Discussion Have you decided on a method?

[Atraxa]

My SN just arrived 10 days early and a family member opened it and presented it to me. My brain has never worked so fast to explain what it's for

 

[VoidDesirer22]

Wa

no that's probably the main reason I'm here tbh, to find the most suitable/easy option for myself. I've tried half-hearted attempts to CTB when I was younger that I now realise would've never worked and I don't want to make that mistake again now I'm at the point of absolute certainty of CTB.

If I lived in the US I would've blown my brains out with a gun years ago but it's incredibly hard to get access to a powerful enough firearm where I live.

I've been reading about N and SN here and N sounds like a reasonable way to go (but would be extremely difficult for me to get hold of) but I'm not really convinced by what I've seen and read about SN… seems like it could actually be a bad way to go despite the many advocates for its usage here.

I'm at a loss at this point… N, inert gas or a gun would be my preferred methods but looking almost impossible, Inert gas is a possibility but I've seen lots of stuff about mask failures etc. I'm getting pretty desperate at this point and will probably end up CTB some crazy way out of impulse and suffer in my last moments but idk what else to do.

What makes you unconvinced about SN? There is a headache, but enough painkillers should handle it mostly.

My SN just arrived 10 days early and a family member opened it and presented it to me. My brain has never worked so fast to explain what it's for

Holy shit. What did you say?? That's so intrusive that they opened your package...

 

[Atraxa]

Wa

What makes you unconvinced about SN? There is a headache, but enough painkillers should handle it mostly.

Holy shit. What did you say?? That's so intrusive that they opened your package...

They know, even though they believe I'm not going to use it. They know what it's used for. So I think this plan is over now

 

[yellowjasmine88]

OD,

in two months as soon as some practical things are organised.

 

[After Life]

I didnt take anything but the zolpidem and amitryptiline, I actually dont remember taking the last pills as they acted a lot faster than I expected, I just passed out and I didnt throw anything up I've been told. In other words they startd to take effect before id fully finished taking them so doing it by the handful was a good idea, the faster you can get them all in you the better!

Zolpidem is just like zopiklon isn't it? So how many did you take of each? And what was the strength of zolpidem?