Method Here's my plan [SN]

[OldGod]

8:00pm - 600mg Ibuprofen
8:25pm - 2mg Klonopin
8:30pm - 4 Antacid tablets
8:45pm - 100mg Seroquel
9:00pm - 22g SN dissolved in 50ml of water

[Then laying down on my side, in bed]

 

[Living sucks]

Is this for tonight?

 

[OldGod]

Is this for tonight?

This is for tonight.

 

[akrasia]

Seems like a good plan. I hope you find your peace.
Are you planning to listen to music or do something while you wait?

 

[OldGod]

Seems like a good plan. I hope you find your peace.
Are you planning to listen to music or do something while you wait?

Music will keep me up. I'm just going to lay down.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

I'll burn a little candle, may its light guide you to love and peace

 

[InTheAirTonight]

Admire your courage...I hope you find peace. Good luck

 

[akrasia]

Is there a part of you that want to give life another chance? Maybe start recovery?

 

[Living sucks]

This is for tonight.

What time is it currently for you? And looks like you're ready? If you have any doubts there's always time

 

[OldGod]

Is there a part of you that want to give life another chance? Maybe start recovery?

It's a little more complicated than that. I hit a wall. Something happened. I'm not going to make it.

What time is it currently for you? And looks like you're ready? If you have any doubts there's always time

7:23pm, I don't have a choice.

 

[Lostandfound7]

Wait @OldGod, what about the documentary??

 

[akrasia]

So in 30 minutes?

 

[OldGod]

Wait @OldGod, what about the documentary??

I made a mistake last year that hurt someone. It finally caught up with me today. It is tied with the movie. It can't happen, and I can't continue anything else.

So in 30 minutes?

That's right.

 

[Lostandfound7]

Is there anything that we can help u with regarding the "mistake"?
Maybe even just as a sounding board n to offer other options?

Sometimes when we're in certain predicaments, we can't see other options, only the worst one..

U wanna talk about it? I don't mean to pry..

 

[OldGod]

Is there anything that we can help u with regarding the "mistake"?
Maybe even just as a sounding board n to offer other options?

Sometimes when we're in certain predicaments, we can't see other options, only the worst one..

U wanna talk about it? I don't mean to pry..

The documentary is dedicated to my best friend who killed himself. I got close with his family after his death. Met his niece. Was very protective. Even warned her I thought someone in particular was trying to make advancements. We all had a party one night and me and her had an encounter. That was last year. She told that person I warned her about what I said. He was in the movie too. Now the movie is getting big and he told the family and they hate me now and want everything removed. So it's my fault, and there's no way to fix it.

 

[Lostandfound7]

Have u spoken to the family personally for them to tell u they "hate" u n to remove the film?

 

[Jumper Geo]

Sorry your in pain @OldGod, I hope you can find peace

Best wishes

Geo

 

[OldGod]

Have u spoken to the family personally for them to tell u they "hate" u n to remove the film?

His half sister told me today.

 

[Lostandfound7]

So can u give them a lil bit of time to cool down? There's a possibility that they can feel diff tomor..

 

[OldGod]

So can u give them a lil but of time to cool down? There's a possibility that they can feel diff tomor..

I doubt they would feel any different. And my friend is woven into the entire film and promotion so I can't edit anything. Not to mention it's my reputation as well. And they were the only ones I had left who liked me. So there's a lot of factors against me.

 

[Lostandfound7]

U never know how they will feel tomor..maybe they need some time to think it over..Plz don't make such a rash decision based on someone's feelings today..They r subject to change..

 

[OldGod]

U never know how they will feel tomor..maybe they need some time to think it over..Plz don't make such a rash decision based on someone's feelings today..They r subject to change..

They found out days ago, actually.

 

[akrasia]

Oh my, so you're leaving very soon. I hope you know that you're loved until the very end. Even if you don't feel it, you are loved on this forum.

 

[enjolras]

You maybe made a mistake but the fault is shared : you cannot be accountable for other people's trajectory.
There is a separation between your friend and his family. Think about if you'd have had the support / consentment of your buddy. That's all that counts. You put it out in his honor, that's the sticky action to remember. There's a misunderstanding between the reality and the reactions

 

[OldGod]

You maybe made a mistake but the fault is shared : you cannot be accountable for other people's trajectory.
There is a separation between your friend and his family. Think about if you'd have had the support / consentment of your buddy. That's all that counts. You put it out in his honor, that's the sticky action to remember. There's a misunderstanding between the reality and the reactions

I wish that were true but the fault is on me. I'll say it. She was 17 at the time. We were drunk. Nobody was around. It just happened. I've regretted it ever since. Now it's come back to me and nothing will be the same.

 

[Lostandfound7]

Have u tried apologizing to the family?

 

[OldGod]

Have u tried apologizing to the family?

They don't care.

 

[InTheAirTonight]

Hey man I respect your decision but just wanna say don't immediately lie down after taking SN.

 

[OldGod]

Hey man I respect your decision but just wanna say don't immediately lie down after taking SN.

That's what's in Stan's guide.

 

[Living sucks]

Maybe a sit down with her and the parents ?