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PixelAngel

PixelAngel

The Great Glowing Exit Sign
Sep 1, 2025
85
I'm not really feeling the public discourse right now so I'm not personally going to go beyond the scope of this comment here because I do not have the brain space for anything else this week, but from the mtf side of the aisle I can relate in a lot of ways to what you've said and I think I understand why you say you're feeling the way you are.

No way I can experience what you've experienced, I don't know your mind, and I'm in this forum myself so you can guess how I feel about my own self and my life. I don't have any answers, for life or any of the shit currently being discussed. I just want you to feel heard a little bit, if that's not all too vague.
 
M

meer

Member
Sep 4, 2026
9
Hate is hate, I think gender matters less then it offten seems too. Ive known men that hated it and truly thought life would be better as a woman and women who hated it and trans people on both side who hated all the option. Its just hate, and its hard to see the pros and cons of the other side when you cant live as that side. There been some really good FTM trans writers that have talked about how shitty being a man is, but I dont think ive seen any MTF trans writters saying the same, but doesint mean there are not out there. Idk to me it just really seems easy to think the grass is greener on the other side when both sides just fucking suck.
 
Somewhat Suicidal

Somewhat Suicidal

surviving in anhedonia =/= living
Aug 26, 2026
127
Side note I truly don't get why you guys don't just go on T blockers or something. You're always complaining about what a curse it is to be sexually horny and be blue balled all the time, yet you do nothing about it. Personally I would've castrated myself if I had to put up with that but that's just me
I thought about it more than once... but it also doesn't feel right despite the suffering.
Also probably hard to get either of those done in reality even if you want to... at least in my country they don't sell T blockers over the counter and the few times I have voiced this with therapists and doctors no one seemed to care or take me seriously either.
There been some really good FTM trans writers that have talked about how shitty being a man is, but I dont think ive seen any MTF trans writters saying the same, but doesint mean there are not out there.
I can second that.
 
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