Terrible00
Hated by so called "loved ones".
- Jun 11, 2023
- 50
So we have a girl that is staying here for the entire summer cause her mom is horrible. She is a little younger than me and also deals with depression.
She is struggling with self harm too.
We went to look for razor blades in the house to hide in our rooms and we managed to find some, we both got excited and took them to our rooms. We had them for a while and used them sometimes.
And this night I was sitting up late with my pc, until she suddenly went online and began sending messages through the chatting system in the game we were playing. She was calling for help and that I should sneak through the entire house quickly to her. And I did because something didn't feel right.
I knocked on the door and she just said 'come, quick' instead of opening the door like she usually does.
When I opened the door she was laying on her bed crying in pain. And I got shocked to see a huge wound on her leg.
She had toilet papers with huge amounts of blood next to her.
I was in panic and ran up to her. I took some toilet paper to cover her wound to prevent the bleeding. She was shaking insanely much, it really freaked me out. I tried calming her down but it didn't work.
After switching paper after paper she slowly got a little better, we talked for a short while about how terrible this world can be. She kept forgiving me for what she did, but it isn't really her fault, feelings aren't so easy to control.
I later left the room to get back to mine. And now I'm here just full of trauma I guess. And It's 3 in the morning and I don't think I'll be able to sleep either, I'm just shaking in fear typing all this.
It really broke my heart to go through this. I'm gonna wake early with barely any sleep and check on her in the morning to see if everything is alright, she may not be able to walk for a while either. Her blood on my hands fills me with guilt.
She is struggling with self harm too.
We went to look for razor blades in the house to hide in our rooms and we managed to find some, we both got excited and took them to our rooms. We had them for a while and used them sometimes.
And this night I was sitting up late with my pc, until she suddenly went online and began sending messages through the chatting system in the game we were playing. She was calling for help and that I should sneak through the entire house quickly to her. And I did because something didn't feel right.
I knocked on the door and she just said 'come, quick' instead of opening the door like she usually does.
When I opened the door she was laying on her bed crying in pain. And I got shocked to see a huge wound on her leg.
She had toilet papers with huge amounts of blood next to her.
I was in panic and ran up to her. I took some toilet paper to cover her wound to prevent the bleeding. She was shaking insanely much, it really freaked me out. I tried calming her down but it didn't work.
After switching paper after paper she slowly got a little better, we talked for a short while about how terrible this world can be. She kept forgiving me for what she did, but it isn't really her fault, feelings aren't so easy to control.
I later left the room to get back to mine. And now I'm here just full of trauma I guess. And It's 3 in the morning and I don't think I'll be able to sleep either, I'm just shaking in fear typing all this.
It really broke my heart to go through this. I'm gonna wake early with barely any sleep and check on her in the morning to see if everything is alright, she may not be able to walk for a while either. Her blood on my hands fills me with guilt.
