I am abstinent 16.25-50 years. Completely of touch. I had a sex abuse issue. I never recovered. Why I'm on here. I had others prior but they didn't cause me PTSD or to become psych and imprisoned in my bown body.
I can't even turn on. I'm 100% incapable of it. Just overworked, overworked, overworked, felt nothing, self-harmed in private, couldn't recognize myself.
I used to be a cute young girl. Sortof cute.
Lost track of all of that, an abusive man got stuck inside of my body when that happened. I turned crazy, self-harmed, became a zombie, felt like a robot. had no real emotions, everything became a tennis match of mental abuse. I couldn't be bothered. Shell shocked after that. It wrecked my life :( I didn't know that that could happen. You become jailed in yourself. It really fucking sucks.