more scary than the inherent nature of life

 

[Rational man]

If you look towards the clear night sky , you will see our history, our past. We are children of cosmic dust and we return to dust, carbon based. Earth will implode too one day. Everything will he gone, in the same way we knew nothing of this body before nature intended.

 

[dreadpirateroberts69]

The only solace I have is knowing my best friend is there, in that void somewhere and I just want to see her again.

Thinking about all the people I know who have died helps me lot too. I've never lost anyone I was really close with, but a handful of people I liked and admired have died suddenly and unexpectedly. Idk I just like the idea of meeting them in the void

 

[Nolan96]

It's not the nothingness which scares me so much as final failure, end of the road of all opportunities, the assured pain and instability for other people which would follow my death.

But nothingness itself sounds not that bad. Mainly because I'm deeply afraid of anything that extends consciousness like cryogenics, uploading consciousness, or simply Hell. (The former two could easily be made into the latter.) I'd so much rather not exist than any of that.

 

[Rational man]

Thinking about all the people I know who have died helps me lot too. I've never lost anyone I was really close with, but a handful of people I liked and admired have died suddenly and unexpectedly. Idk I just like the idea of meeting them in the void

i look at old film.footage of mainly London and Paris sometimes on YouTube, some films.go back 100 + Years. All of those people are gone, even the children have gone to wherever.

 

[jimmy7754]

It's not good, exciting, or anything to look forward to, it's just better than being alive and feeling like this for the rest of my life.

But there is nothing to forward to?

 

[ColorlessTrees]

The eternal void is the most comforting idea of them all—consciousness is the worst experience in my eyes. It holds potential for insurmountable pain and fleeting pleasure. Even for those who view things differently, if consciousness ceases to be you won't fear, suffer, or even realize you do not exist. That's the appeal; it can't be a mistake if I'm no longer breathing to regret it.

I would believe whatever you want or need to believe, though. Nothing has been proven yet, so I don't see anything wrong with indulging other ideas, however outlandish they may seem.

 

[AnestheticVoid]

It's not the nothingness I have issue with. I became rather addicted to inducing blackouts and unconsciousness. To me it's the best feeling I've ever experienced.

The whole there's more to do after is what is hard for me to understand. Good or bad. I fear it but really it doesn't make any sense unless cruelty is the objective of everything existing.

 

[MIAmartian]

No one (living) truly knows what follows…"relocation", But honestly why fear it! It could be nothingness, it could be greatness or it could be not so greatness and we won't really know until we really know. We're all different in a million one ways except one (and maybe a few more if you wanna go there haha but for the sake of time let's not) that is we all "relocate" at one point or another. It's unavoidable so weather or not we digest it, it's going to happen. If you couldn't already tell I don't think of it as "eternal nothingness" I think of it as merely a relocation from here to there,A point A to point B and wherever or whatever "there" may be is wherever or whatever "there" may be and digesting it or not digesting it isn't going to change anything. I never really thought about it as much as I have now that my N is on its way but that's how I've personally been digesting it and I'll say regardless of the occasional jitters I'm excited to find out!

 

[hopelessgirl]

How are you not scared though? It has to be nothing. There truly isn't anything, we are a complex life form that has emotions that hopes for more but it isn't true. How do you guys come to terms with the forever end? I just can't accept this is it and it was

I cannot accept it

Give yourself time.

 

[Depressed Cat]

I don't have to digest eternal nothingness, I hope I get digested by it!

Eternal nothingness cannot be described in mere words, it's pure bliss that has to be experienced, it's nirvana or the ultimate state of being, a state where one experiences no sorrows or sufferings, a state where one is a part of the universe and the universe is a part of one at the same time. ❤

 

[jimmy7754]

Since we cannot be conscious of nothing.. I just look forward to that last exhale.. and my brains last moment of trying to preserve itself.. all that bullshit and torture gone in an instant.. Death could be the best kept secret.

 

[grungeCat]

I cannot digest eternal nothingness, it's something that is killing my sanity and makes me even stupider than I am. Oh my fucking non-existing god, I really hate how stupid I am and that's my biggest complex. I just wasn't born with normal intelligence and I constantly make stupid mistakes that I have to handle myself. I'm so fucking dumb and I really don't understand many things. If there was a God who loves every human then how the fuck would he (she? it? it doesn't matter, this fucking thing doesn't surely exist anyways) be so cruel to groundlessly punish a single person with this stupidity? Why have I deserved to be stupid since I was born?

 

[Ada]

I don't see it as you do, I don't see nothingness. I see a life that lays behind me. It is a tragic life, yet beautiful, and I want it to end that way.

 

[mytime]

I don't believe in an afterlife, but when I do decide to CTB, I'll be thinking of my grandma who passed away three years ago. I'll be wanting to see her again, and I'll be telling myself that I can do that soon. I think practically speaking, all you have to do is know that nothingness is and will be, and then soothe yourself in the moment.

 

[Darkover]

Nothing is easy, nothing is simple. I spent billions of years not existing without a care in the world. How do you deal with existing? a forced existence is nothing i want any part of should be free to choose when and how i exist instead of being bought alive into a dead universe

 

[hopelessgirl]

I'm pretty sure it's just a burst of chemicals firing.. we die just like rats..

https://www.npr.org/sections/health...rats-yield-clues-about-near-death-experiences

Spite on my rage I'm still just a rat in a cage..

Rats and children follow me out of town..

This makes me kind of not want to kill myself. Or at least makes me more scared of it. The momentary increase in electrical activity in the brain when the rats die... That last blip of my brain. It will probably be like a DMT trip or something... And although I'm fine with trips, they can be both good and bad. And I'm afraid that my mind will conspire against me if I die not in peace. What will my death experience be like? What will I meet during that blip. But would it be different if my death was of natural causes? Not certain that would be the case neither. Maybe if I'm really at peace with my suicide, maybe then it would be a good last blip. Maybe if I force myself to live till I'm 80 it will be a bad blip, because I'd have to suffer for so many years... Becoming more and more bitter and dead inside.

 

[royFF911]

I've been dead before, going in to cardiac arrest during a severe illness a few years ago. They did CPR on me for over 20 minutes. I actually remember hearing the cardiac monitor go "flatline." It felt like black curtains being pulled across my vision from the sides and sound faded out like somebody turning down the volume on the TV. After that there was nothing. No bright light at the end of a tunnel, no floating over my body, no dead grandparents waiting for me. One second you're there, the next second you're not. I woke up 3 months later with my family surrounding my bed, having been in a coma the entire time.

Do you remember anything from the billions of years of Earth's history before you were born? Of course not. That's what it's like being dead. I know that's hard to comprehend, but when you think of the simplicity of it all it's really not. I know that experience has calmed my nerves for when I decide to depart this life by my own hand.

 

[Lost Magic]

I've been dead before, going in to cardiac arrest during a severe illness a few years ago. They did CPR on me for over 20 minutes. I actually remember hearing the cardiac monitor go "flatline." It felt like black curtains being pulled across my vision from the sides and sound faded out like somebody turning down the volume on the TV. After that there was nothing. No bright light at the end of a tunnel, no floating over my body, no dead grandparents waiting for me. One second you're there, the next second you're not. I woke up 3 months later with my family surrounding my bed, having been in a coma the entire time.

Do you remember anything from the billions of years of Earth's history before you were born? Of course not. That's what it's like being dead. I know that's hard to comprehend, but when you think of the simplicity of it all it's really not. I know that experience has calmed my nerves for when I decide to depart this life by my own hand.

Could be right about that or you might just not remember anything. Not everybody has those near death experiences you know.

 

[jimmy7754]

This makes me kind of not want to kill myself. Or at least makes me more scared of it. The momentary increase in electrical activity in the brain when the rats die... That last blip of my brain. It will probably be like a DMT trip or something... And although I'm fine with trips, they can be both good and bad. And I'm afraid that my mind will conspire against me if I die not in peace. What will my death experience be like? What will I meet during that blip. But would it be different if my death was of natural causes? Not certain that would be the case neither. Maybe if I'm really at peace with my suicide, maybe then it would be a good last blip. Maybe if I force myself to live till I'm 80 it will be a bad blip, because I'd have to suffer for so many years... Becoming more and more bitter and dead inside.

I've worked with Alzheimer's patients and watched them die.. doesn't seem like a good blip. N is the way to go it seems.. just gotta actually do it.

 

[hopelessgirl]

I've worked with Alzheimer's patients and watched them die.. doesn't seem like a good blip. N is the way to go it seems.. just gotta actually do it.

Yeah unfortunately my N won't reach me. I live in Scandinavia. I tried..... I have to go with SN. My only hope is that I'll loose consciousness quite fast.

Not even sure I can kill myself anymore, because I invited my brother to come live with us. And so suddenly, I have this responsibility.. to stay alive. At least for him. And he's struggling as much as me. Or even more. So. And it actually feels alright. To live for him. With him. But if he doesn't come here I don't think I can go on any longer.

 

[jimmy7754]

Yeah unfortunately my N won't reach me. I live in Scandinavia. I tried..... I have to go with SN. My only hope is that I'll loose consciousness quite fast.

Not even sure I can kill myself anymore, because I invited my brother to come live with us. And so suddenly, I have this responsibility.. to stay alive. At least for him. And he's struggling as much as me. Or even more. So. And it actually feels alright. To live for him. With him. But if he doesn't come here I don't think I can go on any longer.

I have 2 beautiful nieces a brother happily married with a nice house and 2 dogs. My mom is having health issues.. I want to live so badly for them but I'm just burnt out from how my life turned out.. too many sports too many injuries too many bad decisions.. I got two degrees and I sabotaged my careers sold stuff and am ready to order N with the money I have left. I'm scared I'll live past the summer this year like this.

 

[Lost Magic]

I have 2 beautiful nieces a brother happily married with a nice house and 2 dogs. My mom is having health issues.. I want to live so badly for them but I'm just burnt out from how my life turned out.. too many sports too many injuries too many bad decisions.. I got two degrees and I sabotaged my careers sold stuff and am ready to order N with the money I have left. I'm scared I'll live past the summer this year like this.

That end part sounds like me as well. I just don't want to live past the summer. I want out of this shithole land of broken dreams.

 

[hopelessgirl]

I have 2 beautiful nieces a brother happily married with a nice house and 2 dogs. My mom is having health issues.. I want to live so badly for them but I'm just burnt out from how my life turned out.. too many sports too many injuries too many bad decisions.. I got two degrees and I sabotaged my careers sold stuff and am ready to order N with the money I have left. I'm scared I'll live past the summer this year like this.

Sabotaged my career as well. And totally overdid sports as well so now I'm just sitting inside the house all the time having no motivation left to do anything physical. So I get you. I hope you get your N.

That end part sounds like me as well. I just don't want to live past the summer. I want out of this shithole land of broken dreams.

Land of broken dreams <3 that's it. Don't know if I have the strength to reinvent myself. To live off of the crumbs of what life used to be. Become a mindfulness guru or something, pretending that the muddy water tastes like wine

 

[Pain In The Ass]

One thing we need to all remember - something I regularly forget when I'm down a CTB rabbit hole, and have to remind myself - is that we are all going to die anyway! Whether it's through CTB, or suddenly in a car crash, or in a care home at 78 of a heart attack or cancer - all humans die! What we're trying to achieve here is nothing unusual or out of the ordinary - it's just at a younger age than you probably thought it would be, but likely no more horrific than the way God had planned for you, and quite possibly less horrific, depending on the method you choose. 100 billion humans have died in the last 200,000 years, and a majority of them were children. The infinite nothingness we may be afraid of, we were all destined to enter anyway, whether it's at 25, 45, or 95, it's the same either way, and the same infinite nothingness that those 100 billion people that came before us have already entered. In the grand scheme of things, what we're planning isn't that big a deal, and is actually the thing that all humans have the most in common with each other. We're all in this together, and nobody gets out alive!

 

[Ashu]

I know I won't feel it or know it but man it's horrible

This is a special way of being afraid
No trick dispels. Religion used to try,
That vast moth-eaten musical brocade
Created to pretend we never die,
And specious stuff that says No rational being
Can fear a thing it will not feel, not seeing
That this is what we fear—no sight, no sound,
No touch or taste or smell, nothing to think with,
Nothing to love or link with,
The anaesthetic from which none come round.

Aubade

Not in remorse —The good not done, the love not given, time Torn off unused—nor wretchedly because An only life can take so long to climb Clear of its wrong beginnings, and may never; But at the total emptiness for ever, The sure extinction that we travel to And shall be lost in always. Religion…

www.poetryfoundation.org

 

[katagiri83]

Land of broken dreams <3 that's it. Don't know if I have the strength to reinvent myself. To live off of the crumbs of what life used to be. Become a mindfulness guru or something, pretending that the muddy water tastes like wine

@hopelessgirl , Yeah… have done the major reinventions part a couple of times already. The last 20 months has seemingly destroyed all vitality to rebuild again, but your humour did make me laugh for a moment there ;)

 

[Musketeer]

Eternal nothingness is also not having a sense of time, if there is no spiritual higher power than i will simply just blink out of existence, unaware of anything including a perception of time forever. I will not be in a black void forever i simply will be in the same state as never being born.

 

[hopelessgirl]

@hopelessgirl , Yeah… have done the major reinventions part a couple of times already. The last 20 months has seemingly destroyed all vitality to rebuild again, but your humour did make me laugh for a moment there ;)

Same here! Done it several times. And like you my vitality is also gone. It feels so strange. I used to be so full of life. Now the "mojo" is just gone. I'm glad I could make you laugh at least

 

[Coffeandamug]

I don't know if it will be eternal darkness, but it is the most probable outcome for me. I find eternal nothingness much, much more bearable (becaus I won't have to bear) than my life, which is a nightmare.