Help me

[dudebl]

I can't stop crying non stop all day everyday.

I'm a 36M loser, quit my six figure job three years ago due to major depression and burn out. I have nothing, I live back with my mom like a loser, no job, zero money, no prospects.

I cry all day because I know I'll never be able to rebuild, I don't want to either.

I cry because I want out so bad, but I can't get myself to just ctb. I'm trapped, I see all these happy families and people with jobs and lives when I go out and I'll never have that again.

I'm trapped because I want out more than anything, but I'm scared of falling, leaving my mom broken and sad the rest of her life.

I feel like I'm in a cage.

 

[divinemistress87]

37 living with my mom to I understand how you feel .People with families and jobs arent as happy as they seem though

 

[dudebl]

37 living with my mom to I understand how you feel .People with families and jobs arent as happy as they seem though

I'll be 37 on the 22nd - I'm sorry you're going through this too.

 

[lifecanbecruel!]

I can't stop crying non stop all day everyday.

I'm a 36M loser, quit my six figure job three years ago due to major depression and burn out. I have nothing, I live back with my mom like a loser, no job, zero money, no prospects.

I cry all day because I know I'll never be able to rebuild, I don't want to either.

I cry because I want out so bad, but I can't get myself to just ctb. I'm trapped, I see all these happy families and people with jobs and lives when I go out and I'll never have that again.

I'm trapped because I want out more than anything, but I'm scared of falling, leaving my mom broken and sad the rest of her life.

I feel like I'm in a cage.

I can't stop crying non stop all day everyday.

I'm a 36M loser, quit my six figure job three years ago due to major depression and burn out. I have nothing, I live back with my mom like a loser, no job, zero money, no prospects.

I cry all day because I know I'll never be able to rebuild, I don't want to either.

I cry because I want out so bad, but I can't get myself to just ctb. I'm trapped, I see all these happy families and people with jobs and lives when I go out and I'll never have that again.

I'm trapped because I want out more than anything, but I'm scared of falling, leaving my mom broken and sad the rest of her life.

I feel like I'm in a cage.

Unfortunately I can really relate to this. I'm 33 and male. What is the cause of your depression? Where abouts are you based?

 

[dudebl]

Unfortunately I can really relate to this. I'm 33 and male. What is the cause of your depression? Where abouts are you based?

It's hereditary I've been depressed since as long as I can remember as a child. Work just burned me out and depressed me as I didn't feel like I was contributing anything anymore.

I'm in Ohio.

 

[lifecanbecruel!]

It's hereditary I've been depressed since as long as I can remember as a child. Work just burned me out and depressed me as I didn't feel like I was contributing anything anymore.

I'm in Ohio.

severe depression is impossible to put into words, and I feel for anyone that suffers with it! No matter what you say to people that haven't experienced it, they just DO NOT understand!

 

[telekon]

I can't stop crying non stop all day everyday.

I'm a 36M loser, quit my six figure job three years ago due to major depression and burn out. I have nothing, I live back with my mom like a loser, no job, zero money, no prospects.

I cry all day because I know I'll never be able to rebuild, I don't want to either.

I cry because I want out so bad, but I can't get myself to just ctb. I'm trapped, I see all these happy families and people with jobs and lives when I go out and I'll never have that again.

I'm trapped because I want out more than anything, but I'm scared of falling, leaving my mom broken and sad the rest of her life.

I feel like I'm in a cage.

how is your mom? does she make you feel like shit about it? my mom won't even let me home and when i lived there until i was 25 she bitched at me 24/7 about not doing enough/having a good enough job. it's not even a pull yourself up by your bootstraps deal she just hates me.

if you can relax at home with your mom just breathe and enjoy your life. i feel like living at home with a good relationship with your parents who don't shit on you for not being successful would be an okay life. maybe blissful. i pay 1400/month to live under some old bitches roof who also hates me. living situations are so fucking retarded rn. everything is so expensive and it's so hard to find somewhere decent to sleep. everyones a fucking asshole at least to me most people are

 

[dudebl]

how is your mom? does she make you feel like shit about it? my mom won't even let me home and when i lived there until i was 25 she bitched at me 24/7 about not doing enough/having a good enough job. it's not even a pull yourself up by your bootstraps deal she just hates me.

if you can relax at home with your mom just breathe and enjoy your life. i feel like living at home with a good relationship with your parents who don't shit on you for not being successful would be an okay life. maybe blissful. i pay 1400/month to live under some old bitches roof who also hates me. living situations are so fucking retarded rn. everything is so expensive and it's so hard to find somewhere decent to sleep. everyones a fucking asshole at least to me most people are

She doesn't put me down, she's done everything for me during this - which actually makes me feel like a bigger piece of shit, I'm 36 and shouldn't need her help.

I don't know what to do anymore all I want is out - I want to die - I want it over!

 

[telekon]

She doesn't put me down, she's done everything for me during this - which actually makes me feel like a bigger piece of shit, I'm 36 and shouldn't need her help.

I don't know what to do anymore all I want is out - I want to die - I want it over!

you think that you shouldn't need help, but life is generally really hard right now, the world's economy is destroyed and everyone is struggling financially. if you have a loving family, you should accept it and don't feel bad, or like you didn't do enough, because it's really the government's fault.

 

[dudebl]

you think that you shouldn't need help, but life is generally really hard right now, the world's economy is destroyed and everyone is struggling financially. if you have a loving family, you should accept it and don't feel bad, or like you didn't do enough, because it's really the government's fault.

It's my fault for quitting my job - I wanted time off - but that time off ballooned and now I destroyed my career and am unemployable.

 

[telekon]

It's my fault for quitting my job - I wanted time off - but that time off ballooned and now I destroyed my career and am unemployable.

that's not true, i did the exact same thing as you did. quit a 6 figure job due to burnout, took 2 years off, and then interviewers were like what did you do for the 2 years? simple answers only:

- i am a writer and was working on a non-fiction piece about xyz (maybe make it relevant to the job)
- i was taking care of my grandma who is 90 years old and has alzheimer's and got some money from the government for doing that
- i was building an app
- something that can't be easily checked

i think if you've worked before, you can work again if working is something you really want to do

 

[Hollowman]

I'm in a very similar situation except I'm 15 years older. Good luck with whatever happens.

 

[fallingstar]

I can't stop crying non stop all day everyday.

I'm a 36M loser, quit my six figure job three years ago due to major depression and burn out. I have nothing, I live back with my mom like a loser, no job, zero money, no prospects.

I cry all day because I know I'll never be able to rebuild, I don't want to either.

I cry because I want out so bad, but I can't get myself to just ctb. I'm trapped, I see all these happy families and people with jobs and lives when I go out and I'll never have that again.

I'm trapped because I want out more than anything, but I'm scared of falling, leaving my mom broken and sad the rest of her life.

I feel like I'm in a cage.

I relate so deeply to this. I left my high performing career 2.5 years ago due to burnout and I still haven't recovered. The money I had saved is gone and I'm not employable now. I'm alone, no friends, family or support network. I feel like the only option is CTB. I'm scared of going through with it, and I'm scared of suffering any longer. The future looks worse not better. I feel trapped too.

 

[bgh3192]

I can relate. I'm 43 currently on a leave of absence from a good paying job w/ benefits. I don't see myself returning to my high stress job; I just can't handle it anymore. I plan on riding out FMLA as long as I can, then cash out my 401k once I actually quit. If I don't ctb after that, I ll move home w/ my parents after I sell my house.