Help help

[dyz00s]

I don't know what else to do, I'm here on this site but I got banned, and I've been depressed for a long time and I don't want to live anymore, but my parents and sister begged me not to do anything to myself, don't hurt me, I feel strangled with this situation, I have to stay alive and "happy" for them all this FOR THEM, I feel selfish for thinking it's better to die but I'm going to make them sad What should I do?? I don't want to hurt them, but I can't take it anymore.
I already have my method defined, I've tried it and everything is fine, I just need less fear and anxiety about being dead

 

[deomlez]

Not the main purpose of your topic but why did you get banned ??
Sorry for your pain.... half of people here are in the same situation : your wish vs the wish of yours. There is no right answer, only your moral conscience.

 

[dyz00s]

Not the main purpose of your topic but why did you get banned ??
Sorry for your pain.... half of people here are in the same situation : your wish vs the wish of yours. There is no right answer, only your moral conscience.

I understand, thanks anyway, I had a dyn00ss account, I don't remember exactly but I wanted to give the account a break and I went into the settings and then I couldn't log in anymore, I tried to talk to the moderators but I did not receive a response or reactivation of the account :(

 

[deomlez]

Ok so not banned, right ?
Good luck for the rest

 

[FuneralCry]

I see it as being very cruel trying to force someone to suffer here against their wishes when they want to die, that's the true selfish thing, continuing to exist should never be an obligation and existence should never be a prison, it should always be a personal decision deciding whether to continue enduring this existence we were burdened with. But anyway best wishes.

 

[HAL 9000]

I don't know what else to do, I'm here on this site but I got banned, and I've been depressed for a long time and I don't want to live anymore, but my parents and sister begged me not to do anything to myself, don't hurt me, I feel strangled with this situation, I have to stay alive and "happy" for them all this FOR THEM, I feel selfish for thinking it's better to die but I'm going to make them sad What should I do?? I don't want to hurt them, but I can't take it anymore.
I already have my method defined, I've tried it and everything is fine, I just need less fear and anxiety about being dead

You are in no way selfish for wanting to be autonomous. If anything guilt tripping people into staying in a perpetual loop of agony is the selfish act. Especially for parents, considering how they would have to acknowledge the fact that the world in which we inhabit isn't suited to everyone. We must remember that mankind above all else is tribal. Without that defining trait The Neanderthals would be the Earth's dominant species.

I'm sorry about your current situation. Regardless of what transpires I hope that there is a cessation to your suffering. Be well.