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ForgetIExist

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Jan 31, 2026
78
I keep thinking back to this suicide dream I had a few years ago. In the dream I jumped out my bedroom window to kill myself. I wasn't scared, I didn't regret the jump, and I didn't have any injuries. I think I even tried it a second time. I felt such a sense of peace about the whole thing, and I honestly felt disappointed when I woke up because I knew a fall from that height wouldn't realistically kill me, but I really wanted to do it.

I haven't had a suicide dream since, but I honestly kinda want to have one again. I just think it would be an interesting experience.
 
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scary

find your own way to the Knife
May 1, 2024
72
I actually somewhat recently had a dream of CTB by just laying in my bed while charcoal burned. They say dreams reflect your inner desires and that is probably my most ideal method, you don't have to do anything that's a strain on your SI, you can just lie there and even sleep while it burns. It was a pretty peaceful dream and it ended with me seeing a white light, that's all I remember before I woke up.
 
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lilb0wpeep

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Mar 9, 2026
2
Idk if this counts a suicide "dream" but most nights the only way I can fall asleep is by planning out/imagining different scenarios in which I'm dying. And sometimes they'll turn into a dream, if I remember it. It's definitely not helping clear any 'ideation' but it's also the only thing that 1 puts me to sleep 2 helps me be okay with having to go on living. It's the thought that one day and hopefully soon, that one day I won't have to.
 
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Topaz111

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Mar 9, 2026
12
A month ago or so, I shot myself in the head in a dream. I don't remember what the context of it was, but I remember bleeding out and the feeling of relief and bliss.. then I woke up and it felt so so horrible and wrong.
 
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ForgetIExist

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Jan 31, 2026
78
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A month ago or so, I shot myself in the head in a dream. I don't remember what the context of it was, but I remember bleeding out and the feeling of relief and bliss.. then I woke up and it felt so so horrible and wrong
Damn...
Idk if this counts a suicide "dream" but most nights the only way I can fall asleep is by planning out/imagining different scenarios in which I'm dying. And sometimes they'll turn into a dream, if I remember it. It's definitely not helping clear any 'ideation' but it's also the only thing that 1 puts me to sleep 2 helps me be okay with having to go on living. It's the thought that one day and hopefully soon, that one day I won't have to.
I do this too sometimes. I envision myself driving to an empty parking lot in the middle of the night, drinking SN, and then just laying down and chilling
 
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blush

Member
Mar 2, 2026
8
yea i've had multiple sn dreams. kind of brainrot but it's funny
 
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blush

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Mar 2, 2026
8
OMG do tell
my dreams seem to think it's a peaceful "letting go" sensation, feeling everything shutting down. i would characterize it as "impairing, but peaceful", or a sense of willful resignation and tempting peacefulness? ofc, it has no bearing on reality.
 
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voidblankmore1

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Mar 10, 2026
10
Just had one like a week ago. I shot myself and felt myself on cloud 9 as everything slowly faded back into reality. I felt almost homesick thinking about it the rest of the day.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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I had a dream where you could get legal assisted death. It took two injections, 5 minutes apart. I got in, had the first shot, then chickened out. I woke up and wanted to cry. My subconscious is an asshole. 😭
 
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aesthetic

forever young
Feb 28, 2026
23
i had several dreams where i killed myself and every time i woke up i wished i was dead.
 
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FoxSauce

Emotionally unstable like an IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
1,198
Yeah did have one,taking place in a gas station, we were getting robbed and he killed my sisters and father and mother. I snapped and shot the guy then I realized I killed someone that was innocent, my hands were shaking. Looked myself in the mirror , saw a deranged me with a ear to ear smile and then started to laugh qnd then I shot myself.

I have no idea what that was nor didnt make a semblance of sence.
 
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ForgetIExist

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Jan 31, 2026
78
Just had one like a week ago. I shot myself and felt myself on cloud 9 as everything slowly faded back into reality. I felt almost homesick thinking about it the rest of the day.
Homesick is an interesting way to put it. I never thought of that before!
 
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nowitscomingback

Member
Mar 8, 2026
7
I had a dream of ctb with He, in the dream it was like going to sleep. I hope it is possible to recreate the same feeling using opioids when I actually ctb, the dream made ctb feel very pleasant and made me fear it a lot less.
 
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OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,483
I had a dream where you could get legal assisted death. It took two injections, 5 minutes apart. I got in, had the first shot, then chickened out. I woke up and wanted to cry. My subconscious is an asshole. 😭
I daydream about a euthanasia drink constantly. It exists! But there's no one to ask for it.

I think I might be "bouncing off" suicide again, i.e. getting "better." I just can't do it and living might be less painful than sitting around the house depressed. This might be a passing mood.
 
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TomIsNotMyName

Existence is suffering
May 3, 2023
120
A few years ago I had a dream where I wanted to jump from a high place but I was too scared. And a few months ago I had a dream where I drank SN but I don't remember how it ended
 
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violetforever

Wizard
Dec 24, 2025
626
no but i had dreams where i was shot or stabbed and i felt it in the same area of my body when i woke up.
 
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a-lien

Member
Feb 22, 2026
48
yeah, some.. the last one, I was still living with my partens...
and I got disturbed. The key turned (it was closed) so I need to stop. really regret it, that it didn't work (In the dream I regret)..
But I wanted to use a method, I won't do in real life ... (anymore, and never preferred it) , thats kind of sad.
would be better, when it would be my preferred method, to see what it's like.
and this kind of situations is not real, I don't live there anymore..
 
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BrainSplatter

Student
Oct 31, 2025
195
yea i've had multiple sn dreams. kind of brainrot but it's funny
Yeah same here I had I dream where I took SN but it was sodium nitrate not nitrite. I was watching my body dying from above like some kind of astral projection and I was in pain saying "help me" again and again I'm trying to make sense of it. I think it was my brains way causing fear maybe some unconscious form of self preservation because I fear a painful death I want to die in peace not to suffer
 
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