Hiding Sanctioned Suicide; have you ever been found out, or maybe... wanted to be?

[NeverHungry]

I'm currently browsing, sitting directly across the table from a family member. Feels weird.

 

[itsmeagain]

I couldn't care less, I tend to lurk around here when I'm at work all the time, I'm sure somebody has noticed me on this website, but nobody cares until you're already gone.

I did regrettably suggest this forum to an old friend of mine when they were talking about their issues and I was in no position to give comforting advice so I just told them to come here, stupidly not realizing that this is kind of a niche forum and that most people when they're discussing their thoughts of ctb outside of the forum, usually want anything but validation for their suicidal thoughts to fester.

I don't know. I think usually people have the opposite problem, at least in my experience. If I let this loose in class or at my job or around people I'd know, they'd suggest therapy, and all these stuff. If they knew I was talking about CTB, there's no way they wouldn't suggest/report me and have me sent to a ward

I'm currently browsing, sitting directly across the table from a family member. Feels weird.

I wonder what they would think if they knew. I think that all the time :/

 

[NeverHungry]

I don't know. I think usually people have the opposite problem, at least in my experience. If I let this loose in class or at my job or around people I'd know, they'd suggest therapy, and all these stuff. If they knew I was talking about CTB, there's no way they wouldn't suggest/report me and have me sent to a ward

I wonder what they would think if they knew. I think that all the time :/

Hard to know, probably the usual. Shock, denial, anger, sadness. Bleh.

 

[itsmeagain]

Hard to know, probably the usual. Shock, denial, anger, sadness. Bleh.

Have you ever had someone know what happened like this, or have you ever played the scanario through in your head?

 

[NeverHungry]

Have you ever had someone know what happened like this, or have you ever played the scanario through in your head?

It's never actually happened to me, but I have played out the scenario in my head a couple of times. Of course, it's difficult to really know the way a person will react, considering the fact that you'll be gauging how you think they'll react based upon your perceptions of them, as opposed to how they are actually going to react. I have no intention of letting anybody offline know that I browse and post on here though.

 

[itsmeagain]

It's never actually happened to me, but I have played out the scenario in my head a couple of times. Of course, it's difficult to really know the way a person will react, considering the fact that you'll be gauging how you think they'll react based upon your perceptions of them, as opposed to how they are actually going to react. I have no intention of letting anybody offline know that I browse and post on here though.

Hey, we gotta stick where we're comfortable, huh? Sure Imean some people are always welcome encouraged to tell other people, but sometimes for people who just cant bring themselves to this is the best choice we have you know?

 

[NeverHungry]

Hey, we gotta stick where we're comfortable, huh? Sure Imean some people are always welcome encouraged to tell other people, but sometimes for people who just cant bring themselves to this is the best choice we have you know?

Indeed, each to their own. I know that disclosing this information to my family members would just make them suffer more, as I do plan to CTB at some point in the future. I also do not want to run the risk of being sent to some psychiatric ward or something.

 

[Jean Améry]

I only visit this site or do any private surfing on my PC at home. Only I have access to it so it's not a problem.

I can't imagine anyone here abusing this site as a 'cry for help' (deliberately showing it to someone-else just to elicit attention/sympathy) nor do I see it as a grown-up way of going about it. If you want 'help'/others butting into your life and most private thoughts and feelings just tell them. No need to be coy and give this site a bad name as a flytrap for the 'vulnerable mentally ill/suicidal'.

 

[itsmeagain]

Indeed, each to their own. I know that disclosing this information to my family members would just make them suffer more, as I do plan to CTB at some point in the future. I also do not want to run the risk of being sent to some psychiatric ward or something.

I go backand forth with it myselfso Iunderstand thestruggle. I hope only the best foryouin yourdecisions.

I only visit this site or do any private surfing on my PC at home. Only I have access to it so it's not a problem.

I can't imagine anyone here abusing this site as a 'cry for help' (deliberately showing it to someone-else just to elicit attention/sympathy) nor do I see it as a grown-up way of going about it. If you want 'help'/others butting into your life and most private thoughts and feelings just tell them. No need to be coy and give this site a bad name as a flytrap for the 'vulnerable mentally ill/suicidal'.

No, I completely agree. I wasn't suggesting that someone DO do that, I was justwondering if anyone had any intrusive thoughts on the matter youknow?

 

[NeverHungry]

I go backand forth with it myselfso Iunderstand thestruggle. I hope only the best foryouin yourdecisions.

Same to you, my friend :)

 

[itsmeagain]

Same to you, my friend :)

I feel that someusers onthis site get solace from making/callingpeople friends. We are all united byoneof the most frighteningand challengingprospects in our lives. So... You know, thankyou. Youtoo friend<3

 

[Dread414]

Work and sitting in bed next to my wife. Sometimes she's so oblivious.
Just curious, if you see a therapist, how much do you share with them about your suicidal thoughts?

 

[itsmeagain]

Work and sitting in bed next to my wife. Sometimes she's so oblivious.

:/ I know the pain. I would be too worried to sit next to some of my friends or tell the person I kind of like. I don't even know anymore you know? I don't want someone seeing "suicide" and yanking my computer away from me... Good thing we have that banner at the top of the website.

 

[Nemeshisu]

I actually lurk on this website a lot in public places, but no one really cares what I am doing on my phone anymore, so I have never been found out. I only try to hide this website from my mom when she comes to visit me sometimes, but it's pretty easy to do it.

 

[itsmeagain]

I actually lurk on this website a lot in public places, but no one really cares what I am doing on my phone anymore, so I have never been found out. I only try to hide this website from my mom when she comes to visit me sometimes, but it's pretty easy to do it.

Yeah, it IS a website, not an app.

 

[cosmicpixiedust]

My roommate saw me browsing on here so he knows, but I explained it and had him promise not to tell anyone else about it. He is very pro-life so he doesn't exactly understand, but he does understand how important this site is to me.

 

[itsmeagain]

My roommate saw me browsing on here so he knows, but I explained it and had him promise not to tell anyone else about it. He is very pro-life so he doesn't exactly understand, but he does understand how important this site is to me.

I would be careful, he may see some of your posts or look on here further and see that people are asking for methods etc.

 

[cosmicpixiedust]

I would be careful, he may see some of your posts or look on here further and see that people are asking for methods etc.

I'm definitely going to be careful, but during our discussion we came to the agreement that he would find things that I've posted that he doesn't want to know (so he agreed that it's best to not look). As far as methods go, he knows people come here looking for that sort of stuff. It's weird to him, sure..but he sees that it's something I need so he just ignores it.

 

[itsmeagain]

I'm definitely going to be careful, but during our discussion we came to the agreement that he would find things that I've posted that he doesn't want to know (so he agreed that it's best to not look). As far as methods go, he knows people come here looking for that sort of stuff. It's weird to him, sure..but he sees that it's something I need so he just ignores it.

I'm not quite sure how he would be pro life then? Is he a really close friend or someone in passing, really? If the latter i can assume why.

 

[cosmicpixiedust]

I'm not quite sure how he would be pro life then? Is he a really close friend or someone in passing, really? If the latter i can assume why.

It's confusing. Sometimes I think I have him close to convinced when something happens to come up, but then he shuts down again and I'm back to square one. I do think the ignoring (for the most part, at least) is a good sign that he is beginning to fully understand. He is my roommate, but also my ex fiancé and the father of my children.

 

[Brokensaddle]

I've never seen a post like this before. What's the most risky place you've used Sanctioned Suicide? I've used it in class but make sure nobody can look over my shoulder, and pull it up on my phone sometimes. Has anyone ever found out, or have you maybe wanted to recommend this site to someone? If you could recommend it to anyone, who would it be, and what would you be afraid of?

I've used it on the train but this one time I had work colleague use my phone to look up something and one of the first things to pop was the ss page. We didn't say anything to each, they thankfully never asked any questions ask to why I the page open and I pretended like it never happened and never spoke to that particular colleague again and thankfully I don't with them anymore but it was super awkward

 

[dead_milky]

idrc. People see me use it, I just don't care. They don't know the site anyways

 

[Seered Doom]

At the dining table with my parents around. They don't even know