Lady black

Lady black

35 male, central Europe, German speaking
Oct 22, 2018
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Tell (her?) greetings from me, I´ll meet very soon, I hope
 
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limone

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I will...though I think that death means emptiness, non-existence, overwhelming peace and calm
 
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Marawa

HereButNot
Dec 30, 2018
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I will...though I think that death means emptiness, non-existence, overwhelming peace and calm
God I hope you're right but I don't believe it. the sick bastsrd that created all this probably has new tortures waiting but it will happen anyway
 
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limone

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Mar 28, 2019
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God I hope you're right but I don't believe it. the sick bastsrd that created all this probably has new tortures waiting but it will happen anyway
nobody knows but I hope there is simply nothing afterwards
 
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Lady black

Lady black

35 male, central Europe, German speaking
Oct 22, 2018
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I also hope that there´s nothing or a place where nobody has tobe alone, only happiness and love should be there
 
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limone

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it's good to know that I'm not the only one who decided to end life this way. It's very helpful for me
 
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Lady black

Lady black

35 male, central Europe, German speaking
Oct 22, 2018
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I think hanging is one of the most used methods and with full suspension it has a high success quote
 
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limone

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Yeah...thousands of people choose to leave this way. And I accept that it's going to hurt for several seconds
 
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Volomori83

Haunted by the ghosts of the past
Jul 9, 2018
126
For months and months involving relentless testing of partial, at the 11th hour I've decided to go full. Don't want to leave anything to chance. Of course I also will have fierce SI to try overcome. I truly hope I can.
 
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Lady black

Lady black

35 male, central Europe, German speaking
Oct 22, 2018
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For me it didn´t hurt, before i was saved (after I passed out)
 
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limone

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For months and months involving relentless testing of partial, at the 11th hour I've decided to go full. Don't want to leave anything to chance. Of course I also will have fierce SI to try overcome. I truly hope I can.
I know what you are talking about. Instinct is very strong. May you have peaceful journey
For me it didn´t hurt, before i was saved (after I passed out)
I don't want to be saved. It would be horrible...
 
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Lady black

Lady black

35 male, central Europe, German speaking
Oct 22, 2018
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It was horrible, the only pain I felt was after I was "saved" and that was for 2 weaks (head, neck, problems with swallowing)
 
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limone

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It was horrible, the only pain I felt was after I was "saved" and that was for 2 weaks (head, neck, problems with swallowing)
oh...so sorry...it had to be real torture...do you remember the moment when you hanged and fainted?
 
Lady black

Lady black

35 male, central Europe, German speaking
Oct 22, 2018
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Yes I remember. No pain, everything good blurred quick then I passed out. it was more like a dream. I felt I started to "dance" in the noose but couldn´t do anything about it
 
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limone

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I hope I gonna die the same way, not too much pain, then few minutes of unaware convulsions
 
Lady black

Lady black

35 male, central Europe, German speaking
Oct 22, 2018
1,192
I hope so too for you. But the only thing that matters is that you reach your goal then=death
 
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Volomori83

Haunted by the ghosts of the past
Jul 9, 2018
126
It was a strange experience during one of my partial attempts where I actually felt the convulsions start. A bizarre experience, my body doing something outwith my control. It was weird not being able to see anything but feeling my body enter the early stages of the dying process. It didn't actually feel entirely unpleasant.
 
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Marawa

HereButNot
Dec 30, 2018
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It was a strange experience during one of my partial attempts where I actually felt the convulsions start. A bizarre experience, my body doing something outwith my control. It was weird not being able to see anything but feeling my body enter the early stages of the dying process. It didn't actually feel entirely unpleasant.
were you conciousness during convulsions? I have seizures disorder but I'm unconscious when my body convulsed. are you saying you're aware & able to stop the convulsions
 
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Volomori83

Haunted by the ghosts of the past
Jul 9, 2018
126
No it was only for a second or 2 I could feel them and I had no control of them. I couldn't see or hear anything but ringing either. It started as a tingly feeling then my arm and legs kinda just starting raising then shaking. Then I was out. Rope snapped just as was going out, last thing I felt was the snap. I awoke about a second or 2 later on the ground. Limbs felt kinda heavy.
 
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Lady black

Lady black

35 male, central Europe, German speaking
Oct 22, 2018
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I was also not able to stop my "dance" while I was hanging, it´s something that happens after you lost the ability to control your body
 
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Volomori83

Haunted by the ghosts of the past
Jul 9, 2018
126
I just took it as confirmation that I'd done it right. It's also part of the reason I've decided to take my life via full suspension. I realised it would have been quite easy for the shaking to shift my weight in such a way as to relieved some of the pressure of the noose on my neck.
 
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limone

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Mar 28, 2019
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I hope so too for you. But the only thing that matters is that you reach your goal then=death
death is my goal, yes...I expect some pain, blurred vision, weakness and inability to do anything
I'm going to cuff my wrists on the back (I've got cheap handcuffs which close automatically but require key to open) just in case my hands move involuntary
 
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limone

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Mar 28, 2019
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I hope to be enough strong and going to do it tonight
 
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limone

Student
Mar 28, 2019
158
No reason to delay...I'm going to ctb this night
 
Lady black

Lady black

35 male, central Europe, German speaking
Oct 22, 2018
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John Smith

John Smith

Arcanist
Aug 6, 2018
424
It was horrible, the only pain I felt was after I was "saved" and that was for 2 weaks (head, neck, problems with swallowing)
Did you fail at full suspension? If so why?
 
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Gina

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Did you fail at full suspension? If so why?
I've tried hanging a few times, full suspension. If you do it right you feel pressure but not a lot of pain, but once your free from the rope your neck and head are in a lot of pain for awhile.
 
John Smith

John Smith

Arcanist
Aug 6, 2018
424
I've tried hanging a few times, full suspension. If you do it right you feel pressure but not a lot of pain, but once your free from the rope your neck and head are in a lot of pain for awhile.
Why did you fail at it?
 
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