Discussion Has disgust ever contributed to you wanting to ctb ?

[Anomie]

I'm not sure if I'm the only one, but my aversion to nature and my body is the main reason I want to ctb. Like I am disgusted by my body and lifeforms in general. I view living things as elemental sacks that eat, shit and fuck. I think about the futility of this often and I don't get how no one else would and goes for pleasure and goals on autopilot without thinking about it.

 

[soonatpeace777888]

Yes, humans are gross. The way we remove waste has always been revolting to me.

 

[Anomie]

Yes, humans are gross. The way we remove waste has always been revolting to me.

Like your body, living things and Earth are unavoidable. This isn't some 'temporary emotional problem' that most suicidal ideation is from.

 

[todienomore]

efilism: a philosophical position based on observations of reality that all sentient beings do not produce anything except waste and suffering and should go extinct.

 

[suicidalenby]

I think I'm less disgusted at the actual act of being alive, a lot less of an "ew" factor, but the things that people do definitely disgust me. torture, rape, trafficking, racism, homophobia, etc are all things that make me hate being alive in this world. specifically in the united states. i think that maybe if the world that i was forced to live in wasn't quite so treacherous and unforgiving, then maybe it wouldn't be so bad.

 

[Anomie]

To add onto this: even when I feel 'good' I still feel like being dead or not existent in the first place would be better than existing at all. Like pleasure isn't worth the vileness.

 

[Notbadenough]

My body is definitely my biggest issue, I tried to literally amputate some parts of it because i felt disgusted by looking at myself, every time i look in the mirror, a strange feeling passes through my head and tells me: DO IT.

 

[theRetroHawk]

I'm not sure if I'm the only one, but my aversion to nature and my body is the main reason I want to ctb. Like I am disgusted by my body and lifeforms in general. I view living things as elemental sacks that eat, shit and fuck. I think about the futility of this often and I don't get how no one else would and goes for pleasure and goals on autopilot without thinking about it.

Yeah it disgusts me how life is based around simply getting a dopamine response and that's it's. Rich people can afford to get all the dopamine they want while poor people like myself have to work just to maybe touch a bit of dopamine

 

[HoleintheDark]

Honestly, it's only the human body that is disgusting for me. We just have one set of permanent teeth that is constantly deteriorating. Our bare skin is susceptible to infection and disease. And our brains are only developed enough to fully experience the suffering caused by all of it. I would be happier even if I was just some pathetic little worm in the dirt. All I would ever worry about is birds and drying up in the sun.

 

[ringo99]

Just weariness in my case. I've cried, raged, despaired, rationalized and ultimately got worn down by life to the point where I'm just sick of going on and want to end it all

 

[MrDarkness]

I love humanity but I also hate it, it's disgusting what things humans are truly capable of

 

[Praestat_Mori]

First of all you personal reasons are fully legit. But actually I do not understand how someone can hate natural behaviours.

 

[pole]

I appreciate nature and different life forms, especially animals. they have an innocence to them that I cannot explain, and the way they're treated by humans is a disgust that pushes me to CTB even more.

like you, I hate most people. however, my immense self-hatred towards who I am and my body is what pushes me to CTB. I am tired of being ME, and the disgusting that fills me everyday is too much.

the only way to escape myself is CTB.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm certainly disgusted by existence, I think it's something so dreadful being enslaved in a decaying flesh prison, where we are slaves our suffering with unlimited potential for the prison that is the human body to torture us. To me existence is just so burdensome and unnecessary, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for, I see existence itself as being the true problem, existence just causes harm.