Venting He's so caring it hurts.

[SenelXamano]

He's such a genuinely good person. He doesn't deserve me dragging him down into this shit with me. I love him so much but I know he'd hate me if he knew just how in love I am. Just how jealous I am. How much anger I feel thinking of him and her.
I feel so horrible for liking him. I feel so horrible for hating them together. I want them to break up but it'll just make it worse for them. I don't want them hurt because of me.
it hurts seeing how happy he is with her and still wishing they'd break up. It hurts knowing I never could've been in this kind of situation. He's perfect. I honestly think if it's not him then it'll never be anybody. Because I'm probably not living 2 years let alone make it to next year.

 

[Incompatible-444]

Senel, it's okay, you're okay. You're not horrible for liking him and wanting them to break up, it's completely normal imo when you see the one you love with someone else. I was in a ten year marriage, it was my entire life, she was my entire life, and now that life looks like it's over. Hopelessness finds us in many different vicious ways, I'm sorry this had to be yours. PM me if you need to talk