bussy
“my sin, my soul”
- Mar 30, 2023
- 86
i slit my wrists using a sharp pocket knife deep enough, submerge it under warm water (from what ive heard it helps blood flow and prevents it from clogging) until i bleed out and die
or, i take 30x500mg tablets of paracetamol (not sure if thats enough) and chug it down with a glass of water in hopes of CTB.
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these are the two methods in which im most comfortable with, although i want to reduce the risk of anything going wrong and ensure a higher chance of success
cutting is something ive done several times (the numbing feeling is so addictive), although it is never to the point where im at risk of dying. often the blood races down before drying and clogging up the cut.
my main concern of cutting too deep is that i hit a nerve, lose the ability to function my hand, and somehow not die, but instead now live my already miserable life with a disabled hand.
paracetamol is hard to buy at my age and doesnt help that i look super young, although my mum has been prescribed a pack of it a while ago, roughly containing 30x500mg tablets.
i can also attempt to get more since theyre sold almost everywhere.
although for OD i heard that if it doesnt kill you, there are instead many side effects which i do not want to risk. as well as OD often being prone to have you just vomiting up your pills
or, i take 30x500mg tablets of paracetamol (not sure if thats enough) and chug it down with a glass of water in hopes of CTB.
——
these are the two methods in which im most comfortable with, although i want to reduce the risk of anything going wrong and ensure a higher chance of success
cutting is something ive done several times (the numbing feeling is so addictive), although it is never to the point where im at risk of dying. often the blood races down before drying and clogging up the cut.
my main concern of cutting too deep is that i hit a nerve, lose the ability to function my hand, and somehow not die, but instead now live my already miserable life with a disabled hand.
paracetamol is hard to buy at my age and doesnt help that i look super young, although my mum has been prescribed a pack of it a while ago, roughly containing 30x500mg tablets.
i can also attempt to get more since theyre sold almost everywhere.
although for OD i heard that if it doesnt kill you, there are instead many side effects which i do not want to risk. as well as OD often being prone to have you just vomiting up your pills