Has anyone else actually ended up feeling LESS suicidal since joining?

[anchored_astronaut]

I know it might sound insane but... just having a place to state my thoughts without being deemed exactly that has made it easier to face the days. Just knowing that there are people who believe me when I say those days aren't worth it makes them more tolerable. Knowing there are people who understand that I feel more pain than pleasure in this life. I still think I'll catch the bus, eventually, but not as acutely as I'd intended to when I joined the site. In a way, it's loosened a loose, for me at least.

 

[The nerd]

I feel the same. It does help having people you can tell anything to though.

 

[anchored_astronaut]

I feel the same. It does help having people you can tell anything to though.

Exactly. Just being able to say "my life sucks and I want to die" without having all that "it isn't so bad!" "other people have it worse!" "just call a therapist!" (like i didn't try that???) is so relieving. It makes it easier to be able to be honest about how hard it.

 

[The nerd]

Exactly. Just being able to say "my life sucks and I want to die" without having all that "it isn't so bad!" "other people have it worse!" "just call a therapist!" (like i didn't try that???) is so relieving. It makes it easier to be able to be honest about how hard it.

The support system here is unbelievable. Never felt so close to so many in such a short time. It's beautiful and helped. I can't promise I am going to live through this bout of depression, but I like coming here.

 

[LivingToLong]

Initially, yes. Being able to say things (well, type them into the void) made me feel better. And reading other peoples stories, that gave my cause to reflect. Also, some people here write so well and I got to enjoy simply reading what people wrote.

But lately, I don't know. I think the words might be starting to get to me too much. I'm not sure it's good for me to keep reading, maybe I should take a break for a while.

 

[jake3d]

Me. I have actually made a full recovery from my illness with the support of the people here. I owe you my life guys.

 

[anchored_astronaut]

Initially, yes. Being able to say things (well, type them into the void) made me feel better. And reading other peoples stories, that gave my cause to reflect. Also, some people here write so well and I got to enjoy simply reading what people wrote.

But lately, I don't know. I think the words might be starting to get to me too much. I'm not sure it's good for me to keep reading, maybe I should take a break for a while.

Do whatever you think is best for you. As much as we value each other here, we value people leaving here even more, I think. I hope there comes a time all of us get what we need and log off for good. And I think all of us do. And that's why it's so special.

 

[k75]

I'm definitely doing better now than when I joined. I'm not fixed, and I'm still very suicidal, but I'm able to manage it much better now. I was inspired to give recovery a shot. I've still got my SN and supplies in a little box though.

 

[anchored_astronaut]

Me. I have actually made a full recovery from my illness with the support of the people here. I owe you my life guys.

Yess omg this made me so happy it made my whole day. no, my whole week. month. hell, this is too amazing to explain! this is why i think it's so important to have places we can just be. we aren't actually encouraging, glamorizing, or promoting damaging behaviors. we're just accepting that they exist and discussing them. i don't think silence has ever helped anyone. in fact i think silence can kill. we need to be able to speak. even if what we say is uncomfortable for a lot of people.

 

[jgm63]

Me. I have actually made a full recovery from my illness with the support of the people here. I owe you my life guys.

A very beautiful thing to read.....

 

[amnotreal]

the urge to act impulsively is a lot milder. it is a relief to have a place to talk about stuff.

 

[Worthless_nobody]

Being able to talk here without judgement and meeting some kind wonderful people who I consider friends has definitely helped me. I no longer feel alone and alienated in my thoughts and feelings.

 

[thepolarbear]

It certainly helps to know you're not alone and other people face the same struggles as I do. Hang in there, guys.

 

[mediocre]

I'm not less suicidal but I have calmed down a bit. About a month ago I was on the verge of a panic attack but then I found SS and learned about SN. Now I am more focused. Knowing there are others out there with similar issues has also helped.

 

[Azzy69]

I still feel miserable, but my social skills have slightly improved. Before I joined SS I could go days without human interaction

 

[jgm63]

The title of this thread is funny.
It almost sounds like you're looking for a refund....

 

[Sensei]

My suicidal drive is both chemical and psychological, so it's a difficult struggle, but I do feel less suicidal since I joined this forum. It's easier to live in darkness if you know you're not alone.

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[Squiddy]

I feel slightly less suicidal since joining due to being able to relate with others, though still suicidal

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Being here makes me feel more suicidal but I like it.

 

[Jean4]

No. However, I am able to COPE better. I will never be less suicidal. I am here. Without the forum, I would not be.

Sometimes we cannot be cured, and need to learn coping techniques to be able to deal. This is what the forum has done for me.

 

[LivingToLong]

I'm not sure that I cope, I think I kind of just live with the feelings because, well, what choice do I have? That is, other than the choice that seems already made for me. I try to keep myself occupied with trivial tasks, putting off the inevitable, but it really does feel like I'm simply biding my time until the time comes. I mean, I can only see one solution. It's there waiting for me, not going away.

 

[LMLN]

I think for me the suicidal feelings are there regardless. This place just gives me a place to talk about it without judgement. I think I've stayed longer because of this. No guarantees I'll never ctb...but that is the case anyway. I'd say this forum/website will keep me here longer.

 

[dumdumdedum]

SS has sharpened my mind towards suicide. it has led to me to thinkers such as simon critchley and emil cioran who have led me to a more nuanced, philosophically sophisticated approach to suicidality.

does it make me less suicidal? dunno. but it has led to new modes of thinking.

 

[OneBigBlur]

SS has sharpened my mind towards suicide. it has led to me to thinkers such as simon critchley and emil cioran who have led me to a more nuanced, philosophically sophisticated approach to suicidality.

does it make me less suicidal? dunno. but it has led to new modes of thinking.

I'd recommend this book:

Amazon product ASIN 0815609906

 

[Carina]

Feeling less suicidal? Hasn't happened yet in my life. Honestly shy of just not knowing a painless/guaranteed way all those years and I wouldn't have made it this long. I found this place... well.. looking for just that, a painless way (the forum wasn't the main link, but it was on the page).

Being here even for a short while, has made it that it's a bit easier to last longer, even though the desire to leave is stronger than me living. I have to consciously, logically, systematically block attempts. At least here, I don't have to lie. I'm not alone.

 

[dumdumdedum]

I'd recommend this book:

Amazon product ASIN 0815609906

which book?

 

[ArtsyDrawer]

This site made me weirdly cuddly.
I'm saying weirdly because I still hate being touched IRL, but if I could, I could arrange an establishment of sorts, a bar or something, where SS members can and do meet regularly, I would turn into an energetic anime schoolgirl and pounce on everybody like so.

 

[BPD Barbie]

It's a safe haven. If I can't get on here for whatever reason I feel angsty. It's such a comforting place, you know you can get real support here from people who are in the same place as you. There is no judgement, no condescending comments. Just love and support. While it hasn't made me less suicidal as such, it's made my remaining time easier, that's for sure.

 

[Daffodil]

I already feel relief since I have a plan for going. I feel more relief knowing I am not alone.

 

[Despondent]

Same here! It's nice to have others who support you that are going through similar things and feeling similar ways. Everyone here is so supportive, even if we live hundreds of miles apart. More supportive than some family may be.