Discussion Have you decided on a method?

[dustbiter]

I would love to get ahold of N (as many of us would, I imagine), but I think I have narrowed it down to SN or firearm as the most likely choices for me! I will probably look into getting two methods, just to have options.

I primarily worry about finding a place to do things in private without being found, as I do have roommates, but I don't want to make too much of a mess in a hotel. Maybe I should lay down a tarp beforehand? It's a silly thing to worry about, but I don't want anyone to go through much fuss afterwards.
Have you decided? :3

 

[PeacefulTonic]

Yes, I'll be using N at a big chain hotel. They have protocols and the money for ctb situations

 

[disabledsuicidegirl]

Slashing an artery

 

[Itsbeenalongtime]

My first attempt was using about 6000mg of amitryptiline and 1000mg of zolpidem, 10/10 experience if you have the stuff. Was easy to swallow with some grapefruit juice or alcohol, no pain, fell asleep like a baby (if only i wasnt found). Sadly I was found and survived, thankfully with no long term problems. If i could use that method again I would but I have no way of accessing the stuff, I am questioning whether id be able to swallow N, id have to train a lot, and SN seems a bit hit and miss? Maybe an exit bag? Idk I just want something reliable and painless

 

[sadnurse]

Most likely N

 

[Mardiha]

My first attempt was using about 6000mg of amitryptiline and 1000mg of zolpidem, 10/10 experience if you have the stuff. Was easy to swallow with some grapefruit juice or alcohol, no pain, fell asleep like a baby (if only i wasnt found). Sadly I was found and survived, thankfully with no long term problems. If i could use that method again I would but I have no way of accessing the stuff, I am questioning whether id be able to swallow N, id have to train a lot, and SN seems a bit hit and miss? Maybe an exit bag? Idk I just want something reliable and painless

Did you crush the amitriptyline and mix it in juice or swallow them whole…I'm thinking of using that method with some benzos. I have SN but it scares me to take that more for some reason.

 

[bed]

N

 

[Itsbeenalongtime]

Did you crush the amitriptyline and mix it in juice or swallow them whole…I'm thinking of using that method with some benzos. I have SN but it scares me to take that more for some reason.

I didnt crush them, i put small handfuls in my mouth and washed them down with liquid, could barely taste the stuff. I cant remember if this was all of it but that was approx what it looked like

https://scontent.fbhx2-1.fna.fbcdn.net/v/t34.18173-12/13515365_1624753537665887_1573699187_n.jpg?_nc_cat=110&ccb=1-5&_nc_sid=ae9488&_nc_ohc=0wV7uqyhkMMAX8jbyqi&_nc_ht=scontent.fbhx2-1.fna&oh=8578aeafd4238751f91a062ec94de3a3&oe=61A3142B

 

[Lintaga]

i think ive decided on partial hanging.

 

[Mardiha]

I would love to get ahold of N (as many of us would, I imagine), but I think I have narrowed it down to SN or firearm as the most likely choices for me! I will probably look into getting two methods, just to have options.

I primarily worry about finding a place to do things in private without being found, as I do have roommates, but I don't want to make too much of a mess in a hotel. Maybe I should lay down a tarp beforehand? It's a silly thing to worry about, but I don't want anyone to go through much fuss afterwards.
Have you decided? :3

I thought I was only one worried about mess in hotel…I actually bought a tarp and bringing my own blanket and pillow…I don't want them charging my credit card a ton and then family has to pay it off. I am also looking at SN or Ami cocktail and can't decide which would be easier to swallow and keep down…even with an AE.

I didnt crush them, i put small handfuls in my mouth and washed them down with liquid, could barely taste the stuff. I cant remember if this was all of it but that was approx what it looked like

https://scontent.fbhx2-1.fna.fbcdn.net/v/t34.18173-12/13515365_1624753537665887_1573699187_n.jpg?_nc_cat=110&ccb=1-5&_nc_sid=ae9488&_nc_ohc=0wV7uqyhkMMAX8jbyqi&_nc_ht=scontent.fbhx2-1.fna&oh=8578aeafd4238751f91a062ec94de3a3&oe=61A3142B

Thank you for sharing…that is a lot of pills…the PPH said to crush and add water…which scares me because the taste is so bitter and I don't wanna puke it all up…but I'm afraid if I don't do it that way they will take too long to dissolve in my stomach and I'll wake up…even though I am taking some benzos and also some zolpidem…I don't have as many as you did. Can I ask if you took any anti nausea meds beforehand? Thank you

 

[Shadowplay]

N.

 

[Elegy]

I was leaning toward sn last week, and I did try to place an order. But now I'm thinking, my 9mm Beretta Cougar with hollow points is... much more appropriate, when and if the time comes. I would love to say why, but ... Let's just say, that particular pistol and me, got a long and dark history. And it would be a fitting fate.

Oh and on an aside, that gun been stolen once, and confiscated by police twice. But she always comes back home to me. Tis as if..... she is an instrument of destiny.

Bonus. Double-action hammer. Just in case I'm uncertain. I got to pull the hammer all the way back before she will fire. Can't go off half-cocked.

 

[Shadowplay]

I was leaning toward sn last week, and I did try to place an order. But now I'm thinking, my 9mm Beretta with hollow points is... much more appropriate, when and if the time comes. I would love to say why, but ... Let's just say, that particular pistol and me, got a long and dark history.

Reads like the opening of a Raymond Chandler or Dashiel Hammet noir. :-P

 

[Death is beautiful]

N.

Do you already have it or are you planning to buy it?

 

[Shadowplay]

Do you already have it or are you planning to buy it?

Unfortunately just planning on buying it - just emailed D. tonight.

 

[Death is beautiful]

Unfortunately just planning on buying it - just emailed D. tonight.

Good luck

 

[Shadowplay]

Good luck

Cheers!

 

[FromGermany]

Due to lack of N, Nitrogen with a high premium Scuba full face mask with intregrated premium 2. stage, premium 1. stage, longer premium hose and premium adapter to connect the mask to the tank. Also dozens of small things, which has to be considered and integrated into the set.

All materials from the free market and for sure not from a rip-off underground website which claims, their products are premium, because they are not.. The opposite is the case. They are dangerous and do not work.

 

[HappyChipEater]

Full suspension hanging, hopefully in the next week or two. If I manage to find some time to be alone that is...

 

[Bedrock48]

I've decided on CO for my method, it was the easiest thing to aquire where I live that I felt comfortable using.

 

[Itsbeenalongtime]

I thought I was only one worried about mess in hotel…I actually bought a tarp and bringing my own blanket and pillow…I don't want them charging my credit card a ton and then family has to pay it off. I am also looking at SN or Ami cocktail and can't decide which would be easier to swallow and keep down…even with an AE.

Thank you for sharing…that is a lot of pills…the PPH said to crush and add water…which scares me because the taste is so bitter and I don't wanna puke it all up…but I'm afraid if I don't do it that way they will take too long to dissolve in my stomach and I'll wake up…even though I am taking some benzos and also some zolpidem…I don't have as many as you did. Can I ask if you took any anti nausea meds beforehand? Thank you

I didnt take anything but the zolpidem and amitryptiline, I actually dont remember taking the last pills as they acted a lot faster than I expected, I just passed out and I didnt throw anything up I've been told. In other words they startd to take effect before id fully finished taking them so doing it by the handful was a good idea, the faster you can get them all in you the better!

 

[Account unknown]

I would love to get ahold of N (as many of us would, I imagine), but I think I have narrowed it down to SN or firearm as the most likely choices for me! I will probably look into getting two methods, just to have options.

I primarily worry about finding a place to do things in private without being found, as I do have roommates, but I don't want to make too much of a mess in a hotel. Maybe I should lay down a tarp beforehand? It's a silly thing to worry about, but I don't want anyone to go through much fuss afterwards.
Have you decided? :3

no that's probably the main reason I'm here tbh, to find the most suitable/easy option for myself. I've tried half-hearted attempts to CTB when I was younger that I now realise would've never worked and I don't want to make that mistake again now I'm at the point of absolute certainty of CTB.

If I lived in the US I would've blown my brains out with a gun years ago but it's incredibly hard to get access to a powerful enough firearm where I live.

I've been reading about N and SN here and N sounds like a reasonable way to go (but would be extremely difficult for me to get hold of) but I'm not really convinced by what I've seen and read about SN… seems like it could actually be a bad way to go despite the many advocates for its usage here.

I'm at a loss at this point… N, inert gas or a gun would be my preferred methods but looking almost impossible, Inert gas is a possibility but I've seen lots of stuff about mask failures etc. I'm getting pretty desperate at this point and will probably end up CTB some crazy way out of impulse and suffer in my last moments but idk what else to do.

 

[FuneralCry]

It will likely be hanging. That is the way I have always imagined myself ctb. Hanging is the most accessible method for me. However I wish I had N, as that seems to be the most peaceful way to go. It is cruel how the society takes away the peaceful methods. We all deserve a peaceful exit at a time of our own choosing. Of course the main problems with hanging are the survival instinct and the fear of failure, but when I get desperate I will go through with it.

 

[LooksAtMoonDog]

My options are SN or Nitrogen, haven't decided which yet.

 

[Enigmatic Sailor]

Depends on my mood; if I'm in extreme pain, I would do an impulsive brutal method such as stabbing my throat or jumping from a water tower, because fuck it. If I'm in just a lowest of the low depression, probably SN, N, or CO.

 

[callme]

I'll first get some advice from Method Man.

 

[$nowLeopard]

I was leaning toward sn last week, and I did try to place an order. But now I'm thinking, my 9mm Beretta Cougar with hollow points is... much more appropriate, when and if the time comes. I would love to say why, but ... Let's just say, that particular pistol and me, got a long and dark history. And it would be a fitting fate.

Oh and on an aside, that gun been stolen once, and confiscated by police twice. But she always comes back home to me. Tis as if..... she is an instrument of destiny.

Bonus. Double-action hammer. Just in case I'm uncertain. I got to pull the hammer all the way back before she will fire. Can't go off half-cocked.

Be sure to research how to fire it appropriately to end your life.
IIRC through your mouth to the cerebellum is the best way, though I'm not sure.

 

[liberty_222]

I am going to try and see if i can get n. If not I'll go with SN.

 

[EliphasBlackwood]

Partial hanging.. I know there is a lot that could go wrong and I'm not exactly handy but I have enough time to get it right.

 

[Helpless77]

I would like to go with SN, but it seems to be hard to get it here, so right now it looks like hanging is my way out. Haven't decided on whether to do it partial or full suspension though. Have to do some more research