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OnnanokoNiNaritai

OnnanokoNiNaritai

💗女の子になりたい 💗
Jan 9, 2026
56
Well i know that transgender people are about 10 times more likely to experience any type of suicide tought but it still seems so weird to find so many transgender users.
Anyone else finds this unsettling?
 
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eggsausagerice

eggsausagerice

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Apr 21, 2025
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i kind of like being able to have a sense of community even if it's morbid that other trans people like me are having intense suicidal thoughts. i think that it's because it's another thing trans people are meant to regardless of if we're in the closet or openly transitioning because of how isolated depressed people are. 4chan also has a similarly big trans userbase where users vent about their personal issues. i consider suicide forums that have trans people a safe space when cis people often talk over my issues or downplay them. i also think that being a trans person is usually such an alienating and depressing experiencing that it makes sense that so many are suicidal. it's rare to have an accepting family, have a community, or find partners that are able to accept you.
 
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Braindead Girl

Braindead Girl

Alice (She/her)
Jul 16, 2026
18
Being trans honestly sucks just it's hard living when the world is unable to accept you for who you are. And you're having to fight to just be who you wish to be. At least it's nice to know that there are others like me out there feeling the same things
 
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OnnanokoNiNaritai

OnnanokoNiNaritai

💗女の子になりたい 💗
Jan 9, 2026
56
It id actually absurd that if im nit crazy 1 in 2 trans people have suicidal toughts.
Like that shit is too much wtf.
I dont see a singke soul talking about this and it is so weird that its alsou about 1 in 4 who attempts sui ide and 1 in 8 u succeeds (i am not 100% sure of this statistics)
LIKE ARE U TELLING ME THAT IF I SEE 8 TRANS PEOPLE ONE OF THEM WILL KILL THEMSELVES?
Its just stupid, being trans is stupid but it is also cuz its hard that it feels so good when u manage to be happy whit your body ect. Ofc it is not a rly fair trade-off but we gotta work whit what we have ig
 
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rest2love

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Nov 5, 2021
30
Yes its unsettling and this world makes living with gender dysphoria extremely difficult because of how brainwashed most people are.
 
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N-methylamphetamine

N-methylamphetamine

Experienced
Jul 6, 2022
255
Well i know that transgender people are about 10 times more likely to experience any type of suicide tought but it still seems so weird to find so many transgender users.
Anyone else finds this unsettling?
Because the world, even "progressive" (lmao) countries hate trans people.
 
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JustADeerGirl

JustADeerGirl

God doesn't forgive, but I do ♥
Feb 6, 2023
136
It's scary, but on one hand it's nice to have people like me to talk to without having to shift through discord servers to find people I may or may not relate to besides being transgender, and don't get me started on finding people irl, christ.
 
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OnnanokoNiNaritai

OnnanokoNiNaritai

💗女の子になりたい 💗
Jan 9, 2026
56
Now i am actually curious to see how much % of this forum is actually transgender
I mean i could calculate how many people are transgender out of everyone who has suicidal toughts but it would not be that accurate
 
HappyPotato69

HappyPotato69

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May 3, 2026
20
its hell being trans, people will always see you as your birth gender, and even sometimes other trans ppl brainwashed by the amount of cis ppl say that were not like cis women/men, as if theres any difference between a fully transitioned trans woman and cis woman other than a uterus. its so disheartening when u realize how many ppl hate us, or tolerate us but see us as our birth sex its basically my number 1 reason to ctb
 
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OnnanokoNiNaritai

OnnanokoNiNaritai

💗女の子になりたい 💗
Jan 9, 2026
56
It's just unfair and there id nothing we can do.
Best option is to fully tramsition and hide your gender from almost everyone although that requires a rly high level of transitioning but its the only way for ppl to not annoy u
 
HappyPotato69

HappyPotato69

Member
May 3, 2026
20
It's just unfair and there id nothing we can do.
Best option is to fully tramsition and hide your gender from almost everyone although that requires a rly high level of transitioning but its the only way for ppl to not annoy u
yeah thats what im planning to, thats called going stealth but if ur dating u have to disclose ur trans before anything intimate or else youre putting yourself at massive risk of being hatecrimed or called a rapist and whatnot which sucks so bad too
 
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DoomsdayCTB

DoomsdayCTB

Student
Apr 24, 2026
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Not at all. Passing is like life or death for them...

If I was ever trans, specifically a trans woman; or even schizophrenic, I'd definitely CTB. I'm only bipolar, so I'm close to that. I just can't imagine not wanting to live in my body or hearing voices. I'm so glad people have the internet to get tutorials and have fun with that stuff. Get better gender-affirming care. Hope it helps.
 
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OnnanokoNiNaritai

OnnanokoNiNaritai

💗女の子になりたい 💗
Jan 9, 2026
56
Its more people like u that we need...
 
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Braindead Girl

Braindead Girl

Alice (She/her)
Jul 16, 2026
18
Being trans and not passing honestly feels like a death sentence I've been physically attacked before and this was before i started medically transitioning for simply having a trans pin on my bag. It just hurts so much how existing in most spaces as a trans person will get you looked at with suspicion
 
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OnnanokoNiNaritai

OnnanokoNiNaritai

💗女の子になりたい 💗
Jan 9, 2026
56
Being trans and not passing honestly feels like a death sentence I've been physically attacked before and this was before i started medically transitioning for simply having a trans pin on my bag. It just hurts so much how existing in most spaces as a trans person will get you looked at with suspicion
I get looked at all the time too and i look closer to non binary than to trans fem.
I just wish all of humanity could die in a secound.
We are all so stupid
 
DoomsdayCTB

DoomsdayCTB

Student
Apr 24, 2026
102
Its more people like u that we need...
You just have to have patience with people. I only know so much about what trans people are going through because I watched a lot of Drag Race and many of the queens transitioned. It got me interested in just knowing about you guys and the procedures. Asked questions on Reddit. I really don't want children to be on the drugs because of the future health problems, but I understand that it helps passing in the future. It's a constant mindfuck for you guys, i'm certain. It's never been so public...you just have to be patient with people and especially yourself. I don't fully understand the experience, but here if you ever want to chat. I'm not Gen Z though, so have patience lol. I just recently met my 2nd transman a few weeks ago! And I didn't ask and misgendered them (they weren't there) because in my mind, I thought they might be a lesbian with PCOS and I didn't want to assume. Just patience and understanding I know I keep saying lol. People don't mean to misgender you, you just might be the first transperson they've ever met!

Your life is up to you, but don't give up on yourself as you are blooming. You haven't met your final version yet. Big hugs.
 
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Braindead Girl

Braindead Girl

Alice (She/her)
Jul 16, 2026
18
I get looked at all the time too and i look closer to non binary than to trans fem.
I just wish all of humanity could die in a secound.
We are all so stupid
I try to just boymode nowadays or just dress non-binary but still the stares and the comments just don't give me confidence in humanity
 
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FF777

FF777

I am male..
Jul 21, 2019
108
i've had gender dysphoria my whole life and it was bad enough during my teenage years that i was suicidal.. for me though when i thought about the transgender option it seemed like a rough road to go down and it seemed like it would take a lot of work and i'm kind of lazy and didn't really want to bother with a giant task like that, and i was kind of paranoid thinking like "what if things don't turn out right when i try this?".. i kind of think of it like neo trying to jump across those buildings..... if you don't 100% make it over completely then you are kind of stuck in the middle where you might not look exactly like either gender, and i didn't really want to be in that type of spot.. i hope that doesn't sound too perfectionist, but i kind of thought i'm either going to be 100% a guy or 100% a girl.. and so i decided it would just be best for me to continue living as male.. but over the years i slowly got used to being male and now i don't mind it, although i'd still prefer being female if i were reincarnated..

and so i think you see a high degree of suicidal transgender people because i think a lot of times it is hard to make that jump completely, and society expects you to be this cookie-cutter dichotomy of like either you are male or female and if you some where in between there they see you as some weird abomination and shun you..

it isn't an easy world to be in for those who choose to go down the transgender path.. i really wish the world had alien-level technology that could completely transition a person in to what ever they want to be so they could be happy being in the body they want to be in and it would be 100% so society would actually accept them and not treat them harshly.. it sucks being in a body you don't like at all and it's sucky that with out the transgender path you are suck with the options of either "get used to it" or "better luck next life (CTB option)"..
 
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HappyPotato69

HappyPotato69

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May 3, 2026
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I really don't want children to be on the drugs because of the future health problems, but I understand that it helps passing in the future.
there is no future health problems at all, unless theyre actually cis then i guess the effects of transitioning is considered a problem
you just might be the first transperson they've ever met!
ik this is just a misunderstanding, but u should call them trans people, trans women, trans men. grouping the word makes them sound like a third category rather than a type of man/woman, kinda like how you say black woman rather than blackwoman
i've had gender dysphoria my whole life and it was bad enough during my teenage years that i was suicidal.. for me though when i thought about the transgender option it seemed like a rough road to go down and it seemed like it would take a lot of work and i'm kind of lazy and didn't really want to bother with a giant task like that, and i was kind of paranoid thinking like "what if things don't turn out right when i try this?".. i kind of think of it like neo trying to jump across those buildings..... if you don't 100% make it over completely then you are kind of stuck in the middle where you might not look exactly like either gender, and i didn't really want to be in that type of spot.. i hope that doesn't sound too perfectionist, but i kind of thought i'm either going to be 100% a guy or 100% a girl.. and so i decided it would just be best for me to continue living as male.. but over the years i slowly got used to being male and now i don't mind it, although i'd still prefer being female if i were reincarnated..
u sound like such a trans person, i recommend getting on hrt and still present as male, and if your lucky enough you can pass with makeup on and such, but it will take A WHILE. js to let yk tho hrt has literally 0 side effects other than what its supposed to do and if u cant get it from a doctor i can tell u how to buy it online but itll cost u like 120 a year
 
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delinquentsandwich

delinquentsandwich

Student
Jan 23, 2026
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being trans feels like being in a special type of purgatory

unwelcome everywhere I go and the constant dysphoria
queer spaces can be a mixed bag sometimes

I want to meet other queer people in real life but there's just nowhere
it's really depressing
 
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DoomsdayCTB

DoomsdayCTB

Student
Apr 24, 2026
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there is no future health problems at all, unless theyre actually cis then i guess the effects of transitioning is considered a problem

ik this is just a misunderstanding, but u should call them trans people, trans women, trans men. grouping the word makes them sound like a third category rather than a type of man/woman, kinda like how you say black woman rather than blackwoman
that's interesting, I used transperson as a singular noun since it's a 50/50 on if you're meeting a single man or woman in this hypothetical. but see patience. understanding. learn something new. no pitchforks ;)
 
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DeathSweetDeath

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Nov 12, 2025
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Yes of course, I noticed it first on Reddit's suicide watch. It's unfortunate. I feel badly every time I read a new goodbye post by someone trans.
 
eggsausagerice

eggsausagerice

last chance for cake! 🍰☕️ he/him
Apr 21, 2025
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ik this is just a misunderstanding, but u should call them trans people, trans women, trans men. grouping the word makes them sound like a third category rather than a type of man/woman, kinda like how you say black woman rather than blackwoman
I used transperson as a singular noun since it's a 50/50 on if you're meeting a single man or woman in this hypothetical. but see patience. understanding. learn something new. no pitchforks ;)

agreeing with what @HappyPotato69 said and saying my own take on "transperson" as a phrase. i do get that you aren't familiar with the trans community but a lot of cis people have the tendency to call trans people "a trans" or "transgenders", rather than trans people or the trans community. i'm glad that you're open to educating yourself and receiving criticism.

If I was ever trans, specifically a trans woman; or even schizophrenic, I'd definitely CTB. I'm only bipolar, so I'm close to that. I just can't imagine not wanting to live in my body or hearing voices.

i know you didn't mean this in a derogatory way but it made me feel a little disturbed. as a trans person its painful to hear that a cis person would rather die than live as trans. it's kind of degrading and most of us dont want to hear that it'd be easier to kill yourself than deal with gender dysphoria. i know you were just trying to relate, but comments like this can feel hurtful for the people you're talking about. i don't want to feel like i'm suffering more than you.
 
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ihateittoo

ihateittoo

currently failing at my transition, she/her!!
Jun 9, 2026
66
i think it tracks, i mean people dont make 41% jokes for no reason. as a trans woman its nice to know im not alone here. i think living with gender dysphoria would make anyone insane. Ive always believed the 41% statistic to be an understatement. I bet theres so many people who want to transition, never mention it to a soul, then kill themselves and take it to the grave. I think its hard to count that because they didnt live as trans, but its something ive always thought about. going out as a trans woman is a nightmare, even in places I know there will be lots of other trans people I still get uneasy. Life will probably never be as easy for me as it is for the people around me because of me being trans. i hope all my trans sisters and brothers find peace
 
Passenger4224

Passenger4224

I appreciate everything that can kill me.
Mar 8, 2026
372
There is a reason being suicidal is a trans stereotype. A very large percentage of trans people off themselves.

All you want to do is something as harmless as change your body to be more accurate to who you are. And the population reacts by throwing a hissy fit.

And even if you're surrounded by supportive people, you are still stuck with the wrong body structure. And a history of being raised as the other gender. Your ability to build a fulfilling life for yourself significantly depends on how well you pass. And you have to put in so much effort just to be your gender, when you would not have had to if you were born the right way.

There's a reason I made multiple posts stating "being trans is a death sentence". I am living the most hellish existence I could've gotten.

I really can't wait to get the hell out of this world
 
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