sysphfc
Member
- Jun 5, 2026
- 7
After chasing death for so long, my legs have become worn out and tired. I dont know when im going to ctb, but hopefully it'll be this year. For the past 10 months ive been attending therapy and seeing a psychiatrist, been given a shit ton of medications, and i feel like all they have done is made me slow and taken away the only spark of emotion i actually have (which is pretty much just anger and my ability to be charismatic) I've been studying neuroscience / neurobiology to fill time, and its been okay. I cant remember the last time i actually enjoyed/felt pleasure in doing anything, because everything feels so painfully neutral and numb.
hello
