Honestly, how much do you cry?

[dhk96]

I think I cry *more easily* than I used to.

Back when I was younger, I was enveloped in so much rage and hatred against the world that my tears were about the unfairness and cruelty of people and life. My anger distracted me from feeling too lonely. Now I just seem to cry at every little thing while feeling bad about everything.

 

[SamK]

every day lately. maybe twice a day

 

[tearsinrain]

I used to be able to cry but too much has been done to me that I became numb and can't cry anymore. That ship has sailed.....

I desperately wish I could cry, just for the feeling of relief/releasing which I can remember happened after crying.

But....too much damage has been done and crying is impossible now.

 

[MEoDP]

Nowadays,bad events that make me cry happy very rarely,thankfully.

Sometimes however,I have dreams that get so emotional that I cry in them.

 

[Duqu]

I never cry for myself (unless I'm like, in a serious crazy-state where everything makes me cry at the drop of a pin like when I was brought to a psych hospital earlier this year and in the intake they were asking questions like "what gender pronouns do you prefer" and I cried because A that place has changed SO MUCH in 12 years holy shit and B they're actually being nice to trans people which we don't get all that often. But mind, I hadn't slept for like a month at that point so everything was haywire in my brain.

I'm a complete empath; when I was inpatient all I had to do was SEE another person crying (IN ANOTHER ROOM WHERE I COULDN'T HEAR THEM) and I'd start crying for pretty much no reason. And I cried the first time my mom came to see me because she was the first person I'd seen in a week that wasn't a complete stranger.

But usually, I don't cry. Except with deaths of other people/animals I know. I'm ridiculous.

 

[Final Escape]

I'm not sure, and often not even conscious about it. It happened the last time I worked. It got to me and as I crash from Adderall I cry sometimes. I know I shouldn't be on it but life sucks either way. I've been off for months at a time but wasn't better off.

 

[Sun Stealer]

At this point I feel like a doll , just a empty vessel carrying out my days waiting for the inevitable.

All the time recently but an emotional cripple

 

[Hunter]

I used to be able to cry but too much has been done to me that I became numb and can't cry anymore. That ship has sailed.....

I desperately wish I could cry, just for the feeling of relief/releasing which I can remember happened after crying.

But....too much damage has been done and crying is impossible now.

Too exhausted huh?

 

[Lara Francis]

I think I have ran out of tears !

 

[Sun Stealer]

I keep thinking I must run out but more seem to come

 

[tearsinrain]

Too exhausted huh?

Definitely.......I've had enough.....medic in a war zone.......seen things I can't unsee ...........lost only child.........lost husband......no family........no money.......no friends (in this foreign country I'm now stuck in, the U.S.).......and so much more.......

 

[Hunter]

Definitely.......I've had enough.....medic in a war zone.......seen things I can't unsee ...........lost only child.........lost husband......no family........no money.......no friends (in this foreign country I'm now stuck in, the U.S.).......and so much more.......

:( horrific. Feel free to pm me anytime. I'm happy to listen though I know it's not much. This life has been unfair to you and so many here.

 

[Lara Francis]

Definitely.......I've had enough.....medic in a war zone.......seen things I can't unsee ...........lost only child.........lost husband......no family........no money.......no friends (in this foreign country I'm now stuck in, the U.S.).......and so much more.......

Sending you a hug

 

[ningaman151]

Used to a lot, but I'm glad to say I keep my (questionably) rational mind nowadays.

 

[RevolutionaryRed]

No, I get frustrated. I stopped crying years ago

 

[tearsinrain]

:( horrific. Feel free to pm me anytime. I'm happy to listen though I know it's not much. This life has been unfair to you and so many here.

Thank you, that means a lot. Have you been in war too? (You don't have to answer that).

Sending you a hug

Thank you:)

 

[Sun Stealer]

Hugs tears in rain

 

[Kev]

I used to cry constantly. Existence simply felt immensely painful. When I woke up, whenever I was alone during the day (and on really bad days even when I'm not alone), and especially during those dark lonely nights. Then I got put on antidepressants and it sometimes feels as if it suppresses my emotions.

Now, I cry myself to sleep probably a little over half of my nights, occasionally in the morning, and rarely in the day.

Being in my bed alone makes me think about how long the spot next to me has been vacant, so basically going to bed or waking up causes me to feel intense loneliness. I've committed to trying to get my life together and just hope I find somebody while keeping suicide as a backup plan, so I've been trying to keep myself busy and productive during the day, which takes my mind off of thinking about my loneliness and insecurities. But at night, when it's just me, my thoughts, and the darkness; that's when my mind goes to its darkest place. It actually kind of helps me sleep because I suffer so much that all I want to do is be unconscious.

 

[Hunter]

Thank you, that means a lot. Have you been in war too? (You don't have to answer that).

No I haven't but I've had other shit happen to me over my lifetime and in the last year that has destroyed me and from which I will never recover from. I'm deeply traumatized and tortured everyday. I know it's never going to stop.

 

[Sun Stealer]

I used to cry constantly. Existence simply felt immensely painful. When I woke up, whenever I was alone during the day (and on really bad days even when I'm not alone), and especially during those dark lonely nights. Then I got put on antidepressants and it sometimes feels as if it suppresses my emotions.

Now, I cry myself to sleep probably a little over half of my nights, occasionally in the morning, and rarely in the day.

Being in my bed alone makes me think about how long the spot next to me has been vacant, so basically going to bed or waking up causes me to feel intense loneliness. I've committed to trying to get my life together and just hope I find somebody while keeping suicide as a backup plan, so I've been trying to keep myself busy and productive during the day, which takes my mind off of thinking about my loneliness and insecurities. But at night, when it's just me, my thoughts, and the darkness; that's when my mind goes to its darkest place. It actually kind of helps me sleep because I suffer so much that all I want to do is be unconscious.

Kev I know how you feeling mate. It's awful. A tip. When you wake at night just log on here. People here for you