carbon, nitrogen and all the other materials that compose my body will stay here, as Earth is a closed echo-system, at least while it's not destroyed by some star explosion, black hole or other event.
however, the important part for me is that I really want myself to
never be conscious again. being sentient is a torment.
I wanna be inorganic eternally, like the seasons, the wind, the sun or the rain. we can be like they are.
alternatively, I want it to take an enormous amount of time (aeons) for me to be conscious again.
the harsh nature of life is bad, but between all problems, perhaps humanity is one of the biggest of them all, as we are the plague of the Earth, a suffering-spreader virus who lives unnaturally and causes chaos on the whole echo-system.
Eternal nothingness is the best thing imaginable to me , no suffering ever , no extreme pain ever, no torture ever , no problems forever.... Etc none of the other hells like stroke , homelessness , cancer , dementia , old age, lies, scams, injustice, 5000 other things I hate about life and this world. That's what I believe will happen to me after death eternal nothingness, non-existence.
I can't wait. I wish I were never born
Our lives are just a tiny blip in a sea of nothingness, like a drop in the ocean or a single second in an entire day. When you think about it this way it starts to feel like that nothingness is everywhere and bleeds into existence. People are born and people die every second of every day, we are so small, our lives are meaningless. So to me death isn't really much more scary than the inherent nature of life
One thing we need to all remember - something I regularly forget when I'm down a CTB rabbit hole, and have to remind myself - is that we are all going to die anyway! Whether it's through CTB, or suddenly in a car crash, or in a care home at 78 of a heart attack or cancer - all humans die! What we're trying to achieve here is nothing unusual or out of the ordinary - it's just at a younger age than you probably thought it would be, but likely no more horrific than the way God had planned for you, and quite possibly less horrific, depending on the method you choose. 100 billion humans have died in the last 200,000 years, and a majority of them were children. The infinite nothingness we may be afraid of, we were all destined to enter anyway, whether it's at 25, 45, or 95, it's the same either way, and the same infinite nothingness that those 100 billion people that came before us have already entered. In the grand scheme of things, what we're planning isn't that big a deal, and is actually the thing that all humans have the most in common with each other. We're all in this together, and nobody gets out alive!
these three posts quoted above were some of the best I ever read on this website! thank you, people
Preferably I want the oblivion non-existence that was before I was conceived and brought into this life. Just think before your parents made you, you simply did not exist. You didn't get hungry or cold, or angry, or sad you felt nothing because you did not exist. And I genuinely hope that's what happens when you die, you got back to the non existence that you originated from.
non-existence is probably the natural state, whie life is just a temporary excemption. I hope that too. nevertheless, we don't have control about any of these stuff, we're going to die one day, one way or the other. we have zero control over that. the outcome of all our decisions will always be the same.
I wouldn't worry or take anything too serious, being too serious is like being sick unnecessarily.
like is just a joke, although it's a bad one.
I've worked with Alzheimer's patients and watched them die.. doesn't seem like a good blip.
it's horrible. it's ineffable, actually. cognitive decline, dementia and Alzheimer's are horrible, although they're also a small list of diseases and circunstances that can cause a human-being to have a torturous time in life.
life can be pain.
death cannot. if I can't have dignity in the former, I'll choose to have dignity in the latter.
