Has anyone else actually ended up feeling LESS suicidal since joining?

[chris8000]

It is somehow comforting.

 

[Catchingdabus27]

Def less impulsively suicidal. Makes me calm knowing I have a plan and i can really have control & do it right. So yess but no.

 

[TAW122]

Yes, initially. I believe this place has always made me less suicidal and has never made me MORE suicidal. It's the world and society as well as IRL around me that pushes me closer to CTB rather than this place. This place is like my secret sanctuary where I am able to speak about these topics without censorship or fear of consequences/persecution.

 

[EmptyArms]

The support system here is unbelievable. Never felt so close to so many in such a short time. It's beautiful and helped. I can't promise I am going to live through this bout of depression, but I like coming here.

I really hope you do. I'm so glad you are feeling a little better.

Me. I have actually made a full recovery from my illness with the support of the people here. I owe you my life guys.

I love hearing this. What an amazing thing to have found right what you need right here. Kind of funny that a place that sanctions suicide has saved your life. It's the freedom to choose that stops the feeling of being pushed into a corner.

 

[scorchedearth]

Hasn't really changed anything for me, but it's nice to have a place where people can be honest about these things.

 

[Taki]

No change for me. I learned a bit more about how to hang myself.

 

[Caycee]

I've come in when I am at my worst and at the point of feeling it is time to get things in order. Then, I hear from a few people, and some time passes, and change happens, and I do feel lighter and more expansive. Talking it out with a supportive group who gives me permission to die if I wish does have a transformative effect for awhile. For me, this has been the greatest gift of the forum. Second is all the information provided in case that moment arrives when I truly am ready. This group has been a gift to me, though I do, for the most part, only appear during that period of "no more chances." I always intend to devote myself to simple study of methods when I'm in a steady state of being, but I have only gone so far. A lot to learn here and a demanding life out there.

 

[lofistos345]

I feel calm knowing how to CTB peacefully. Not knowing how to properly die was a huge stress factor for me. I have all my gear with me I sleep better at night.

Visiting the forum does make me really depressed. So many in the forum are suffering from problems that I can relate to it that they have to CTB. It's sad that we live in a world of so much suffering.

 

[LegaliseIt!]

I feel slightly less suicidal since joining due to being able to relate with others, though still suicidal

So many of us love you Squiddy! Thank you for being here even when you want to be alone. You help me to get through every single day! (((Hugs)))

 

[Morphinekiss]

Being able to openly talk has been helpful and has helped me stick to my original plan of waiting to ctb for many years.
At the same time I see people forming friendships and connections on here and I can't manage to do that so I feel even more isolated/useless/inept which feeds my loneliness.

 

[Quarky00]

No... But made me calm & confident

Members here speak in complete accordance with how I feel. I'm less distraught. Where ever I go nowadays it feels like there is an army behind me. Had circumstances changed I'm sure SS would have made me recover. This unconditional acceptance is extremely empowering.

 

[morningdew]

a little less. people here understand. helps to know that I'm not the only one struggling on this level

 

[dandan]

Me. I have actually made a full recovery from my illness with the support of the people here. I owe you my life guys.

What does this mean? That just venting and reading replies did the trick for you??? You didn't tried therapists before? You did this without medication?

 

[Jean4]

Being able to openly talk has been helpful and has helped me stick to my original plan of waiting to ctb for many years.
At the same time I see people forming friendships and connections on here and I can't manage to do that so I feel even more isolated/useless/inept which feeds my loneliness.

Cough. And am I chopped liver? Hmmmmm?

 

[Squiddy]

So many of us love you Squiddy! Thank you for being here even when you want to be alone. You help me to get through every single day! (((Hugs)))

This made my day :) thank you

 

[Morphinekiss]

Cough. And am I chopped liver? Hmmmmm?

I am coming out of my shell slowly thanks to you . I need time, like a hermit crab.

 

[Jean4]

I am coming out of my shell slowly thanks to you . I need time, like a hermit crab.

MMM.... Crab....

This made my day :) thank you

Get to work Squidmeister! We are at war ;)

 

[dandan]

90% less suicidal thanks to testosterone and dianabol therapy
The 10% left it's because life can be hard trying to recover from 20 years of depression and medication . I need to figure this out and do something about it.

 

[Jean4]

90% less suicidal thanks to testosterone and dianabol therapy
The 10% left it's because life can be hard trying to recover from 20 years of depression and medication . I need to figure this out and do something about it.

Bipolar here, which switched to major depression. I started over at age 40. Meds do wonders. I understand.

 

[Squiddy]

Bipolar here, which switched to major depression. I started over at age 40. Meds do wonders. I understand.

I'm still trying to find the right med combo for me

 

[Jean4]

I'm still trying to find the right med combo for me

You will get it. Takes time. I am still trying to find the right Asthma meds. Happens with anything.

 

[Sensei]

Bipolar here, which switched to major depression. I started over at age 40. Meds do wonders. I understand.

Are you bipolar too?! Well, it would explain some things. Or do you mean that you were misdiagnosed as bipolar?

 

[Squiddy]

You will get it. Takes time. I am still trying to find the right Asthma meds. Happens with anything.

I recently picked up my new Lithium prescription, but am afraid to take it because I heard about Lithium toxicity

 

[Jean4]

Are you bipolar too?! Well, it would explain some things. Or do you mean that you were misdiagnosed as bipolar?

I was Bipolar as a teenager. Loved it! Got so much done when I was manic (just had spending problems.)

Now I warped into Major Depression. No mania.

I recently picked up my new Lithium prescription, but am afraid to take it because I heard about Lithium toxicity

Lithium can be good. I was in it. Get your bloodwork. Then you don't have to worry.

 

[awfullife]

It feels good to talk about CTB for me. It is still sad to read about members who catch the bus in real time on the board.

 

[Jean4]

It feels good to talk about CTB for me. It is still sad to read about members who catch the bus in real time on the board.

It doesn't get easier, but you get used to it. :)

 

[Squiddy]

I was Bipolar as a teenager. Loved it! Got so much done when I was manic (just had spending problems.)

Now I warped into Major Depression. No mania.

Lithium can be good. I was in it. Get your bloodwork. Then you don't have to worry.

I haven't had mania in months and sorta miss it

 

[Jean4]

I haven't had mania in months and sorta miss it

I understand. But without it, you are considered normal.

 

[Edward1]

which book?

Quite clearly the book is called 'Web Page Not Available'. Very fitting in my humble opinion.

 

[Squiddy]

I understand. But without it, you are considered normal.

Now I just have this awful depression