Here we go. (CTB attempt with KCl)

[matlap]

I just took 16 grams of Potassium chloride as a CTB attempt. Ill update this post gradually as effects come on, but my hope is that my heart will stop sometime tonight and I'll pass away.

 

[geepeedee]

good luck and safe travels

 

[parabellum_]

wish you a peaceful end

 

[matlap]

So far, just anxiety. Took 2 mg clonazepam to try and help. Unfortunately my roommate found me and figured out I took *something*

Probably gonna get 5150'd soon. I still intend on refusing all treatment until I physically can't.

 

[Sunset Limited]

The oral LD50 in humans is 2.5 g/kg. The dose is probably one-tenth of the lethal dose. I'm sorry to hear about your situation.

 

[matlap]

The oral LD50 in humans is 2.5 g/kg. The dose is probably one-tenth of the lethal dose. I'm sorry to hear about your situation.

People have died on much lower doses, I don't intend on actually letting them treat me.

 

[dizzy.]

I just took 16 grams of Potassium chloride as a CTB attempt. Ill update this post gradually as effects come on, but my hope is that my heart will stop sometime tonight and I'll pass away.

Best wishes. You deserve it. ♡

 

[Sunset Limited]

People have died on much lower doses, I don't intend on actually letting them treat me.

CTB with 16 grams of KCL are very rare. It's more common to survive with much higher doses. It depends on the person's overall health. I wish you the best.

 

[darksouls]

good luck, I hope you find peace

 

[matlap]

welp this might be ending faster than i expected

 

[gardenhouse]

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They rescued you?

 

[praythestars]

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Just tell them it was for attention or something and that you don't actually want to die and that it was impulsive. Make up some shit about your bf or gf leaving you. Unless you actually want help, obviously. Act embarrassed about it and be nice, they might be willing to release you to a friend once you're okay.

 

[matlap]

Omw to hospital now, they're 5150'ing me. Im hoping if i just keep refusing treatment i might still have a chance

Just tell them it was for attention or something and that you don't actually want to die and that it was impulsive. Make up some shit about your bf or gf leaving you. Unless you actually want help, obviously. Act embarrassed about it and be nice, they might be willing to release you to a friend once you're okay.

Will do
My SpO² started dropping slowly, hovering at 90 now

 

[geepeedee]

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lol

 

[ImogenHeap]

Do you have access to your phone while in invol psych hold?

 

[matlap]

Do you have access to your phone while in invol psych hold?

Usually
Ill keep documenting what happens until I cant
I just got to hospital. Waiting for triage now. Still rehearsing what im going to tell them

 

[hiding the roses]

good luck, hope they believe you

 

[ImogenHeap]

Usually
Ill keep documenting what happens until I cant
I just got to hospital. Waiting for triage now. Still rehearsing what im going to tell them

If you tell them you mistakenly took it, they'll back off. They can't do much after that unless they have have more probable cause. Similarly if you tell them you had no, and have no desire to harm yourself you'll be fine.

 

[matlap]

I tried doing this and my roommate is telling them im lyjng. Im starting to panic lowkey
Im scared
Also, starting to feel weak and sleepy
If they force me to do anything, I have a razor blade hidden in my phone case that I can use to just cut myself

 

[ilovenewyork]

You need to relax and let them do their job. You aren't CTB today so spend a week in the psych ward. It's really not that bad. They'll let you out I promise

 

[ImogenHeap]

I tried doing this and my roommate is telling them im lyjng. Im starting to panic lowkey
Im scared
Also, starting to feel weak and sleepy
If they force me to do anything, I have a razor blade hidden in my phone case that I can use to just cut myself

Don't do anything that would alert them even more, and put you on a longer hold. If you try talking to them more rationally, and come across as a calm, collected person they might let you go sooner rather than later.

 

[spero_meliora]

I tried doing this and my roommate is telling them im lyjng. Im starting to panic lowkey
Im scared
Also, starting to feel weak and sleepy
If they force me to do anything, I have a razor blade hidden in my phone case that I can use to just cut myself

I understand why you'd feel like you "need" to do that, but don't re: the razor blade. Doing that is guaranteeing yourself a longer visit at the funny farm. Just play along for now, I'm afraid there's not too much you can do otherwise.

 

[matlap]

Im trying but im splitting really hard. I hate this. My roommates are next to me too and making shit worse i might lose it

 

[ImogenHeap]

Im trying but im splitting really hard. I hate this. My roommates are next to me too and making shit worse i might lose it

You should talk to them, ask them what's bugging them so much about your situation.

Also IDK what the situation is, if they were able to figure out it was KCl via bloodwork you can and should act oblivious. If you told them, or something along those lines it's trickier.

 

[matlap]

No one knows i took KCl, i've refused all bloodwork

 

[ilovenewyork]

Now would be a great time to tell them. You haven't had enough to CTB, so you need to minimize the damage. Tomorrow's you will thank you

 

[matlap]

im honestly starting to lose it, i dont know how long ill be able to keep pretending im okay

 

[ilovenewyork]

Just quietly let one of them know and they'll treat you. It doesn't need to be this difficult.

 

[matlap]

but i dont want to be treated. i want to die.

 

[WishfulNeanderthal]

but i dont want to be treated. i want to die.

Friend, its been several hours and your situation moves me. But i think the best thing here is to tell them what you took, explain your situation, etc. You aint gonna die today and there's no point in prolonging suffering, there's always another day (although i hope you find non-ctb options). Just my opinion though