HELP ME PLEASE (SOMEONE SPEAK SPANISH?)

[BananaRobada]

I need help. I want to kill myself as soon as possible, cant handle this anymore. I´ve been suffering too much and was diagnosed with schizophrenia and crippling depression a few years ago. This ain't life no more for me. I can't even describe exactly how i feel since the year this started (2018) until now. It's like some kind of derealization. I feel disconected with reality, like I've stopped feeling life as I used to be, the people is not the same, the colours are not the same, places are not the same... It's really hard to explain but it's like some kind of derealization. This feeling started when I started to use antidepressants that the doctor gave me, and I can bet my life that these pills changed something chemical or something in my brain. I started using meds because doctor said I was kinda depressed, but it got even worse because of this fucking pills. I really tried to know what I have, what the hell is my problem but I can't find it, like i said, what is more similar is derealization but this feels like even worse than that. However, I just want to end this life of pain. Everyday is a torture for me and the suicide methods that I could find are very difficult, or can leave you disabled, disfigured, vegetative or something else. I want to buy a gun and just pull the trigger to end it all but I dont know where to buy one. If you can recommend me some place to buy (I live in Argentina) or some suicide method to end it all easy, and painless I would really apreciate it. (I was doing some research about exit bags but Im afraid of ending up in a vegetative state because of running out of gas or something like that)

 

[LifeIsCrazyNemb]

I need help. I want to kill myself as soon as possible, cant handle this anymore. I´ve been suffering too much and was diagnosed with schizophrenia and crippling depression a few years ago. This ain't life no more for me. I can't even describe exactly how i feel since the year this started (2018) until now. It's like some kind of derealization. I feel disconected with reality, like I've stopped feeling life as I used to be, the people is not the same, the colours are not the same, places are not the same... It's really hard to explain but it's like some kind of derealization. This feeling started when I started to use antidepressants that the doctor gave me, and I can bet my life that these pills changed something chemical or something in my brain. I started using meds because doctor said I was kinda depressed, but it got even worse because of this fucking pills. I really tried to know what I have, what the hell is my problem but I can't find it, like i said, what is more similar is derealization but this feels like even worse than that. However, I just want to end this life of pain. Everyday is a torture for me and the suicide methods that I could find are very difficult, or can leave you disabled, disfigured, vegetative or something else. I want to buy a gun and just pull the trigger to end it all but I dont know where to buy one. If you can recommend me some place to buy (I live in Argentina) or some suicide method to end it all easy, and painless I would really apreciate it. (I was doing some research about exit bags but Im afraid of ending up in a vegetative state because of running out of gas or something like that)

Hola,
Creo que quizas puedes intentar comprar Halatal / Nembutal en Peru o Bolivia ya que estas en Argetina y no es muy lejo.


Peru:

Buying N in Peru Nov 2023 - personal experience

I just came back from Peru. And during my time there I successfully purchased 6 bottles of halatal 50ml/bottle. Halatal is the Peru version of N. Wouldn’t not share/pm names/places but want to focus on methods/strategies. A little background: I live in a western country, I am a visually...

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Bolívia:

N in Bolivia

First. I do not order from "D". Because my country's customs are too severe, so it will be censored with high probability. And the price is too expensive to order as a trial. Also, I cannot believe the sudden stock of N of "D". So as in the past, It can be the last big fraud using reputation so...

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[BananaRobada]

Hola,
Creo que quizas puedes intentar comprar Halatal / Nembutal en Peru o Bolivia ya que estas en Argetina y no es muy lejo.


Peru:

Buying N in Peru Nov 2023 - personal experience

I just came back from Peru. And during my time there I successfully purchased 6 bottles of halatal 50ml/bottle. Halatal is the Peru version of N. Wouldn’t not share/pm names/places but want to focus on methods/strategies. A little background: I live in a western country, I am a visually...

sanctioned-suicide.net

Bolívia:

N in Bolivia

First. I do not order from "D". Because my country's customs are too severe, so it will be censored with high probability. And the price is too expensive to order as a trial. Also, I cannot believe the sudden stock of N of "D". So as in the past, It can be the last big fraud using reputation so...

sanctioned-suicide.net

Muchas muchas gracias, le echare un vistazo

 

[theboy]

Lamento que estés pasando por estos momentos pero es muy difícil conseguir un arma. Yo soy de Chile y en USA es sencillamente fácil pero no he tenido la oportunidad de tener una. A veces uno no se encuentra con buenos doctores y solo recetan pastillas como se les da la gana.

 

[Sun_]

yo hablo español

 

[dopaminenthusiast]

Hola, quisiera mandarte un mensaje privado pero no puedo. Soy de Argentina también y tengo algo de conocimiento en psicofarmacos, lo más probable es que lo que estás sintiendo sean efectos secundarios de lo que sea que te hayan mandado, te puedo explicar e intentar ayudar con eso si querés

 

[JRE75]

Hola, soy de Chile, por lo que comentas quizás tengas PSSD. A mi me pasó con el antidepresivo Escitalopram y es realmente triste vivir así. Quizás puedes conseguir SN (nitrito de sodio) y lograr una despedida relativamente pacífica.

 

[Isbel88]

Yo estoy en Peru, tengo un post en compañeros de CTB, si te interesa avísame