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TragedyBornCrimson

TragedyBornCrimson

I accept my eternal punishment
Oct 19, 2023
244
My emotions get stored until they burst. When I cry it's like a thunderstorm, but never in front of people. I store it and just look numb most of the time.
 
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Wanting yet Unable

Wanting yet Unable

Member
Oct 21, 2020
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I find it nearly impossible to do so these days with the exception of last month. It felt weird and difficult to do. I also felt ashamed doing it even though I was alone. In the past I always felt better after crying but not so much this time. No relief.
 
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h78272

h78272

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Oct 3, 2023
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i think a lot of simple things can stress me out so much i feel it in my heart and the only way i think of relieving that feeling is to either cry it out but i only ever get teary eyed. whenever i do want to cry about things i can reasonably be upset over, i cant ever get those tears out and its even more stressful; i can feel pressure build up in my head and my heart just starts to hurt. my voice though, still gets shaky and my nose still gets runny. im embarrassed when i cry but sometimes i just want to bawl my eyes out and i just cant anymore
 
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Moniker

Moniker

Student
Nov 1, 2023
117
I cried like a year and a half ago while reading counseling options. I think I cried again at my dad's funeral, but I wasn't really sad - just emotional. I sometimes feel my eyes tear up, but I never end up crying. Beyond those two moments, I haven't cried in years.

I cried a lot during my childhood up until my late teens, but I've gone mostly numb since then.
 
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dontwakemeup

Paragon
Nov 11, 2024
909
I don't cry as often anymore because I cut everyone off, now I'm at peace. I cry sometimes, but that's because I get lonely with myself and my old thoughts. I purchased a small tape recorder and if I need to vent I use that as a diary and release. I guess I've become so numb and so detached.
 
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BimbleBob

BimbleBob

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Oct 28, 2024
50
I pretty much never cry now, but sometimes something will affect me on a deeply personal level and all the pain I've accumulated throughout the years will come out and I'll cry for hours. Once I'm finished, it's back to being numb and emotionless for months or even years.
 
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