Discussion home alone for 2 days!

[savvy]

i am just realizing (the evening before) that i have 2 days at home, all alone. for some reason it didn't occur to me that an opportunity this good could present itself, mostly i think bcs i was so occupied thinking about how i could self harm in these 2 days

i will be testing the ligature strangulation method tomorrow, figuring out what works and doesn't work for me and making sure i can be successful. i'm excited (but also terrified of not being able to figure out this method)!

 

[IHateTheBeach]

Can I hear your story before leave?

 

[3rdworldsadness]

I would do in home alone too. And I love being home alone but I hate when they returns again.

 

[enso]

i am just realizing (the evening before) that i have 2 days at home, all alone. for some reason it didn't occur to me that an opportunity this good could present itself, mostly i think bcs i was so occupied thinking about how i could self harm in these 2 days

i will be testing the ligature strangulation method tomorrow, figuring out what works and doesn't work for me and making sure i can be successful. i'm excited (but also terrified of not being able to figure out this method)!

Hi!

Will it be your first attempt?

If so, just be neat with yourself, you don't have to do something if it will bring you any pain

Why have you chosen this method out of all others?

 

[Widow39]

I feel sorry for you.

Yeah 2 days alone is indeed a "great opportunity" but don't do anything compulsive pressed by time. It must be a well thought decision.

I'm curious about your ligature method as it's considered as a "hard to succeed" method. What type of ligature will you use?

Feel free to pm me if you need to talk.

 

[westernromanpatriot]

sounds like a good opportunity but don't do anything unless you're really sure you want to do it soon, don't forget that there will always be opportunities later :)

 

[savvy]

I feel sorry for you.

Yeah 2 days alone is indeed a "great opportunity" but don't do anything compulsive pressed by time. It must be a well thought decision.

I'm curious about your ligature method as it's considered as a "hard to succeed" method. What type of ligature will you use?

Feel free to pm me if you need to talk.

no need to feel sorry for me!

i've been actively working on figuring this out, trying to see if i can afford to book a hotel room right now, etc. very much an active plan, not something im resorting to because i have this opportunity!

i will know more about the method tomorrow when i spend time figuring it out. i need to reread that post, possibly makes some notes and what not and go from there

 

[IHateTheBeach]

no need to feel sorry for me!

i've been actively working on figuring this out, trying to see if i can afford to book a hotel room right now, etc. very much an active plan, not something im resorting to because i have this opportunity!

i will know more about the method tomorrow when i spend time figuring it out. i need to reread that post, possibly makes some notes and what not and go from there

Good luck buddy on whatever you wish

 

[savvy]

Can I hear your story before leave?

not much of a story really. been mentally ill since a 3rd grade, being "raised" by parents that couldn't get themselves or their relationship in order long enough to give a fuck about their kids. dads a narcissist (diagnosed), mom is just a child in an adults body. i'm 23 and nothing in my life has gotten easier, better or made it worth living. i've been suicidal consistently since i was 14, made a couple attempts but all of them were quite stupid and half assed.

i hope to be done with this world and move on

 

[IHateTheBeach]

not much of a story really. been mentally ill since a 3rd grade, being "raised" by parents that couldn't get themselves or their relationship in order long enough to give a fuck about their kids. dads a narcissist (diagnosed), mom is just a child in an adults body. i'm 23 and nothing in my life has gotten easier, better or made it worth living. i've been suicidal consistently since i was 14, made a couple attempts but all of them were quite stupid and half assed.

i hope to be done with this world and move on

Last line is relatable I too was suicidal since I am 16 but my attempts are half assed. But now onwards I have to take this serious or else I would be experiencing more and more torture in this life.