Hi everyone, I'm new

[korobka_s_konfetami]

Hello everyone, I'm new here. My life went downhill in early 2020. Shortly after i commited suicide (this attempt wasn't successful as you see) and i spent 1 month at the local asylum. Nothing improved since then. I dropped out of university because of my problems with socializing and all (everyone in my group even started bullying me for that). I'm looking for a job since then but I don't think I'll find anything. My mom makes everything worse constantly yelling at me saying "you don't even have friends, you failed at university, you don't want to find a job (i WANT but CAN'T), you're a total failure". My dad acts like a damn cuck and doesn't do anything about this psychological violence towards me.

I've been reading Sanctioned Suicide for last 2 weeks and decided to do SN. Today i got some. I want to do it not because i hate my mother or my life, but because I don't have any strength to carry on. I'm drained.

Please excuse me my English if something is wrong, it's basically my third language after Russian and my native language.

 

[jodes2]

Christ. Nasty. I'm so sorry you go through that, must be hell I hope you can get a job and move the FUCK out of there Welcome to SS by the way, sorry you're here welcome to our family

 

[Nirrend]

Hello everyone, I'm new here. My life went downhill in early 2020. Shortly after i commited suicide (this attempt wasn't successful as you see) and i spent 1 month at the local asylum. Nothing improved since then. I dropped out of university because of my problems with socializing and all (everyone in my group even started bullying me for that). I'm looking for a job since then but I don't think I'll find anything. My mom makes everything worse constantly yelling at me saying "you don't even have friends, you failed at university, you don't want to find a job (i WANT but CAN'T), you're a total failure". My dad acts like a damn cuck and doesn't do anything about this psychological violence towards me.

I've been reading Sanctioned Suicide for last 2 weeks and decided to do SN. Today i got some. I want to do it not because i hate my mother or my life, but because I don't have any strength to carry on. I'm drained.

Please excuse me my English if something is wrong, it's basically my third language after Russian and my native language.

Hi sweet @korobka_s_konfetami

I'm sorry you're going through all this pain ❤

I understand what you're going through, it's awful to have parents who are sick, abusive or complicit in abuse

It's a sneaky destruction because it comes from those we expect protection from...

Today I imagine that you feel destroyed, without a future, that you have no confidence in yourself or in others...

I am sincerely sorry for all this ❤

Even if times are complicated for you, pay attention to the positive things people can say about you. You are not incompetent ❤

You're brave, you've endured so much, you're allowed to feel bad and we'll never see you as lazy, or a failure ❤

I hope things get better for you ❤ I truly believe that ❤

Regarding SN, I couldn't help you, I know so little about it...

Welcome sweet @korobka_s_konfetami ❤

Love ❤

 

[freedomcalls]

Welcome…. And I'm sorry you are here

 

[pauly1963]

Hello everyone, I'm new here. My life went downhill in early 2020. Shortly after i commited suicide (this attempt wasn't successful as you see) and i spent 1 month at the local asylum. Nothing improved since then. I dropped out of university because of my problems with socializing and all (everyone in my group even started bullying me for that). I'm looking for a job since then but I don't think I'll find anything. My mom makes everything worse constantly yelling at me saying "you don't even have friends, you failed at university, you don't want to find a job (i WANT but CAN'T), you're a total failure". My dad acts like a damn cuck and doesn't do anything about this psychological violence towards me.

I've been reading Sanctioned Suicide for last 2 weeks and decided to do SN. Today i got some. I want to do it not because i hate my mother or my life, but because I don't have any strength to carry on. I'm drained.

Please excuse me my English if something is wrong, it's basically my third language after Russian and my native language.

Having to endure abusive parents is soul-crushing and drains the energy right out of you. Do you think you would still feel so drained if you managed to get away from them ? Or have you just had enough of the stress of this dreadful world in general ? I'm so sorry you are having to endure this.
Welcome to SaSu.

 

[Pluto]

Welcome! From experience, parents like that will not stop until they have finished destroying us. There is no way of surviving in their 'care'. If you have anyone you can turn to for an alternative emergency living arrangement, it is important to do so.

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[FuneralCry]

It really sounds like you have suffered a lot and it must be so awful and tiring what you have to endure. It certainly is such a cruel existence. Your feelings of wishing to leave are understandable, I get that for many people it can be a relief just knowing that they will have the option of SN. I wish you the best.

 

[that_guy2611]

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