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CatabolicSeed

CatabolicSeed

they/them
Feb 19, 2020
263
My fiancee and therapist are aware I frequent the forum, I told them willingly. They are not fans.
 
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sleepytourist

sleepytourist

Pain demands to be felt.
Sep 23, 2020
23
Not really since I use my phone. I'm sure if I was around my ex he would he see it. I don't really care if anyone sees me using this site. I'll just brush them off.
 
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Raindryer

Member
Jan 8, 2021
22
Nah. I always minimize my browser whenever my parents enter my room, regardless of what sites I'm browsing.
 
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EmbraceOfTheVoid

EmbraceOfTheVoid

Part Time NEET - Full Time Suicidal
Mar 29, 2020
689
When using this site with your smartphone, it's shorten with the initials "SS". As a german I should be careful using this site in public... but I don't have to care so much, cause I'm using this site only in my dark room. Where I'm alone.

I thought Germany was open to the idea of suicide?
 
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LastFlowers

LastFlowers

the haru that can read
Apr 27, 2019
2,170
yup, when i was visiting my parents i logged into my email on my moms computer once and for some fucking reason my browsing history from my main computer got transferred over to hers, that or the cookies on my google account did. My account must have automatically synced with her device or something. That was not a pleasant conversation, because as you can imagine SS was not the only 'taboo' site i was visiting lmao
Oh god, that sounds like a nightmare.
 
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Raindryer

Member
Jan 8, 2021
22
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EmbraceOfTheVoid

EmbraceOfTheVoid

Part Time NEET - Full Time Suicidal
Mar 29, 2020
689
It has nothing to do with the act of suicide, SS is an abbreviation that was used by the nazis.
That abbreviation escaped me entirely for some reason, lol.
 
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FireFox

FireFox

Enlightened
Apr 8, 2020
1,895
Never
I pretend to be happy all the time, look after my appearance and help around the house more and nobody in my family suspects I am depressed or suicidal.

I use my phone and view the site in incognito mode.

I aslo frequently delete my search history

I use the site when everyone has gone to bed or too busy watching TV so i dont get caught at all.

I always keep my guard up
 
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Bärchen

Bärchen

Distracting myself through Life
Apr 7, 2019
202
No, i live alone and i only my mother and brother visit me sometimes.
 
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lymestolemylife

Student
Nov 27, 2019
139
My cousin caught me once and there would be a second time from my mother if it weren't for luck.

So I only use the 2019 version now, because there is not that huge "SUICIDE '" at the top left of the screen that anyone can see 10km away
How do you use the older version?
 
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timothyyyyyyy:(

Member
Dec 3, 2020
6
I have no one who should catch me lol, i live alone and i dont have friends
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,387
My sister may have seen it on my phone, there's been multiple times where I opened my browser in front of her to check something else or look up some fact only for it to open to this website first. I usually click away fast enough but I wonder if it's possible she saw enough and just hasn't said anything yet...
 
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Marchioness

Marchioness

Eternal sleep
Feb 17, 2020
295
Yeah, I've had SOs see me browsing. I tell them what it is, they just look at me funny. I don't care. It's not illegal to read a forum.
 
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Deleted member 23885

Experienced
Nov 18, 2020
293
Yes, my brother found out. He promised to tell my mum, lol.
 
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Emily_Numb

Emily_Numb

Wizard
Jan 14, 2020
654
About a month ago, my dad "caught" me while I was browsing the SS forums and even though he doesn't speak any english, he PANICKED when he read the words "SANCTIONED SUICIDE" which sound very similar in spanish to "SUICIDIO SANCIONADO"
I explained to him that suicide is only one of the topics we discuss here. I told him we talk about depression, mental disorders, provide advise and support, etc (the truth) but I never told himabout the resources section, guides or things like that.

Anyway, he fell for it and now I'm more careful than ever when browsing SS on PCs. If you use your cellphone, it's harder to get caught so, good for you!

What about you? Have you ever been caught browsing SS? How did they and you react? Tell me all about it!
I only ever browse in dark mode from my phone so thankfully not.
 
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Going Home

Going Home

Specialist
Sep 21, 2018
357
It shouldn't matter because it's not illegal to communicate on a forum, as someone already said.

The crowd I've been forced to be around the last four years just laugh and say things like "good".

Thank God for this forum. It's a reprieve from the nasty people I am forced to be around.
 
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Apathy79

Apathy79

Elementalist
Oct 13, 2019
861
I check this site at airports with 100s of people around. Undoubtedly some have seen it but no one has ever said anything.
 
SkarletWitch

SkarletWitch

Member
Dec 28, 2020
32
When using this site with your smartphone, it's shorten with the initials "SS". As a german I should be careful using this site in public... but I don't have to care so much, cause I'm using this site only in my dark room. Where I'm alone.
Haha, as a polish I have the same problem. :D
Very unfortunate abbreviation.
 
Birdie

Birdie

Member
Sep 19, 2020
82
bout a month ago, my dad "caught" me while I was browsing the SS forums and even though he doesn't speak any english, he PANICKED when he read the words "SANCTIONED SUICIDE" which sound very similar in spanish to "SUICIDIO SANCIONADO"
Oh my, something similar would happen if my mom caught me, she wouldn't leave me alone. I always make sure she isn't around and pay attention to the smallest noise so I can tell whether she's near or not.
 
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theresonlyonewayout

theresonlyonewayout

Student
Jan 31, 2021
121
Was sat in the car once, a friend came to the window and started reading over my shoulder. Didn't notice until she knocked on the window - absolutely shit myself because I was doing 70 on the motorway at the time lol. Kidding, I was parked. I jumped outta my skin - PTSD and panicked. She never mentioned it, I have no idea how long she was there. Was a good year ago so I'm sure she'd have said something by now.
 
Ani198

Ani198

Member
Jan 17, 2021
47
The other day I had the ss Twitter page pulled up, and he was using my phone. Luckily the app wasn't actively opened, but I think he saw it when he was scrubbing through all the open apps on my phone. I haven't heard anything about it yet, but I think he knows now.
 
NothingElseMatters

NothingElseMatters

Warlock
Mar 30, 2020
745
I personally don't bother to hid this from anyone, I even browse SS at my work, where the TI have acess to all sites we browse.
 
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sorella santini

sorella santini

Member
Jan 19, 2021
87
I was careless and my spouse now knows. I will have to be better at deleting my history.
 
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Yaleris

New Member
Jan 30, 2021
2
I've never been caught browsing SS but that's because I've been living on my own since I started college 4 years ago, but now that I've moved back in with my parents I have to be really careful while browsing this forum.
 
Gerard de Nerval

Gerard de Nerval

Ontologist
Oct 5, 2020
145
I can't imagine anyone even having a clue of what I am looking at as I browse this site while I'm at work. No one uses my computer so I'm never afraid of "being caught". It must be stressful if anyone has people around them that are so nosey. Shouldn't be any of their business in my opinion.
 
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Yiyo123

Member
Apr 24, 2020
94
Well my therapist and my wife know about it... not the name of the site. I told both of them becuase I was venting and it slipped. The don't know that I vist the site frequently and write my feelings from time to time.
 
Pen>Sword

Pen>Sword

Ad Majorem Dei Gloriam
Jan 13, 2021
465
Not yet. They will be. I'm a frequent user. One day they will use my laptop while I'm on my study break and they see this website. I hope this will not happen.
 
*Hope*

*Hope*

Student
Jan 18, 2021
112
Had a close call before the website was down.

Was sitting on the couch feeling extra down, then sudenly my brother runs up to me to show some kind of a meme on the phone and I panicked. I pretended to sneeze and threw my phone across the room lol
Thankfully it ended well and nothing was seen. (My phone was also not damaged luckily)
 
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TooConscious

Enlightened
Sep 16, 2020
1,151
No but because of the algorithm alot of my recommendations are suicide/death related which has meant since it happened to one friend I can't let anyone use my TV anymore when they visit. Or distract them when on menus.
 
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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,163
No but because of the algorithm alot of my recommendations are suicide/death related which has meant since it happened to one friend I can't let anyone use my TV anymore when they visit. Or distract them when on menus.
Ohhh I SO understand what you mean!
If somebody touched my cellphone, computer or tv they would panick! haha
 
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