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suicidalloser

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Jun 30, 2023
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im 27, chronically ill and simply do not like living
every waking moment is dread and torture. i only find the bliss of death comforting. other sites dont understand so i'm all alone. there is no other place like this—not anywhere not ever.
i dont have a method yet as i dont want to fail but im also so suicidal i am drained of any motivation to so much as lift a pen.
as long as euthanasia is unavailable i will have no choice but to suffer until old age where my health issues take me. the thought terrifies me every day in such a grim reality.

i'm not alone, i'm alone.
 
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josephk

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Jun 19, 2023
66
Welcome. I'm similar. Health issues, mental & physical. wish I would just die in my sleep - that would solve everything
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
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It's such a cruel and hostile world out there that makes it terribly difficult for people who want to leave and cease their existence to finally be relieved. Everyone should be free in their decisions when they want to leave and everyone should be granted peaceful and dignified ways to go as death and final relief is inevitable anyway.
 
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The anhedonic one

The anhedonic one

Dead inside
May 20, 2023
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im 27, chronically ill and simply do not like living
every waking moment is dread and torture. i only find the bliss of death comforting. other sites dont understand so i'm all alone. there is no other place like this—not anywhere not ever.
i dont have a method yet as i dont want to fail but im also so suicidal i am drained of any motivation to so much as lift a pen.
as long as euthanasia is unavailable i will have no choice but to suffer until old age where my health issues take me. the thought terrifies me every day in such a grim reality.

i'm not alone, i'm alone.
Welcome to the forum. It's truly sadistic how other people dictate our right to die.
CTB is a deeply personal choice that has absolutely nothing to do with anybody else.
They could easily make Nembutal available to those who need it, yet prefer to keep us suffering.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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Existence certainly is so cruel and torturous, I also despise existing and see death as being the only relief, I've always found non-existence to be comforting. And of course it really is so inhumane to deny people the right to die in peace, it disgusts me how this society is so incredibly anti-suicide, humans deserve the option of peacefully escaping this hellish reality.
 
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josephk

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Jun 19, 2023
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Welcome to the forum. It's truly sadistic how other people dictate our right to die.
CTB is a deeply personal choice that has absolutely nothing to do with anybody else.
They could easily make Nembutal available to those who need it, yet prefer to keep us suffering.
I just wish they would make Nembutal available. They won't though. There would be more suicides than they could cope with, and it would be a slamming indictment of life. Successive governments have had to keep jumping through legislative hoops to stop people from killing themselves -outlawing this, outlawing that. If life were truly as wonderful as the pro-lifers tell us it is there would be no need for all these laws
 
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aGoodDayToDie

Arcanist
Jun 30, 2023
460
Life is a living nightmare. It's disgusting that they knowingly force suffering people through it. Fuck the bastards, I hope they suffer immeasurably and as a result change their stance. They deserve every bit of it for imposing their delusional, twisted views on others without giving it due consideration
 
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suicidalloser

Specialist
Jun 30, 2023
365
thank you everyone for such the kind words. for once i feel welcomed.
 
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SVEN

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Apr 3, 2023
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You have nothing to explain on this group, for once you are with those who totally get it and empathise.
 

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