Have you tried writing down all your problems and then looking at how solvable each one is ?

[sserafim]

This question wasn't directed at me, but I think I'd be in the 5th circle, which represents wrath and sullenness.

I like the ice circle because it feels like a metaphor for my life. I think I'm in the freeze response right now. It's like I'm stuck in ice and frozen in time. I'm not advancing in life. I'm standing still while other people are passing me by

 

[Ambivalent1]

This question wasn't directed at me, but I think I'd be in the 5th circle, which represents wrath and sullenness.

Have you watched full metal alchemist where each baddie is one of those sins?

I like the ice circle because it feels like a metaphor for my life. I think I'm stuck in the freeze response right now. It's like I'm frozen in time. I'm not advancing with life. I'm standing still while other people are passing me by

You're changing the story AHHHH!!11

 

[Malaria]

I like the ice circle because it feels like a metaphor for my life. I think I'm stuck in the freeze response right now. It's like I'm frozen in time. I'm not advancing with life. I'm standing still while other people are passing me by

Hm... but that represents treachery in Dante's Inferno, not sure if that represents what your sins are

 

[divinemistress87]

Everytime I try to write it just comes out as a bunch of angry swear words on paper

 

[Ambivalent1]

Hm... but that represents treachery in Dante's Inferno, not sure if that represents what your sins are

Yeah she's changing the story. Dante is rolling on his

 

[Malaria]

Have you watched full metal alchemist where each baddie is one of those sins?

Yeah I've seen Fullmetal Alchemist. But only the anime from 2003, I haven't seen Brotherhood yet.

 

[Ambivalent1]

My health problems are incurable hence them and related issues are unsolvable. As is my financial situation. I'm screwed nine ways to Sunday. I've run the numbers back and forth and up and down. Suicide is not what I want but neither is living with a body that's constantly torturing me and being homeless and destitute. I also can't solve the problem of having a family that doesn't give a shit if I live or die and a father that's actually encouraged me to ctb, multiple times. It's a brutal reality and it's hard to accept, often times my anxiety getting to the point of feeling like throwing up. It's been really bad at night lately. The stress in turn aggravates my physical problems especially the neurological ones.

Does your stress ever lead to going to the bathroom multiple times a day? The other day I was urinating every 10 minutes and couldn't sleep. Do you actually want to die or do you feel like you're being forced to walk the plank? I feel like I'm being forced by God! Damn him!

Yeah I've seen Fullmetal Alchemist. But only the anime from 2003, I haven't seen Brotherhood yet.

Brotherhood is better. Watch it on aniwave

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

My only problem is that I don't have the guts to off myself. Yet. All I would need is a single post-it note.

 

[Ambivalent1]

My only problem is that I don't have the guts to off myself. Yet. All I would need is a single post-it note.

A post it note with a hang man drawing and the letters below saying "Fuck you" stuck on the fridge door lol

 

[_Gollum_]

Yes, I've done this. I wrote everything that's going right with my life first, and then I wrote what was going wrong with my life and assigned two additional metrics to each point: the difficulty of solving it and the probability (low, medium, or high) of solving it.

I think all it did was cement my decision to CTB. Not because my problems were unsolvable, but because I saw just how much effort, and perhaps more importantly, luck, they'd require to solve. Also, there were actually not that many points on the list of problems (though they were all pretty major, like work and love), so it was possible for me to envision what my life could look like after solving them, and I realized that even that "good" life wasn't worth it to me.

As with @ijustwishtodie, this exercise essentially just made me realize that my issue wasn't so much with my current life but with existence itself. The hypothetical life I could have with those problems solved doesn't appeal to me because I'd still have to exist.

 

[sserafim]

Hm... but that represents treachery in Dante's Inferno, not sure if that represents what your sins are

Idek what my sins are lol. I just like the ice circle for some reason

 

[Ambivalent1]

Idek what my sins are lol. I just like the ice circle for some reason

You should watch moral Orel. It talks about sin lol

Yes, I've done this. I wrote everything that's going right with my life first, and then I wrote what was going wrong with my life and assigned two additional metrics to each point: the difficulty of solving it and the probability (low, medium, or high) of solving it.

I think all it did was cement my decision to CTB. Not because my problems were unsolvable, but because I saw just how much effort, and perhaps more importantly, luck, they'd require to solve. Also, there were actually not that many points on the list of problems (though they were all pretty major, like work and love), so it was possible for me to envision what my life could look like after solving them, and I realized that even that "good" life wasn't worth it to me.

As with @ijustwishtodie, this exercise essentially just made me realize that my issue wasn't so much with my current life but with existence itself. The hypothetical life I could have with those problems solved doesn't appeal to me because I'd still have to exist.

Wow. You went even further. I had to speculate about the solvability of my issues which was hard.

Yes, I've done this. I wrote everything that's going right with my life first, and then I wrote what was going wrong with my life and assigned two additional metrics to each point: the difficulty of solving it and the probability (low, medium, or high) of solving it.

I think all it did was cement my decision to CTB. Not because my problems were unsolvable, but because I saw just how much effort, and perhaps more importantly, luck, they'd require to solve. Also, there were actually not that many points on the list of problems (though they were all pretty major, like work and love), so it was possible for me to envision what my life could look like after solving them, and I realized that even that "good" life wasn't worth it to me.

As with @ijustwishtodie, this exercise essentially just made me realize that my issue wasn't so much with my current life but with existence itself. The hypothetical life I could have with those problems solved doesn't appeal to me because I'd still have to exist.

And existing isn't full of highs. It's a mixed bag of bullshit for everyone. Others trudge through the occasional bad because they have the good to look forward to before cycling back again.

 

[sserafim]

You're changing the story AHHHH!!11

Wdym

Hm... but that represents treachery in Dante's Inferno, not sure if that represents what your sins are

Maybe I was a traitor in my past life. Maybe that's why I took a liking to the ice circle…

 

[Ambivalent1]

Wdym

Maybe I was a traitor in my past life. Maybe that's why I have a liking to the ice circle…

The story has to flow as intended. No alterations. It's the law lol have you ever read Kafka? I like this clip of his short story.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

You're a bad man?

Not just bad, I'm one of the worst.

 

[sserafim]

Not just bad, I'm one of the worst.

Which circle of hell would you end up in?

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Which circle of hell would you end up in?

Good question. I never really studied them in detail so I'm not sure. Just assume I'm going to the worst one.

 

[Oliver]

No because my problems can't be fixed.

I can't stop aging

I can't grow any taller (not even that short but I'd definitely like to be taller - 6'2+)

I can't make millions of dollars without slaving away for 20+ years

I can't travel back in time and undo my mistakes


I can't do shit. Life is fucking bullshit unless you have a perfect start. It's definitely too late for me now and I'm not going to rot away for the next 40 years. I'll be gone before I'm 35 - unless some miracle happen.

 

[sserafim]

Good question. I never really studied them in detail so I'm not sure. Just assume I'm going to the worst one.

Well the worst one is the ninth circle, which is for treachery. All of the sinners are trapped in ice. It's the one that I have a natural affinity for for some reason…

 

[Ambivalent1]

No because my problems can't be fixed.

I can't stop aging

I can't grow any taller (not even that short but I'd definitely like to be taller - 6'2+)

I can't make millions of dollars without slaving away for 20+ years

I can't travel back in time and undo my mistakes


I can't do shit. Life is fucking bullshit unless you have a perfect start. It's definitely too late for me now and I'm not going to rot away for the next 40 years. I'll be gone before I'm 35 - unless some miracle happen.

Chad thundercock isn't real

 

[Oliver]

Chad thundercock isn't real

What's that supposed to mean?

 

[Ambivalent1]

What's that supposed to mean?

It means you don't have to compare yourself to him.

 

[Oliver]

It means you don't have to compare yourself to him.

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I'll try not to.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Well the worst one is the ninth circle, which is for treachery. All of the sinners are trapped in ice. It's the one that I have a natural affinity for for some reason…

 

[Username1359751]

No, only when I was forced to when filling out disability papers. (I was denied, after 16hrs worth of thought and writing. Didn't have enough work credits and missed the 5yr cut off apparently.) But I do with therapists, I explain my problems and then execute explanations and reasonings as to why/how they are unfixable; thus, same thing every week and it just gets worse. They just nod sympathetically. I wouldn't know wtf to say to myself, and I tell them so... They just continue to nod with squinting/closed eyes...

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I'm surprised you'd ask that. Of course, people cling to life. What the hell? Look at anyone who's ever almost died. Why would people go to the hospital if they didn't wish to live more?

Don't worry, the question was rhetorical. I know that many people cling to life. What I don't understand is why. The "why" is why I asked the rhetorical question to begin with but I was really vague about it

I mean, I know that they like life for various reasons such as having loved ones, having pleasure in little things, having passion in what they do (to an extent), being afraid of death, having a false sense of freedom and so on. So, literally, I do know the why logically but my brain can't comprehend any of this on an emotional level and it always can't until I experience being a pro lifer for myself

 

[Ambivalent1]

Don't worry, the question was rhetorical. I know that many people cling to life. What I don't understand is why. The "why" is why I asked the rhetorical question to begin with but I was really vague about it

I mean, I know that they like life for various reasons such as having loved ones, having pleasure in little things, having passion in what they do (to an extent), being afraid of death, having a false sense of freedom and so on. So, literally, I do know the why logically but my brain can't comprehend any of this on an emotional level and it always can't until I experience being a pro lifer for myself

Life is the only game in town. It sucks but what else is there to play?

 

[sserafim]

Life is the only game in town. It sucks but what else is there to play?

The Russian roulette of death (ctb), but you'd probably lose (fail). Not worth the risk in my opinion…

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Life is the only game in town. It sucks but what else is there to play?

Fair point actually. To play or not to play, that is the question

 

[sserafim]

Fair point actually. To play or not to play, that is the question

To be or not to be…