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Drimacus

Student
Jun 9, 2021
134
She made it look easy to overcome s.i.
I guess that is what it takes, an unbearable condition. RIP
Yes, she was so determined and desperate. I hope that everything ended successfully for her.
 
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watereyes

watereyes

les malheurs de lizzie
Mar 27, 2020
740
peace <3 sorry it has come to this.
 
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A_miStake_of_NATURE

A_miStake_of_NATURE

I wish no one had to CTB..........
Aug 14, 2020
703
Safe and peaceful journey.
I'm so sorry you've been suffering so much……. :heart: :heart: :heart: :heart: :'( :'( :'(
This world didn't deserve you.
 
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whitefeather

whitefeather

Thank the gods for Death
Apr 23, 2020
519
Brave one, eternal thanks .
 
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Myforevercharlie

Myforevercharlie

Illuminated
Feb 13, 2020
3,234
A little candle burns for you, may it guide your soul to love and peace
 
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Bungled & Botched

Bungled & Botched

Member
Jun 20, 2021
8
Seemed like she had a panic attack more than anything. Feel bad for her. She wanted to live but couldn't take the pain
 
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Largeletters

Largeletters

Alone
Jan 21, 2020
640
I'm sorry you are suffering so badly. If you are no longer with us, I hope you were able to go without any suffering.
 
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motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
7,081
Seemed like she had a panic attack more than anything. Feel bad for her. She wanted to live but couldn't take the pain

Yeah... I'm surprised that some people think "she made it look easy to overcome SI" :'(
 
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Bungled & Botched

Member
Jun 20, 2021
8
Yeah... I'm surprised that some people think "she made it look easy to overcome SI" :'(
No way. She was in terrible distress. Wish she could've had a chance to think about it more.
 
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lifeisbutadream

Warlock
Oct 4, 2018
797
God bless her. In time she will be reunited with her sweet daughter in a far better place.
 
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Pure

Specialist
Jun 29, 2021
366
Oh man, rest in peace. Her thread was heartbreaking and I could feel her suffering from her medical conditions. I sincerely hope her afterlife is peaceful.
 
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xrafinha

xrafinha

Member
Mar 29, 2021
87
No way. She was in terrible distress. Wish she could've had a chance to think about it more.
If you read her earlier comments you can tell she was very determined about it days prior to this thread. She was in terrible pain, yes, otherwise she wouldn't be here, same for many of us.
 
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darksoul931

darksoul931

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Jul 3, 2021
38
R.i.p.
Hope she wont wake up to suffer anymore
 
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Anonymous 4

Specialist
Jun 26, 2021
304
I have no other choice but to end my life. My health problems are absolutely and totally unbearable. They've ruined my life and I just cannot take them anymore. But here's my problem, I don't want to die. I just can't live like this. I really and truly can't.
My SN arrived the other day and domperidone is arriving today. I need to find the courage from somewhere to do this today. I know suicidal people say they are bringing their family down, but my health problems actually are.
I'm so scared of a painful death, I'm scared that the SN won't work and then what? I'll be sectioned and drugged and trapped even more.
I also have to do it at home but my partner will arrive back with my daughter and I don't want her to be scared and scarred by this. How can I prevent that from happening? Maybe a scheduled email to my partner to tell him not to come home and to take my daughter to her grandmas and call the police. I don't know. I just know that I can't go another day with the symptoms I'm experiencing that are getting worse with no hope of getting better.
I really hope he/she passed out and knew nothing afterwards, if he/is gone, horrible to read them say it burns, I hope they are at peace and free from the suffering, RIP who ever you are.
 
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Bungled & Botched

Member
Jun 20, 2021
8
If you read her earlier comments you can tell she was very determined about it days prior to this thread. She was in terrible pain, yes, otherwise she wouldn't be here, same for many of us.
Thanks, I did read the whole thread. And also live with crippling chronic pain but thought the decision she made to take her own life was made in a panicked manner.
 
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xrafinha

xrafinha

Member
Mar 29, 2021
87
Thanks, I did read the whole thread. And also live with crippling chronic pain but thought the decision she made to take her own life was made in a panicked manner.
I didn't mean earlier in this tread, I meant days earlier.
Yeah... I'm surprised that some people think "she made it look easy to overcome SI" :'(
Well, she did it though, didn't she? I don't believe she joined this forum, brought and learned about SN, proper regimen, then took it all in a panicked manner. It was her chooice and I respect it.
 
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Alwaysbadtime

Alwaysbadtime

Enlightened
Jun 28, 2021
1,158
She could be in the God damn hospital. No one knows. I hope she was successful because that's what she wanted. I admire her God damn fortitude. I have SN. When I get money I'm getting N. I hope to fuck I do it.
 
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Bungled & Botched

Member
Jun 20, 2021
8
I didn't mean earlier in this tread, I meant days earlier.

Well, she did it though, didn't she? I don't believe she joined this forum, brought and learned about SN, proper regimen, then took it all in a panicked manner. It was her chooice and I respect it.
Pretty hostile support group. I was just trying to offer my condolences.
 
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motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
7,081
Well, she did it though, didn't she? I don't believe she joined this forum, brought and learned about SN, proper regimen, then took it all in a panicked manner. It was her chooice and I respect it.

I respect her choice too. I hope she's finally free from this horrible existence. I didn't reply to her post because I'm a pro-lifer; I just didn't want her to get "saved" & end up in the hospital, sectioned & trapped. I think that she hadn't thought her attempt through carefully enough & that she was panicked because she didn't even know how long it takes people to die when they ingest SN (it often takes longer than 3 hours, which is all that she had at her disposal that day) & because she wrote this a couple of hours before taking it:
But here's my problem, I don't want to die. I just can't live like this. (...)
My SN arrived the other day and domperidone is arriving today. I'm so scared of a painful death, I'm scared that the SN won't work and then what? (...)
my partner will arrive back with my daughter and I don't want her to be scared and scarred by this. How can I prevent that from happening? Maybe a scheduled email to my partner to tell him not to come home and to take my daughter to her grandmas and call the police. I don't know.

I hope people can learn something about the importance of planning from this sad thread :I
 
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Nohopeinhell

Nohopeinhell

Member
Mar 1, 2020
90
Last active 3 hours ago. Are you still here?
 
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Pharmaruined

Nobody gets out alive
Sep 10, 2020
247
If you're still with us get on NAC. I guarantee it will provide some relief if not cure you altogether. It is an amino acid specifically for respiratory issues and is amazing. Good luck
 
aminend

aminend

Warlock
May 24, 2020
746
Last active 3 hours ago. Are you still here?
If she is alive i hope she comes and say hers story but I think that's police or a family member.
 
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xrafinha

xrafinha

Member
Mar 29, 2021
87
I respect her choice too. I hope she's finally free from this horrible existence. I didn't reply to her post because I'm a pro-lifer; I just didn't want her to get "saved" & end up in the hospital, sectioned & trapped. I think that she hadn't thought her attempt through carefully enough & that she was panicked because she didn't even know how long it takes people to die when they ingest SN (it often takes longer than 3 hours, which is all that she had at her disposal that day) & because she wrote this a couple of hours before taking it:


I hope people can learn something about the importance of planning from this sad thread :I
I take your point.
 
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WitheringAway

WitheringAway

Ima shake the champagne bottle...
Jun 23, 2020
404
This is heartbreaking! I'm so distraught to the point where I felt like I lost my breath reading the way she described her suffering. I'm sorry I missed this. May you Rest In Peace kind mother. Your daughter will understand why you did it.
 
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xBrialesana

xBrialesana

Become Dust With Me, My Love.
Dec 17, 2019
552
This was hard. I hope everything went as planned, I hope she's finally resting and not in pain. Last seen July 9 so maybe family popped in. Regardless, best wishes and rip
 

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