Damned if you do and damned if you don't. If you don't tell anyone they'll say "I wish I could have helped", "I wish I could of said goodbye", "I wish they would have reached out to me", or "They were always so happy". If you do tell people they'll say you're being manipulative, trying to get attention, etc. If you die, you're selfish. If you live, you were trying to get attention and you're selfish. If suicide is so damn selfish then why do pro-lifers always make it about them? "They wanted my attention", they say. "They wanted to hurt me," they say.